Yes,
continue to work on the basics. Keep practicing.
Remember,
each moment is its own moment. Does each moment represent your full truth?
Spiritual, political, emotional, physical?
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You might check out my Meanderings page for my latest rant about moments. The last few days have been challenging.
I refuse to believe that, at the base, we (humans) are simply creatures of pain and chaos, undeserving of any good fortune except through the hands of the Universe. That feels ugly, heavy, and irresponsible.
But I am unable to deny that some days, it is better to just go back to bed. That sometimes the truth of the moment is, "I feel like a bag of shards, and I don't want to play today."
It is so difficult to accept that. We struggle against it automatically, especially those of us who are optimistic.
But we feel what we feel, and denying the pain, or the sulk, or the indifference, is denying ourselves.
So, yesterday I accepted my pity party. I revelled in it. I became a full participant. I actually woke up happy this morning.
But some of the effort is coming back, so today will be a definite day of practicing.
The basics of the truth I am practicing is accepting the times when I'm not full stream ahead. I don't know quite how to meld the acceptance of grumpy into the happiness I prefer, but I do know the acceptance is the first step.
I don't seem to be expressing it properly.
Um, the truth of this moment is full of a myriad of components - mixing both my desire and my reality, my emotional and my spiritual state, and, most importantly, acknowledging what my physical body can do in this moment. It's not stating defeat. (There is no defeat.). It's not even saying "It shall be this way forever." I used the words give up and give in yesterday, but it's really about accepting the current situation. Feeling every part of it. Breathing it in. Giving attention to all the facets. Then, changing them.
Because I can't affect anything until I acknowledge it exists. I can't fully accept something until I allow it to be what it is, in all it's fullness.
Here's another view: When I go into a new situation, I remove expectation of it and myself. I have no idea what is going to happen. I have no idea what it's going to be like. I will allow it to be. And allow myself to react accordingly, without prejudgement.
Perhaps EVERY DAY is a new situation.
I hope you have a great day!
-Lila
You might check out my Meanderings page for my latest rant about moments. The last few days have been challenging.
I refuse to believe that, at the base, we (humans) are simply creatures of pain and chaos, undeserving of any good fortune except through the hands of the Universe. That feels ugly, heavy, and irresponsible.
But I am unable to deny that some days, it is better to just go back to bed. That sometimes the truth of the moment is, "I feel like a bag of shards, and I don't want to play today."
It is so difficult to accept that. We struggle against it automatically, especially those of us who are optimistic.
But we feel what we feel, and denying the pain, or the sulk, or the indifference, is denying ourselves.
So, yesterday I accepted my pity party. I revelled in it. I became a full participant. I actually woke up happy this morning.
But some of the effort is coming back, so today will be a definite day of practicing.
The basics of the truth I am practicing is accepting the times when I'm not full stream ahead. I don't know quite how to meld the acceptance of grumpy into the happiness I prefer, but I do know the acceptance is the first step.
I don't seem to be expressing it properly.
Um, the truth of this moment is full of a myriad of components - mixing both my desire and my reality, my emotional and my spiritual state, and, most importantly, acknowledging what my physical body can do in this moment. It's not stating defeat. (There is no defeat.). It's not even saying "It shall be this way forever." I used the words give up and give in yesterday, but it's really about accepting the current situation. Feeling every part of it. Breathing it in. Giving attention to all the facets. Then, changing them.
Because I can't affect anything until I acknowledge it exists. I can't fully accept something until I allow it to be what it is, in all it's fullness.
Here's another view: When I go into a new situation, I remove expectation of it and myself. I have no idea what is going to happen. I have no idea what it's going to be like. I will allow it to be. And allow myself to react accordingly, without prejudgement.
Perhaps EVERY DAY is a new situation.
I hope you have a great day!
-Lila
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