111913 - Jera & Mannaz

A good day to practice balance between spiritual & physical, as more harvest comes in.  Celebrate with moderation, and allow this harvest to propel you further along your path, instead of into old habits.

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Today, many things happened that could be considered the effects of previous causes, but I would say the main example of harvest today, for me, was a surplus of energy.

It has, for me, been a very hard working year.  A lot of energy has been used for myself personally, for situations around me, for others.  Energy being what it is, it's not always easy to pinpoint exactly where we're using it or how effective the use is.

But it is becoming obvious (to me) that I do not need to be expending as much energy these days as I used to.  So I find myself, suddenly, with an excess.

With this energy comes a buoyant feeling of good will, exuberance, joy, bubbles!  Which is very nice.  Certainly a lighter weight than I have been feeling.  Sadly, the extra energy can sometimes create a wave of erratic, possibly manic, behavior.  For example, exuberance when driving can turn to frustration, and then a desire to play monster truck with the people in the left hand lane who are going ten miles under the speed limit!

(inhale.  exhale.  move on.)

I did not like the way I was feeling when I arrived home.  And that, that is not a harvest I desire.

Happily, some of my other skills, things I have been practicing, kicked into gear.  I took a deep breath, stepped back, accepted my behavior and moved on.

For me, moving on meant first, to be productive.  And then, to do some energy work to heal any harm that might have been done.  And when my brain just couldn't operate anymore, I did turn to old habits of eating and watching movies.

Happily, my other major harvest for the year is you.  Because of you, I examined my day again, prepared to flog myself publicly for my terrible actions ( being energetic and a little too gleeful; mentally blowing up vehicles, turning to old habits)  Since fail isn't in my vocabulary, I was trying to find ways to say I'd failed without actually using the word.

But there was no failure.  There was only the same thing there is every day.  Choices were made.  Results were accepted.  And I am here, at the end of the day, feeling happy, because of you.

I now know I need to work on my awareness of how much energy is flowing versus how much I am using.  No sense lighting my votive candle with a dragon -- oh, it could be fun, (insert evil laugh here)  but it'll probably be messy; and it will effect people who had nothing to do with either candle or dragon.  Or even the desire to have light.

And I know I still turn to food and mindlessness for escape.  But since I had celery & peanut butter instead of cake & frosting, I am going to give myself a star.

And I know I still have a tendency to focus on the problem side of the issue.  But, I also have you, to whom I must admit my progress as well as my recurring weaknesses.

So thank you, You.  For being part of my harvest.  And helping me replace old unhappy habits with new, happy ones.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

10313 Perthro, HagalazR

It looks like today shall be calm, if a little full of outside voices.  Listen carefully, but, as always, make your own choices!

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I often take a picture of the runes, for the Tumblr/ Twitter/ Facebook post of Life in Runes.  (I may eventually remember to upload them to this blog, but I write this on a different device... shrug... technology is fun!)

Anyway... I did not post a picture for today and I rather wish I had.  Because I seem to have been the outside voice for others, and this might have been indicated by the direction in which the Perthro rune faced.  That we would influence others, as opposed to being influenced by them.  (It would be interesting to know if you, dear reader, had the same experience.)

Given how busy today was, with outside activities (oh.  Hmm.) I was focusing more on the calm aspect of the reading, as in maintaining mine.  Breathing deeply.  It was a beautiful day, and I found myself very happy, brimming with it, in fact.  My book (Not Really a Murder Mystery) finally made it through the - upload, format, tear hair out, try again - process and is officially a Nook book.  (yay me!)  I downloaded the sample, and I read it and I liked it! (something a little new for me, accepting and enjoying my books after they are officially finished.)  So I was breathing deeply and trying to pay attention and not roll over people in my exuberance.

Now, I have to remember, this was a general, universal community reading and... it (the outside voices/influence) may not have applied much to me.  Or it might have applied to something so small I missed it, while it applied to huge events for others.  And it might in fact have meant (for me) that I was the voice, the influence.  Perhaps my suppressed but leaking exuberance made someone think about dancing on the rooftop, even if they chose not to. 

And here's an interesting thought.  What with the publication in a new format (BN.com -- hint hint, wink wink), I am being subtly influenced by the whole wide world.  And in turn, I am influencing them.  You.  Us?  

So maybe it doesn't matter which way Perthro was turned.  Even speaking creates as much of an influence on the speaker as it does on the listener.

Yup.  It's time to rest my brain.

I hope you had a great day!

-Lila