LIR 4315 - Mannaz

What area of your life, business, dreams could use a little practice today? 

In order to have that perfect balance, every leg of the foundation must be equally strong.

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Today, this rune seemed to apply not to a situation, or to balance (or at least not to my balance) but to actual human nature. Today, a human walked into the room and disturbed my rune reading for tomorrow - which means there is no video, though it is posted on Tumblr & Twitter.

I video tape the readings - hence the noise was a factor in my frustration. Also, there is no separate room for readings, or office work, or television. We are very communal in our daily lives. Which means going with the flow.

But I was in the middle of the reading!

It felt so disrespectful. Because, of course, running through my head are all the thoughts, "if I'd walked in on him at work, he wouldn't be laughing." But the intention was simply for him to enter the room. Earlier than expected. Without notice, because he thought I'd be disturbed by an early phone call.

Ah, human nature. We try to balance what we feel versus what we think they want. And it often ends up in a debacle. Perhaps the balance comes in allowing the pithy and snarky comments, then letting everything settle back into itself without holding meaningless grudges. And, of course, learning from the problems. Communicating...

So maybe that is the area which needs balance. Communication. Such as, how to either notify a reading is in progress, or how we both can behave if he does walk in on another reading. (like, no slamming the door!)

I am grateful that I am practicing - as opposed to "perfect". Things break. we try again.

Anyhoo, though there is a reading for tomorrow - printed, not taped - I won't be commenting on it until the next day. So I will talk to you later!

I hope you have a great day (twice!)

-Lila

LIR 73014 - Mannaz

A good day to rebalance, with attention on the physical -

 be it financial, visual, health.

Remember, the body is as important as the mind.

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this is about calories again, isn't it?

Actually, I think it probably was.  And my attempt (less successful than I wanted) to balance the amount of cake I consumed with the time spent doing Dance Dance Revolution.

And I just have to ask... what is it about cake?  Yum.

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LIR 73114 - DagazR far off the mat

Today’s driving force may be an instinctive fear or hope that time is running away from you.

But whether your deadline is tomorrow or next year, your best pace is the one which enables you to do your best.

Time is only fleeting when categorize it. Now is eternal.

I hope you have a great now!
-Lila

LIR 21814 - Sowelo & Mannaz

Recalling a past success or focusing on a goal nearing completion will help bring feelings back into balance.

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I can say the last 24 hours (ish *G*) have been more calm and focused than the previous weekend...  I felt I did good work on the work I was doing, and I've had a good and productive morning.  So, i would say it showed as hard work from previous days, months and years allowed me to slip back into the focused, productive groove.

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LIR 21914 - no rune

I'm taking it as a sign to go back to bed.

I hope you're having a great day!
-Lila

LIR 2614 Mannaz & Ansaz

Be patient, be attentive; be still.  The balance, the inspiration, will come to you, but it has to be able to find you.

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I can't say that the inspiration has come, but maybe the balance has.  By taking each moment as its own, I am working slowly and steadily.

I have the goal, in my  head, what the finished product is or needs to be (like getting the taxes filed.)  And I am working bit by bit toward that goal.  But there are many goals, in this busy and exciting year.  So, the balance is feeling which goal I wish to work at the moment, and letting myself go with that flow.

Much of the medical stuff has been less frustrating that it could be because Kaiser calls us and asks questions!  (Talk about balance coming to us.)  We didn't have to gather up the time and energy to call them.  (Why oh why does talking to health care persons seem so stressful?  talk about perception of judgement!)

Which, actually, is inspiration in itself.  Inspiration for myself.  And a balance between average and personal.  I answer the health questions truthfully (owning my shit); I listen to advice, opinions and suggestions (cause after all, I have chosen to consult with these people); and then I make decisions and take responsibility for my issues.  Whether those decisions fall into the "should" line or not, is totally up to me.  Cause it is my body.  I'm the one who has to live with it.

So there.  Nyah.

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LIR 2714  nothing

The universe has no suggestions today.  One breath at a time.  Yay us!

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

112413 - Mannaz in Air

Let us balance our communication; we can speak our truths in a form acceptable to our listeners.

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Thanks to this rune yesterday, I did pay attention to how I communicated, with an ear toward trying to express myself more politely, kindly, compassionately.  That is a good word.  Compassionately -- because it indiicates an awareness of the listener's state of mind, yet doesn't really indicate giving up the truth of what I want to say.
I found out, in most cases, it was easiest to speak other peoples' thoughts.  Trying to get my truths from brain to tongue was (and has been) very difficult.  (Hence my preferance for writing.)
But when I am in conversation with someone, and we are thinking the same thing, then it is easy to express myself.  Because the listener is already thinking it.
Is this a by-product of divination?  Or is divination easier for me because I am more tapped into others' brains than my own?  At least verbally.

Concurrently, communication via my favored form has also been interesting... the internet has been playing silly buggers again.  So I am actually typing this from my phone.  Another adventure in communication.
One of the reasons I purchased this phone was because Windows Office could be downloaded to it in a mobile version.  Yay!  I could work directly on my stories or meanderings without having to save it in 40 different formats.
Yeah, well.
Turns out, the mobile versions do not play well with the keyboard accessory I have.  (I couldn't enter spaces.  Letters, but no spaces.  Do you realize how important spaces are?  They give words form, definition.  So philisophical.)  So, Ihave to find another way (which is polaris office.)  I am going to have to balance between the two programs.  I am going to have to do that for many of the forms of communication of this new phone, because some of the programs I really like don't work the way I want them to.
It's practice.  It balance.  It's being compassionate (open and understanding) toward the device I'm using to communicate.

So.  I hope this reads as well as it sounded in my head.  I'm going to have to practice squinting proofreading if the internet continues it's trickster course.  Granted, it helped me discover a few things...

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

112013 - Mannaz

Change is difficult.  Maybe today, instead of making a big change, we can create a synthesis between what was & what will be.

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At first, I thought this was about taking small steps today.  Wanting something to change right now, but needing to do it one step at a time.

And it is.  But, for me at least, I think I had the timing wrong.

Because I do have dreams, goals, ambitions, projects; and sometimes I feel like they're never coming to fruition.

And I was considering all those plans, and, further, all the things I have already done in my life.  Things I did make happen.  And I realized, today's reading may be more of an assurance.  

Things happen in small steps.  The bigger the change, the more people it affects, the longer it takes.  Therefore, don't give up.  Small steps.  Just taking steps.  Keep taking steps.  That is the chain, that is the synthesis, that is the balance.  Change one small thing, and bigger things will grow.  From yesterday to today to tomorrow.

Keep stepping.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

111913 - Jera & Mannaz

A good day to practice balance between spiritual & physical, as more harvest comes in.  Celebrate with moderation, and allow this harvest to propel you further along your path, instead of into old habits.

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Today, many things happened that could be considered the effects of previous causes, but I would say the main example of harvest today, for me, was a surplus of energy.

It has, for me, been a very hard working year.  A lot of energy has been used for myself personally, for situations around me, for others.  Energy being what it is, it's not always easy to pinpoint exactly where we're using it or how effective the use is.

But it is becoming obvious (to me) that I do not need to be expending as much energy these days as I used to.  So I find myself, suddenly, with an excess.

With this energy comes a buoyant feeling of good will, exuberance, joy, bubbles!  Which is very nice.  Certainly a lighter weight than I have been feeling.  Sadly, the extra energy can sometimes create a wave of erratic, possibly manic, behavior.  For example, exuberance when driving can turn to frustration, and then a desire to play monster truck with the people in the left hand lane who are going ten miles under the speed limit!

(inhale.  exhale.  move on.)

I did not like the way I was feeling when I arrived home.  And that, that is not a harvest I desire.

Happily, some of my other skills, things I have been practicing, kicked into gear.  I took a deep breath, stepped back, accepted my behavior and moved on.

For me, moving on meant first, to be productive.  And then, to do some energy work to heal any harm that might have been done.  And when my brain just couldn't operate anymore, I did turn to old habits of eating and watching movies.

Happily, my other major harvest for the year is you.  Because of you, I examined my day again, prepared to flog myself publicly for my terrible actions ( being energetic and a little too gleeful; mentally blowing up vehicles, turning to old habits)  Since fail isn't in my vocabulary, I was trying to find ways to say I'd failed without actually using the word.

But there was no failure.  There was only the same thing there is every day.  Choices were made.  Results were accepted.  And I am here, at the end of the day, feeling happy, because of you.

I now know I need to work on my awareness of how much energy is flowing versus how much I am using.  No sense lighting my votive candle with a dragon -- oh, it could be fun, (insert evil laugh here)  but it'll probably be messy; and it will effect people who had nothing to do with either candle or dragon.  Or even the desire to have light.

And I know I still turn to food and mindlessness for escape.  But since I had celery & peanut butter instead of cake & frosting, I am going to give myself a star.

And I know I still have a tendency to focus on the problem side of the issue.  But, I also have you, to whom I must admit my progress as well as my recurring weaknesses.

So thank you, You.  For being part of my harvest.  And helping me replace old unhappy habits with new, happy ones.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila