LIR Weekly 52715 - Raido

Being the rune of movement, Raido can cover a lot of ground - metaphorically as well as literally.

This could be actual physical movement of travelling out of the space you're currently in. This could be the movement of cycles, repeating the same steps in a situation with a different perspective. This could be moving forward in your plan, your project. It is most likely a movement you've been contemplating for a while. But you've been hesitant.

Raido says, now is a good time to do it.

But the unknown can be scary, even when it's wished for. How do we allow ourselves to move, with grace and ease and comfort?

The secret, the important part of Raido this week, is to realize that every step we take is new. Every time we make a choice, we gain experience. Even when it feels we are walking in circles, we are actually moving up and around, a spiral. We may do the same thing over and over again, but each time we do it it's easier because we have new knowledge, new skills, more practice under our belt.

Anyone who has watched a movie more than once knows that each experience is different - not because the movie is different - but because the watcher has more or less knowledge, is in a different mood, has more experience in each situation.

So choosing something obviously new, while it may hike up the adrenaline because of evolutionary response, is no different than choosing something "old". You are a new person with each decision you make.

 And each choice creates movement.

Like the situation, the choice of movement doesn't have to be huge. It could be changing seats on your porch. Stepping out with your right foot instead of your left. Skipping instead of walking. How does that change the movement, the perspective? The truths?

To sum up the question, or thought, Raido is proposing: are you ready to move forward, possibly in something you've been contemplating for a while? Are you ready to make a choice and take a step? Do you want to move outside of your comfort zone?

And if you are the one with the question, then the answer is yes - Now is a good time to move.

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Has it really been only a week? Actually, is it true the month isn't over yet? I have taken steps, done a lot of movement, in the past 30 days. I'll be interested to see what the next opportunity is.

Yes there will be travel again this week - and I was going to say, but that's not about me. However, every choice I make is about me. So… But… And…

Hmm. I guess that's all I have to  say today! At least on this subject.

I hope you have a great week.

-Lila

LIR 52015 weekly - Naihwaz & PerthroR

I have learned a new aspect of Naihwaz this past weekend - that of the sacred fire, the fire created to purify the offerings, to request aid and blessings, to accept the bounty that comes. In my mind, this translates as making the fire, and the objects, sacred. Which leads one to wonder, just what does sacred mean?

I think, I feel, sacredness is connected to that feeling of Nirvana, of accomplishment, of awe and wonder and joy so deep it's difficult to express. And isn't that what we feel when we finally reach home, after a journey? When we finally accomplish our goals? When we finish a great book, or hear an amazing song, or see a beautiful science theory?

We feel the moment is sacred. We may even feel the item or event is sacred. Hopefully we also feel sacred ourselves, for that moment.

What if we could be in that moment all the time? What if we allowed ourselves, our movements, our thoughts, our truths to be constantly awesome, amazing, and sacred?

There is no need for bells or whistles, for jewelry, outfits, or feasts. Just an acknowledgement, a silence, an acceptance of the tools, the moment, the transition. A knowing that it is, they are, we are, sacred. Because, whatever we have and however we have practiced, these moments will never be again. And we have given of our best.

So this week Naihwaz asks, what is sacred within our hands, within ourselves here at the end of this transition? What is celebrated, now that we have arrived on our personal shore? Can we, further, allow the tools and gifts and moments to just be, simple and sacred (in whatever fashion you consider sacred), without trying to make them more, or less, than they are? Can we allow ourselves to be, in every moment, sacred, purely ourselves, no adornment necessary?

PerthroR chimes in with a thought. To really celebrate, feel, allow the awesomeness of this moment, perhaps wait before running out to celebrate with your clan. Allow that moment of silence, of pure personal appreciation. Allow yourself to rest, explore the tools, the shore line, the end of your journey. We have worked on and from our truths for a very long time. This may only be one shoreline, one storm, one situation or emotional discovery on our path, but we deserve to appreciate it for ourselves. Not to dilute it with the party, the celebration.

We deserve to make the moment sacred with the silence and fullness of our regard.

Granted, PerthroR may also be a question, or an answer to a different question. Even without the desire to give each moment its own sacred space in time, this may be a good weekend to just sit back and breath. No big parties, no rush to connect with your clan. Allow yourself and your body (and your tools and your thoughts) time to process, settle back into shape.

As I type this, I realize sometimes we float a long time between the end of the storm and settling into shore. It's not that the distance is long, or even that we're adrift. It's simply that it takes that long to process all that has happened and apply it to the new world we are in.

So, allow yourself the sacredness of the moments it takes to celebrate your scientific discovery, to appreciate all the amazing work you have done, to replay the song or reread the book, to find where you are and what you have. There is no rush to connect with your clan. They will always be there. And it can be easier to find the sacred truths in ourselves, if we each have the space to process all the awesomeness personally, before muddying it with the opinions and perceptions of others.

Who are also uniquely sacred.

To view the video, please click HERE (after 2:30 pm MDT on 5/21/15)

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Before I rush off to do the upload the next thing, I just have to say. The sacred part I will enjoy practicing.

The not partying, gathering, celebrating with my clan? Not so easy. I'll have to think about that one. I mean, yes, not only would it help me process, it would help me catch up on all the things I want to DO with all the insights and tools and...

Let me put it another way. I often think, when I encounter Naihwaz, that it's saying yes, you can make do with these few [insert tool names here]. But all it says is you'll have what you need (and conversly, what you need is what you'll have.) 

Long pause for a perusal of what I have - when it comes to ideas, projects, happy to do's and necessary to do's - I have a lot. Insert expletive of your choice lot. And another party next weekend. It does make sense to settle in, buckle down, physically process some of my to do list. 

but.

But?

"But I really want to see the Avengers on the big screen," she whispers. I wonder if I can tell myself it's self care? Will I believe it? It could even be my truth. 

I hope you have a great week!

-Lila

LIR 41715 No Rune / Ogham Nion (Ash)

Yes, continue to work on the basics. Keep practicing.

Remember, each moment is its own moment. Does each moment represent your full truth? Spiritual, political, emotional, physical?

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You might check out my Meanderings page for my latest rant about moments. The last few days have been challenging.

I refuse to believe that, at the base, we (humans) are simply creatures of pain and chaos, undeserving of any good fortune except through the hands of the Universe. That feels ugly, heavy, and irresponsible.

But I am unable to deny that some days, it is better to just go back to bed. That sometimes the truth of the moment is, "I feel like a bag of shards, and I don't want to play today."

It is so difficult to accept that. We struggle against it automatically, especially those of us who are optimistic.

But we feel what we feel, and denying the pain, or the sulk, or the indifference, is denying ourselves.

So, yesterday I accepted my pity party. I revelled in it. I became a full participant. I actually woke up happy this morning.

But some of the effort is coming back, so today will be a definite day of practicing.

The basics of the truth I am practicing is accepting the times when I'm not full stream ahead. I don't know quite how to meld the acceptance of grumpy into the happiness I prefer, but I do know the acceptance is the first step.

I don't seem to be expressing it properly. 

Um, the truth of this moment is full of a myriad of components - mixing both my desire and my reality, my emotional and my spiritual state, and, most importantly, acknowledging what my physical body can do in this moment. It's not stating defeat. (There is no defeat.). It's not even saying "It shall be this way forever." I used the words give up and give in yesterday, but it's really about accepting the current situation. Feeling every part of it. Breathing it in. Giving attention to all the facets. Then, changing them.

Because I can't affect anything until I acknowledge it exists. I can't fully accept something until I allow it to be what it is, in all it's fullness.

Here's another view: When I go into a new situation, I remove expectation of it and myself. I have no idea what is going to happen. I have no idea what it's going to be like. I will allow it to be. And allow myself to react accordingly, without prejudgement.

Perhaps EVERY DAY is a new situation. 


I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 4815 Isa & EihwazR

Isa - What is the truth of the situation, the problem, the project, the feeling? Without attaching past experiences or future possibilities, what is the NOW?

EihwazR - And what can be melded easily without needing a bridge, a middleman, a conductor? Is there some extra work involved that's unnecessary?

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I became fixated yesterday on the middle man part - trying to cut out extra work and all those fiddly moments of worry that add so much burden to otherwise simple tasks. (like phone calls. Or answering emails.) Unfortunately, I feel I cut out parts which would have been helpful - like looking over my notes before filming a video class. Ah well.

As for Isa, for me it was more a day of grateful isolation. I accomplished so much, and most of it was easy. 

However, "What is the Now," is a very tricky question. In that it's so simple I want to make it more difficult. It's so tempting to add stories to it. To bring in the past, to compare now to what I want in the future.

Moments change. Truths change. Heck, in my A Capella group, some of my notes were changed because I couldn't reach them consistently. From moment to moment.

It just feels difficult sometimes, when the answers aren't evident, when the truth is something I didn't expect or, worse, goes against my reality.

Blah. Whatever. Seriously. That was then. Now is different. Somehow I made it past the tears I didn't understand, and stopped the video tape of scenarios in my head. Practice pays off. I am glad I allowed the tears of the moment, gave them their space, and then moved on. No repression, no embarrassment. Just acceptance and release.

And then pudding. So that was good.

I hope you had a great day!
-Lila

LIR 33015 - RaidoR

What is it that's not moving forward? Do you want it to be moving? Perhaps today's a good day to focus on that.

Alternatively, it might just be a day of little movement in any department. It may be a good day to not try and push forward.

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Today was not about transportation, for me, or not as i expected. My car had her 3 month treatment with no issues. And we did actually leave the house today.

And, after checking my to do list, I found I had made progress on everything I wanted to. I confirmed a singing lesson, received an email regarding writers' group, and purchased tickets for Beltania. All forward movement.

Even the one place that hasn't really shown public connection (happiness guide / coach) had some movement today. But that was the most difficult type of movement. So, perhaps, for me, today's movement focus was about what type of movement or, even better, vehicle of movement. Um, in what forms, attitude, am I able to move comfortably? Something... let's move (ha, ha) into the metaphor portion.

Much of my inner focus these days has been on accepting my body type. Which is round. (I am almost able to say it without that weird determined voice.) Even when I was at my "ideal weight for my height" (for approx 30 seconds the 1st week of college) I was round. Round face. Round fingers. Round calves. Round thighs. Round hair. Lots of it. (yay!) 

Yet, I've never thought of myself as round, perhaps because many of my role models and colleagues, heck, family, were more rectangle than round. (And this discovery is a subject for another post (or set of them.)).  I was dressing, expecting to see, and even dancing, walking, sitting as if I was rectangle instead of round, because that was what I saw. Retraining my habits has been very interesting.

For coaching, I have been having similair issues - trying to put on the hat or shoes of "THE GUIDE", and then stumbling around for awhile until I managed to find what fit me. 

For example, when I am wish to offer counsel, but I'm not sure what to say, I slip on the guide boots. (they're brown, leather, very good for hiking through forests.) "I am a happiness guide" (can you see the self important head wiggle?). "Let me lead you out of the slough of despair." I step forward confidently, trip, and fall on my face.

Next! Heels (cuz I am a woman.)? Loafers? Army boots! 

I continue to try on different shoes (metaphysically) until I find my footing - which usually ends us as my comfy slippers, in which I am able be me, which is where all my truths lie, anyway.

In short, one can't move easily when one is trying to be a thing, or act like someone else. One can only move forward as oneself.

The army boots are kind of fun, though. I do keep a virtual pair in my closet, next to the bazooka. For when gentle words don't really get anything moving. *G*

I hope you had a great day!

-lila

LIR 72414 - Blank Rune

Looks like some decisions are being made today. 

Review your needs, your wants, your dreams, 

so when it comes time to give your answer, 

you can speak with your Truth.

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The "review" tended toward a lot of - "not that".  "Nope."  "Definitely don't want to be a part of that."  With one or two "Eeewwww"s.  

Perhaps it was more than that, though.  Perhaps, as I look back, I can say that along with the rejection of things undesired, I stood up for, stood in the circle of the things, emotions, dreams, truths I do desire.  I, maybe embodied, maybe held the space for, or maybe did a lot of picking and choosing, and connected with only those aspects I wanted around me.  Whether it was at retail or ritual.

And it feels like it's coming back to faith.  Faith in myself.  I don't, consciously, know the exact picture of what will make me happy.  I don't know, consciously, all the myriad of possibilities available.  So, I am casting my net wide.  Each time something sparks a "hmm, I wonder if I'd like that?" I send out a feeler.  And then, once the connection is made, I know a little more of how I feel about it.  Because I can always say no.  Or yes.  Or maybe.

But until I am connected, I can't actually know the reality of it.

There really is an element of, "if you want something done, you have to do it yourself."    Which sometimes feels grumbly, because shouldn't everything I want fall into my lap?  But, this being a free will species, EVERYONE gets to choose how they deliver it, or if they deliver it at all.  Everyone gets to say no, or yes, or maybe.

So, we connect.  And we explore the shared reality.  And then I trust myself, and through myself the universe, to bring the right things closer.  To open the doors which will lead to that state of happiness, to that place and job and existence and energy exchange which feeds me.  The place where my Truth is not only accepted, but lauded.  Or debated with friendly intent so I can find more Truth.

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LIR 72714 - Uraz

what do you consider to be your earthly foundations? What, who is really supporting you financially, healthily?

And what, who are you supporting? Healthily?

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 71114 - PerthroR & Ehwaz

Remember, it is your truth & your needs that will keep things flowing the way you want.

Yes, everyone is important, but you are the ONLY one with your experiences.

 

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In other words, if all your friends jumped off a cliff, would you do it?

And remember, sometimes the answer is no.

For me, this reading had 2 or 3 parts.  The first was easily determined.  I turned in my 2 week notice at my current retail job.  There were the expected protestations, and the questions which boiled down to "What can we do to make it happier for you here?"

And it was flattering.  And it was tempting.  But the answer is, "nothing."   The only way for me to be happier at this retail job is for it not to be this retail job.  So.  I imagine there will be a few more conversations, but the truth, my truth, is that it is time for me to move on.

Relatively easy.

Not so easy are the moments when friendly people want to discuss opinions.  Whether it's books, movies, or political arenas, sometimes it's frustrating trying to balance acceptance of other's views and maintaining/ expressing my own views.  I like the person, shouldn't I like the same things she/ he likes?

And then the moments with friends.  True friends.  Long term friends.  However, this is a little easier because part of the strength of the friendship is the give and take of ideas, the flow of one leading and then the other.  A lot of practice has gone into this: the quick turn around between total agreement and opposing views; the switch between one person having knowledge and then other.  Again, the truth of the moment is the most important thing, not the ego, not even the image of "My place in the pack."

And finally, the most interesting part.  The rebellion part.  The "anti-influence".  Being used to doing the opposite of what people advise is just as false as going blindly along.  Opposing sides is not a permanent truth.  And this is the aspect of outside influences I still feel I need a lot of practice in.  When one is used to being unique and different, and prides herself on that, it is easy to miss the good advice, the suggestions and opportunities and vibrations, from unexpected sources.

So, to answer all the mothers in our heads,  if my friends jumped off a cliff, would I follow?  Putting aside the questions such as: can I fly?  What kind of safety device am I wearing?  Is there a time portal we're jumping into? the real issue is this.  Would it make me happy?  if the answer is "yes," I'm jumping.

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LIR 71314 - No Rune

"You’ve got this covered. Anyway, I’m busy." Love, the Universe.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 11414 - Kunos off the cloth

That underlying anxiety?  The feeling of pressure?  That could be the fear or the hope of too many choices.  Put the anxiety aside and focus on the truths of today.  YOUR truths.  Deep breath, and, go!

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I remember at the time of posting this reading, I knew exactly what my fear of choices was.  I don't remember now, but I do remember what I did.

I breathed.

Regardless of the availability of choices, the multitude of possibilities for the future, or even the fear that today's choice is going to negate possible better choices, there is only one thing to do.  Keep moving forward.  One step at a time.  And repeat the mantra - what is for my best and highest good, what will make me happy, is what is going to be.  And the only way I can truly achieve that is to be me, myself, to the best of my ability.

That is my truth.  Each and every day.

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LIR 11614  HagalazR

No storm today, so if you're prepping for a transition, you have more time.  Focus on the things (physical, emotional, mental) you definitely want to take with you - strengthen & secure them.  And breathe.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

January 2014

as seen in the Spirit Wise newsletter

The rune for January is Kunos (also known as Kano, cen, kaunaz, kenaz)

It's fitting that Kunos be the rune for January, the time many people make resolutions to improve themselves and their worlds.  Kunos is about possibilities, the choices we make, our individual personal decision about where to shine our light, where to invest our passion, what to create.

This month, Kunos tells us let all of your hopes and dreams be possible.  Don't just put the probable goals on your list, add everything you want.  From the lifestyle change to the lottery win, from the communication with exotic beings to the clean carpet.  Many of these may not manifest, due to timing, or lack of attention.  Some are just fun day dreams; some are seeds of ideas that will be passions next year.  But let the limits come later, as your attention and desires focus in on specific dreams.  For January, lay it all out and see what you really think you might want to be interested in.

Kunos tells us this also.  The progress of our dreams, our successes, is not measured by another's accomplishments, nor by their opinions.  Our deeds are not diminished because someone else is also doing it, has done it first, has done it differently.  The passion and the fire for each dream comes from each person; so the result, the art, the success of your dream is unique and all yours.  Whether it's the clean carpet or the lottery win.

Kunos, fire and air.  Dream big, dream large.  Anything is possible.  May the dream(s) that feed us be the ones that flourish.

I hope you have a great month!

-Lila

121513 BerkanoR, AnsazR

Double check your information, especially in the financial or physical area.

And yes, once more, no coddling.  

Together, this means, don't push yourself beyond your limits.  Listen to your body.  Can you do more with ease and competence?

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Yeah.  That was a little convoluted.

Trying to cover all the bases for all the people, I imagine.

Well, for me, the communication issues yesterday were extremely convoluted.

It started with an unexpected outburst.  I said something forceful to someone else, and sent myself into a journey of self exploration.  Yippee, she says softly and with little enthusiasm.

I do not have a history of speaking forcefully, so once I recovered from my shock and amazement, and processed the reaction of the person I'd been speaking to, my impulse was to go apologize.

I didn't.

In the first place, I had no idea why I snapped.  (Still don't.)  So making an apology was meaningless.  Insincere.  It would only be a "oh, don't hate me!"

I replayed and replayed the incident (except for the actual words, which I can no longer remember.)  And every rewording or long drawn out, carefully explained non-apology sounded, well, weak.  Wrong.  Devaluing.  The only relevant apology would be for being myself.  And, as I accept myself, there is no need to apologize.

Eventually, I came around to this conclusion.  I have to trust myself.  I have to honor myself.  I go on and on about speaking from our truths.  What if what I said, or the way I said it, was something that needed to be said or done?  From my truth and for hers?   What if what I said was the kindest, or most healing, thing that could be said?

So.  This left me with an interesting emotional cloud to wallow in.  Who knew NOT apologizing took such strength?

I knew the best thing for me to do was to meditate.  Settle myself down.  Look in deep and make sure I was moving froward from a, well, "happy" place, and not a grudging one.

Instead, I wallowed, a martyr to trauma.  I ate chocolate and watched videos until late in the night.  Perhaps punishing myself with unwanted calories.  Shrug.  Perhaps deliberately not doing what I needed.  Or perhaps my brain thought it had had enough trauma for one day and feared the self introspection of meditation.  Silly brain.

So, I coddled myself instead of healed and soothed, due to an interesting, still not quite understood communication.  And even know I haven't meditated.  I have done a long of busy work, cleaned up & sorted.  But the spiritual has taken a back road.

Interestingly enough, the internet went down also yesterday.  Talk about communication issues.

There was no reading today (see the busy work paragraph) and tomorrow is the full  moon.  But I'll be back in touch with you soon.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

112413 - Mannaz in Air

Let us balance our communication; we can speak our truths in a form acceptable to our listeners.

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Thanks to this rune yesterday, I did pay attention to how I communicated, with an ear toward trying to express myself more politely, kindly, compassionately.  That is a good word.  Compassionately -- because it indiicates an awareness of the listener's state of mind, yet doesn't really indicate giving up the truth of what I want to say.
I found out, in most cases, it was easiest to speak other peoples' thoughts.  Trying to get my truths from brain to tongue was (and has been) very difficult.  (Hence my preferance for writing.)
But when I am in conversation with someone, and we are thinking the same thing, then it is easy to express myself.  Because the listener is already thinking it.
Is this a by-product of divination?  Or is divination easier for me because I am more tapped into others' brains than my own?  At least verbally.

Concurrently, communication via my favored form has also been interesting... the internet has been playing silly buggers again.  So I am actually typing this from my phone.  Another adventure in communication.
One of the reasons I purchased this phone was because Windows Office could be downloaded to it in a mobile version.  Yay!  I could work directly on my stories or meanderings without having to save it in 40 different formats.
Yeah, well.
Turns out, the mobile versions do not play well with the keyboard accessory I have.  (I couldn't enter spaces.  Letters, but no spaces.  Do you realize how important spaces are?  They give words form, definition.  So philisophical.)  So, Ihave to find another way (which is polaris office.)  I am going to have to balance between the two programs.  I am going to have to do that for many of the forms of communication of this new phone, because some of the programs I really like don't work the way I want them to.
It's practice.  It balance.  It's being compassionate (open and understanding) toward the device I'm using to communicate.

So.  I hope this reads as well as it sounded in my head.  I'm going to have to practice squinting proofreading if the internet continues it's trickster course.  Granted, it helped me discover a few things...

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

11513 - AlgizR, UrazR

You've got this!  You have all the skills, energy & ideas needed to move forward.  With that in mind, please remember - your truth is not always THE truth.  A little flexibility will help the flow.

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It's nice to know that not everything is a BIG thing.  Granted, every choice leads to one hundred new choices, but...

Today, for me, the flexibility and truth statement involved groceries, the putting away of.

We have a refrigerator/ freezer combo, a freezer, and a small fridge.  Thus, groceries do need to be sorted and taken to the appropriate place.

I carry all the groceries into the house and sort from the counter, where I can pull things out, see what I have, and leisurely remember where each should go.

He, however, wanted to sort them at the car, thus carrying the grouped items directly to the appropriate location.

All well and good, but he wanted me to help him sort, there, at the back of the car.

It was cold outside, today!  I did not want to stand there, shivering, trying to remember if the celery was for snacking (little fridge) or dinner salad (big fridge).  And splitting the frozen sandwiches between the inside and outside freezer was something more easily done with a counter.  In my opinion.

Luckily, I did remember, as I stomped into the house muttering under my breath, that not every body does everything the same way.  He had valid reasons for his approach.

In his opinion.  (even if he was wrong, she types snottily.)

The humor of the Truth being about groceries wiped away the rest of the scowl.

Sometimes, it is the little things.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

101213 - Othilo & Eihwaz in Spirit

Today let's discuss the spiritual choices of the clan.  Othilo is about the gifts we will leave; Eihwaz about balancing paths. 
"What actions/ words will express my truth while allowing others to express theirs?"

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Gentle Beings:

(long long long pause)

I don't know.  I think today was a day where I'll be able to judge the impact of the reading on some future day.  

Perhaps it was about the children today.  There were only a few, but even influencing one can/ will make a difference.  So.

I would have to say that today I was very occupied with doing my best to be true to my truths; and trying to balance between what I wanted, and fulfilling my responsibilities.  Hopefully, I was an example of which I will be proud later.

I hope you had a great day.

-Lila