LIR 9915 Weekly - Perthro

Perthro is about outside influences - they flow toward us; they happen all around us. And we have no control over them.

Perthro this week is specifically about influences from the past… more like ripples. The butterfly's wings have flapped, the pebble has dropped in the pond, and the effects are now reaching our shores. We still have no control over it.

Perthro, as you can see in the picture,
kind of resembles a cup, lain on its side. In this case, we can think of ourselves as the cup. The energies, ripples, wing flaps, are rolling towards us, rushing to fill the cup. And, again, we have no control over these energies.

Until they are ours.

Once the energy, the influence, the result of whatever past action rolls into your personal bubble and becomes part of your reality, you have plenty of choices!

How are you going to act, once you know what's going on? Are you going to block the energy, neutralize the energy, accept the energy, use the energy, pass it on?

Let's look at it this way. A box arrives at your doorstep. This is the outside influence. Obviously, it's a past influence, for the box was sent (or ordered) a few days ago. You decide to open the box. Or not. You decide to bring the box into your home. Or not. You decide to keep what's in the box. Or not. You decide to use what's in the box. Or not.

Let's say it's clothes in the box and, in your opinion, they're too ugly to wear. Do you wear them? Return them? Donate them? Stuff them in the back of your closet? Pull out the sewing machine, the bedazzler, and the dye packets?

Let's say, in your opinion, the clothes are perfect! Do you wear them? Return them? Donate them? Stuff them in the back of your closet? Pull out the sewing machine, the bedazzler, and the dye packets?

Stuff is going to come in. We have no control of the influences, ripples, responses, energies flowing toward us. We can control what we receive, what we keep. And we can definitely control what we do with the gifts that arrive upon those ripples.

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This one was difficult to interpret. There's so much trepidation, for me, around other people's choices. I expect part of this is because I have learned a distrust of the human powers' that be. After all, any good story has to have something to struggle against, doesn't it? And oh, the bad guys we have created for our heroic journeys.

So I think I am going to practice changing that perception. For example, I know I'm not the only hopeful, bright-eyed, optimist who believes in unicorns. I know many people have at least one of those traits.

I also know that many people strive to become a power for the express purpose of affecting the world in a positive, hopeful, unicorn friendly fashion.

So I am going to practice believing in those energies, the bright shiny energies. If the government, and the world, is made up of humans (which, yes, is also a belief system), then i am going to make my "Vote" in the energetic world and support the positive. I am going to believe in fairies and other supposed mythical creatures like honest politicians and CEO's who work for and with their employees. And by this belief, this support, I am going to help create more!

And, yeah, I am going to color all of the ripples that come my way with my rainbow marker even before I decide what to do with them.

It sounds flighty, I understand. That's because I do like sparkles. But, really, what it is, is love. A deep, connected with everything, accepting everything, awesome love. It does require practice to stay aware of (hence the rainbow markers), but it's the most influential power I know. 

I hope you have a great and positively influential week!
-Lila

Life In Runes 72215 Weekly - Taiwaz

Even as we enjoy the fruits of a past decision, we are faced with new decisions.

And isn't that the flow of life?

This week Taiwaz is about the cold hard facts.

When facing a situation and deciding what the game plan is, we definitely want to step outside of our emotional comfort zone and be logical, maybe even brutal, with ourselves. A great way to know what we realistically can accomplish is to look into the past. Ask yourself, from this unemotional frame of mind, "did that work last time?" 

When you travel, do you arrive within the time frame your map app quotes? Are you faster? Slower? How long does it take you to actually get out the door? Does your 10 minute project usually take 15 minutes? These are important things to know when scheduling your day.

What about the time of day? Are you more effective at something in the morning than in the evening?

Have you in the past signed up for interesting classes but then had to cancel because your schedule was too full? Save yourself the frustration and don't sign up for the sheep-delicing seminar!

And what about that vacation plan? Do you have too many activities on the day after a 13 hour flight? Or too few?


Taiwaz. It's not even a sacrifice. It's knowing ourselves, inside and out, accepting ourselves, and really touching the core of our truths, so we can plan for the now and for the future. We have the power to make our lives easy.
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So, last week was about making decision that will make this week better.

So far, my best decision was to do this week's readings before I went on vacation!

Isn't it amazing how disruptive a vacation can be? Surely there's a better way to handle such a thing, for the relaxing to be truly relaxing, without having to work twice as hard before and behind in order to "take a few days". But, shrug, it is what it is. Whether it's a vacation or a work trip… actually, any project or event can work more smoothly with planning and foresight. Not planning everything to the minute - but having a basic itinerary, some goals, and knowing oneself well enough to be realistic about those plans, and accepting enough to let things go if necessary. 

And oh, the small decisions that have such a big impact. Like deciding not to take my lap top with me when we went to the Adventure Park, and then having two hours where I preferred to sit instead of go on rides. The phone just didn't cut it as a tool for work I wanted to do! Shrug. Another practice moment. 

Yay, practice! Right?

I was going to whine a little about wanting more success moments, but I do remember having some in the past. Triumphant success moments, not so long ago. So I am going to take a deep breath, take another step forward, and practice making more logical, totally based on my needs and my skills, decisions.

It's all really just another way of accepting ourselves, isn't it?

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 51315 Weekly - Kunos, EihwazR, UrazR

This week EihwazR holds a different meaning for us. It still talks about how worlds can be separate, without bridges, without an overall view, but now it's more personal. Let's start at the beginning.

Kunos is left, EihwazR lower right, UrazR upper right.
 Link To Video of Reading  

Kunos denotes choices. Possibilities. Light shining into any corner you wish to explore. This week, Kunos tells us that it's time to narrow our choices a little. Time to solidify our plans.  Pick a color scheme, choose a team, decide on which seminars you wish to attend. Make a decision.

Now, we don't have to limit our choices - we can choose a myriad of things - the colors, the team, and the seminars. In fact, EihwazR tells us, the things we choose don't even have to be related to each other. So, I can love purple and gold, but root for the Dallas Cowboys (who are Blue and White. Or silver. I'm not sure.) I, for one, have a variety of interests, and each time I think I'm going to discard all but one, the others come knocking again. So, in this situation this week, I don't have to even apply the skills of just one trade, or the scheme of just one color, to my decisions.

UrazR tells us, however, that if we choose multiple focuses, we will have to be prepared for some shaky ground.

If you stick to one dream, one scheme, you can build it's tool box pretty quickly - heck, you probably already have the color scheme in mind. And the foundation will be solid, and you'll work steadily at building your truth.

If you have different dreams and desires, ones which have little to do with each other, that requires different toolboxes; or perhaps a larger toolbox; or maybe a toolbox, a soapbox, and a bookcase. Different dreams. Different tools. Different skill sets. Maybe even different places.

Steady foundation, or multiple dreams. Either choice can be right - it is your truth which tells you.

And remember, this is just for the choices that come up this week. Who knows what's going to happen next!

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Another adventure for me, this week. Beltania starts tomorrow - it is a 4 day festival celebrating spring, and the marriage of the Goddess and the God. It will be the first time I have attended a camping pagan festival (there are a few during the "sunny" months.)

I have all of my equipment and have even practiced setting up my tent in my raincoat. What I don't have is a real clue as to what classes / events / rituals I want to attend. So different from the Threshold gathering. Which could be the meaning of EihwazR for me, right there. That Threshold Gathering is its own world, and Beltania is its own world. Don't expect the same kind of focus and feeling. They are two different subjects, literally the beginning and the ending of life.

I know I wish to see SJ Tucker in concert. (Yay!). And there's a drumming group that will be giving workshops. But there's also the appeal of the daily services for the sun. So, though I do like to have a plan, I don't actually know what is going to appeal. So I'm going to go with the ungrounded, disconnected, floating version of the weekend. At least for this moment of truth.

I hope you have a great week!

-Lila

LIR 33115 - Taiwaz

Why is the situation what it is (or not) today? Because of a choice consciously made in the past.

Remember, there is no good or bad. No mistakes. Simply choice and consequence. And choice again.

And since we're all choosing with our truths, this is most likely a happy situation.

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"Let's do the time warp again!"

Okay. So, yesterday felt more like practice in nurturing. And I wonder if this rune may be for today (it was read for yesterday) - except having to do with decision made now for the future! Rahr. Whatever. 

So, for me, yesterday was a day of caretaking, hence the lack of posting and or reading for today. But today (at least the last few hours) have brought up questions regarding making decisions, and the affect on our future.

We are, each and every one of us, where we are because of decisions made. I met someone tonite who inspired the thought "That's something I could have done." 

If I'd chosen a different major.

If I'd chosen a different school.

If I'd chosen (at any of one hundred times it crossed my mind) to focus more on the study and less on the performing of music.

If I'd chosen...

If I'd...

If...

And the important thing about Taiwaz, about choices, and about life itself, is there is no one right choice. Sometimes it's good to know why the situation is as it is... what choices led to here - especially if you wish to change where here is. But except for practicing purposes, there is no real need to analyze.

A choice made in the past is done. The end. The important moment is now.

A choice made now is just practice. Yes, it's life altering. Every choice is.

And the truth of the matter is, if I really want to do that thing I chose not to do earlier, well, I'm still alive. I can still go do it! (And yeah, I still choose performing. *G*.)

So, let us relish our choices. If we find ourselves sitting up at night berating ourselves, let us turn that pity party into a celebration. We chose. And chose. and Chose again! Yay us!

I heard a line on a tv show "the Walking Dead" - (and no, I don't watch it. I just occasionally hear it.) I'm going to misquote it, I think, but it went something like "It was always going to end like this." Frankly, that is a crock of shards.

But, it is always going to be the way it was. Every choice we've made brought us to this situation. So, let's look forward. Because there is still an eternity waiting to be created.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 5314 - Taiwaz

More sacrifices coming home; more choices made in the past showing their results. 

 Let's celebrate all the choices we've made!

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Why does that seem to be the most difficult part?  Celebrating our choices?

Everytime I look back on my choices I hear the song from Into the Woods; "How do you know what you want 'til you get what you want and you see if you like it?"

You don't.  Or I don't.  Granted, practice and experience eventually tell you what things you like for the moment (Ooo!  Shiney!)  And what things you really like in the long run.

And whatever else I have gained from past (and passed) choices, these last few days, the most important skill is to know there is a difference between making a choice for myself, and making a choice so I'll be finished with the process of choosing.  Sometimes the sacrifice we make is to wait.

The other benefit of making many choices in the past is knowing this other important fact - no choice is permanent.  I can always change my mind.  A second, a minute, a year, a decade later.  Changes, adaptation, a different set of circumstances.  My choices are (I hope) evolving with me.

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LIR 5514 - Wunjo

Fly your "freak flag" high & proudly, so your peeps can find you!

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 22514 - Taiwaz & Perthro

Today's situation is based on past decisions, past actions.  Some choices were yours, but other people's choices affect us too.

So when you're celebrating your current fortune, you might take a moment to celebrate everyone who chooses.

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There was no one specific moment, but I did spend a lot of time contemplating the past, and which moments - well, which stretches of time, seemed the happiest to me.  

I know we can't go back in time; I know that change is part of my life cycle.  i seem to like the challenge of it, especially if the change creates a project, like moving into a new house or starting a new job.

And I know other people make their choices and those choices can affect us.  Like the house we had viewed and viewed again and made an offer on, and never received an answer, diverting us to a different choice.  

But every day is like that - small moments and big ones.  Every day is based off of previous decisions, ours and others.

Shrug.

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LIR 22614 - OthiloR

Today's answers may lie somewhere other than the traditional path.  Look not amongst the skills & gifts handed down from family.  Reach outside your ancestral box.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 11414 - Kunos off the cloth

That underlying anxiety?  The feeling of pressure?  That could be the fear or the hope of too many choices.  Put the anxiety aside and focus on the truths of today.  YOUR truths.  Deep breath, and, go!

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I remember at the time of posting this reading, I knew exactly what my fear of choices was.  I don't remember now, but I do remember what I did.

I breathed.

Regardless of the availability of choices, the multitude of possibilities for the future, or even the fear that today's choice is going to negate possible better choices, there is only one thing to do.  Keep moving forward.  One step at a time.  And repeat the mantra - what is for my best and highest good, what will make me happy, is what is going to be.  And the only way I can truly achieve that is to be me, myself, to the best of my ability.

That is my truth.  Each and every day.

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LIR 11614  HagalazR

No storm today, so if you're prepping for a transition, you have more time.  Focus on the things (physical, emotional, mental) you definitely want to take with you - strengthen & secure them.  And breathe.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

January 2014

as seen in the Spirit Wise newsletter

The rune for January is Kunos (also known as Kano, cen, kaunaz, kenaz)

It's fitting that Kunos be the rune for January, the time many people make resolutions to improve themselves and their worlds.  Kunos is about possibilities, the choices we make, our individual personal decision about where to shine our light, where to invest our passion, what to create.

This month, Kunos tells us let all of your hopes and dreams be possible.  Don't just put the probable goals on your list, add everything you want.  From the lifestyle change to the lottery win, from the communication with exotic beings to the clean carpet.  Many of these may not manifest, due to timing, or lack of attention.  Some are just fun day dreams; some are seeds of ideas that will be passions next year.  But let the limits come later, as your attention and desires focus in on specific dreams.  For January, lay it all out and see what you really think you might want to be interested in.

Kunos tells us this also.  The progress of our dreams, our successes, is not measured by another's accomplishments, nor by their opinions.  Our deeds are not diminished because someone else is also doing it, has done it first, has done it differently.  The passion and the fire for each dream comes from each person; so the result, the art, the success of your dream is unique and all yours.  Whether it's the clean carpet or the lottery win.

Kunos, fire and air.  Dream big, dream large.  Anything is possible.  May the dream(s) that feed us be the ones that flourish.

I hope you have a great month!

-Lila

12913 - Kunos & WunjoR

Kunos - Choices become more specific, possibly spiritual in nature.
WunjoR - communication with clan is spotty.
Today is a good day to double check our truths and our assumptions.

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The thing that most comes to mind about this reading and my experiences of the past day is: "the trouble with Divination."

Of course, the first down side to Divination is proving a negative.  How many accidents have we avoided, how many bitter paths have we missed, how many ill feelings have we escaped because we turned right instead of left?  Oh yeah?  Prove it.  

But the second down side is about focus:  If all you focus on is the event or situation, how can you know what else is possible?   

A member of my clan read me an astrological prediction for 2014 (obviously a general prediction, but Yay Leos!).  It was very encouraging, but now I find myself limiting the choices I'm considering so my bright and shiny future will fit into that reading.

And that's just silly.  I put a lot of work into a lot of things this year - emotional, personal, spiritual and business (al).  Any number of doors could be the way to fulfill my ultimate goal.  And the focus mentioned in the prediction can be a side benefit of many of those doors.  Why limit myself to just that narrow perception triggered by specific words?

"I see a tall dark stranger, and a tropical island."
      Immediate perception:   Ooh!  Captain Jack (a lot steadier on his feet, and wearing a tux) is going to walk into the grocery store one day and decide I need to sail away with him.
       Reality:  A brunette basketball player has to cancel her vacation because she's picked for an All Star team.  I'm idly shopping cruise sights and voila!  the tickets are available for the right time and right price and right place for me.  
       Danger:  That I pass up this opportunity because it didn't fit into the perception.   (And, let's be honest, if a stranger tried to sweep me up, I'd probably scream and beat him with my purse.  Especially if he looked like Captain Jack.  Too bad Legolas is blonde.)

The point is this.  Perception needs two eyes, one on the broad view and one on the narrow, allowing all sorts of possibilities.  The truth of today is not necessarily the truth of tomorrow because the focus changes every day.  I pick my path moment to moment; and while my past choices may limit my current choices, there's no need to narrow the future before it even happens.

I hope that made sense.

And I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

111513 - EihwazR

Today, #EihwazR is off the cloth.  (ps, this means it physically rolled to a place off of the reading cloth - specifically, upper left).  
You may be dealing with the fear that fulfilling today's needs will deprive others, perhaps your future self.  Is it really concern, or is it guilt?  Choose based on what you can live with, not someone else's opinion.

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As is often the case, when I'm in a tearing hurry and hoping for a quick read, something really complicated arrives instead.  The universe loves me.  (Well, it does.)

Eihwaz is a complex rune in and of itself, being as it balances between two worlds, chooses between now and then.  And being off the cloth meant it wasn't a definite force or situation, so much as a fear.  Or a hope.  An intangible reality.

In the contrary way of the universe, in my perception these intangibles are much more helpful than the tangibles.

We have been doing a lot of practice with choosing -- what makes us happy for the moment?  What feels like our truth?  First we explored what we really desired; then we worked on maintaining those desires regardless of outside approval or disdain; then we worked on showing others, or helping others.  (and yes, if I go back over the daily progression, it probably wasn't as clear cut as that, but that's how it feels to me.)  We learn, we practice, we teach.

So now.  Now we are looking at the next layer.  The why.  
  Sitting in a picture window smelling incense makes you happy.  Why?
  The energy of screaming children is preferable to classical music.  Why?
The intangibles can help us see this, the hidden or underlying fears and hopes.

Today, that intangible was the wrestling between now and then, or us and them.  The haves and the have nots.

And sometimes choice is enough to freeze your decision making.  It's not just, "if I buy a coat today, will I have enough for shoes tomorrow?" 
 It's not even just, "If I buy a coat today, I'll have to buy something for my friend, and then I won't have enough for shoes tomorrow."
  It's also the "How can I buy a coat today, if my friend can't afford the same kind of coat I want to buy?"

There's also the opposite effect.  "Ooh.  I must buy this coat today.  And those shoes.  And buy something for my friend.  Coats for everyone!  Because we may not have it tomorrow!"

Both are extreme examples, but the real and only question is, what makes you happy?  Even if it is guilt that drives you?  Or fear.  Or extreme selfishness.  Or exuberance.  What makes you happy?

Today, I had the opportunity to pay off a debt or two.  And I wanted to pay off as many as I could.  That made me happy.  Exuberant.  Release from the subtle (or not so subtle, in some cases) pressure of "Owing" someone.  And yes, I was aware that part of me thought, "I need to do this today, because I might not want to do it tomorrow.  Tomorrow I might want the coat!"

Shrug.  I did what I could.  And I was happy.  I choice, fully conscious of the motives underneath the manic actions.  Tomorrow's coat, well, that's for tomorrow.

I hope you have a great day.

-Lila

101013 - Kunos in fire

Looks like today we'll benefit from past choices, or we'll be making final decisions on where we really want to put our energy!  We're aiming for what makes us happy!

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Hmm.  Okay.  Benefit from past choices.  

Weeellll... I've been craving butterscotch cookies for about a month and haven't found any in the grocery store.  Tried to substitute straight butterscotch chips - but only found them once.  And, as I had no desire to actually try and make cookies, they were too sweet by themselves.  Tried butterscotch pudding - it didn't set up well, and again was too sweet.  And yes, I love the salted caramel cocoas, but... 'tsnot a cookie.  (ME WANT COOKIE!) 
Today I went to the grocery store for dinner ingredients and I was complaining to my shopping companion about the dearth of butterscotch cookies.  As we walked through the dairy, I glanced at the very full clearance section and LA! there was a stack of oatmeal scotchies cookie dough - just break apart and cook.  I laughed and laughed.  (and people looked at me, and I didn't care.)
  My shopping companion grabbed me 3 packs.  She has, by the way also taught me a most excellent and quick form of cookie cooking.  Put the dough on the plate, put the plate in the microwave for 15 to 30 seconds.  I like 30 seconds, because it gets a gentle crust.  Warm.  Melty.  Soft.  The problem with baking cookies, I've always thought, is when they're a day old, the steam of flavor is missing.  Microwaving cookie dough is much better.  In my opinion.

So, that's a benefit, for my taste buds at least.  And I was happy.  But I don't know if it really applies to the "fire" portion -- unless you consider butterscotch chips are orange.

In other news, in my personal reading (which involved communication) I was so concerned about all the things it might have been, I actually missed it when it happened.  Ah well.  Next time I'll try harder.

But back to this reading, beginning and ending of the day, I did put my energy into the things I enjoy.  And actually, oh yeah!  
I am a bit of a planner, and I know if I try to concentrate on too many things at once, I just get (well, the word is pissy) cranky.  I had set this evening aside as family time.  But... the family was off each doing his/her own thing.  So, instead of sitting around feeling useless and put upon (and instead of playing video games), I went back to my office and was productive.  I felt much better after that.  I'll admit, I did not have this rune reading in mind when I did it (I was still festering over the missed opportunity).  But past practices of learning how to set aside the expectations, of seeing the situation for what it is, allowed me to do for me today.

And that spurred me to do more writing, which made me so happy, I actually had to force myself to stop so I COULD fulfill my family time duties.  

Goodness.  I am a babbling.  And I do want to play SOME video game today.  So.

I hope you had a great day!

-Lila

92013

The inheritance is not manifesting today. (othiloR)

  choices can be limited by emotional ties (kunosR)  

Remember: *What do I want?  What makes ME happy?

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It being a long couple of days, I'm tired.  Humorously, yesterday did not succeed as planned.  Sigh.

But, quick analysis of today...
           Well, I tried to take a picture with an inherited camera...  it did not come out in digital the way it looked in life.
           Emotional ties: hmm.  I probably could have encouraged an emotional connection to make a better choice.
           What do I want?  What makes me happy?  This one, I lived by today.  I weighed my choices, decided what I was willing to exchange for what I wanted, and made a decision based on what made me the happiest.  So.  Yay me!

I hope your day was as empowering.

-L