LIR 1714  Jera

Yay!  More production from actions taken in the past!  And also a reminder.  Our actions today create harvest for the future.

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It's been a week, so I can't say I remember everything that was harvested.  But here is the thought that strikes me now, that has been relevant through the last week.

Every action, every thought, every single decision brings a harvest of consequences.  And we train ourselves and others with those actions and reactions.

For one example, we set up an appointment to view an apartment.  There was a choice of Sunday or Monday to view.  I chose Sunday because I factored in past behaviors & preferences like time getting off of work, how we drive, weekend versus weekday traffic.  The weather may not be optimal, but it's a good thing to know also - what the drive is like in uncertain weather.  All of these decisions are harvests from past actions.  Learning experiences.

Every single day we do and try and we file away all the feelings and responses we receive from our six senses to create a harvest for the next time we do and try.  It is not just others we receive harvest from, it is ourselves.  How do we treat ourselves if something we don't like happens?  How do we reward ourselves and for what?  What little things do we do that we think are being strong, and are really just punishing?  what other things do we do simply because they make us happy?

Another example, in my case, is back to the food and health thing.  Because we watch tv while we eat dinner, eating is a natural act while watching television.  So when I wake up and realize I've eaten too much, I have to look back not at the meals, but at the things I've consumed because by body thinks I'm hungry when I watch tv.

Every action brings a harvest of consequences.  this is good to know, because it means I am totally in control.

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LIR 11214 - Eihwaz

Today is a day to step back and view the bigger picture; how can you balance your truths with the truths of another - be it another person, or you from another time?

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

122813 Ehwaz

Transformation does not mean everything must change; nor must all be lost.  Comfortable habits from the past can facilitate relationships in the future.

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I for one am grateful for these words...  because things are changing so quickly it seems.  I realize it is simply the culmination of the change -- the birth happens suddenly, but one does prepare for 9 months prior -- but still, this last week has felt like a house dropping on my head.

So it is reassuring to know that though relationships change, they need not dissolve altogether.  Acceptance and non-judgement.  And yes, using old habits, ways of working together, to ease into the new form the relationship has taken.  Which is excellent, because we all change, and thus our relationships must change also.

More comfortable for me to talk about right now is my renewed interest in singing.  It's never been totally dormant, but it has, mostly, lain fallow (unless you count in the car going "65 I swear, officer" down the highway.  Belting is a requirement at that speed.)  Suddenly, I am exploring vocal warm ups on You Tube (Eric Arceneaux), paying attention to my support (mostly), and trying to find my classical voice.  As I used to take voice lessons, many of proper singings tools are comfortable old habits.  Rusty, but comfortable.  Like putting on the prom dress and realizing you just need to iron it out and make adjustment to one seam.

An uncomfortable habit is videotaping myself to see what I really need to work on.  My voice teacher used to record me on tape; I never like the sound of my recorded voice.

I was happily surprised to realize I wasn't horrified by the video tape.  I am unable to say I was awesome, because, I really don't know.  But I was decent.  I didn't cringe away from my voice or even from watching myself.  And now I know a lot of things I need to work on.  Work-on-able things.  So somewhere I developed the habit of being able to critique myself in a positive fashion.  Yay me!

Of course, I have no desire for singing to replace any of my other loves (reading, riting, rithmatic or rumination!) so I hope this transformation means my skills have developed enough to fit something new into the mix.

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122913 nothing at all (seriously, no rune wanted to be pulled.  The universe was busy *G*.)

123013 DagazR:  Today is a day to keep moving ahead, no judgements or analysis.  One step in front of the other, slow and steady, with a deep breath in between.  Make sure each step is finished before you move on, but don't stop to critique.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

111913 - Jera & Mannaz

A good day to practice balance between spiritual & physical, as more harvest comes in.  Celebrate with moderation, and allow this harvest to propel you further along your path, instead of into old habits.

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Today, many things happened that could be considered the effects of previous causes, but I would say the main example of harvest today, for me, was a surplus of energy.

It has, for me, been a very hard working year.  A lot of energy has been used for myself personally, for situations around me, for others.  Energy being what it is, it's not always easy to pinpoint exactly where we're using it or how effective the use is.

But it is becoming obvious (to me) that I do not need to be expending as much energy these days as I used to.  So I find myself, suddenly, with an excess.

With this energy comes a buoyant feeling of good will, exuberance, joy, bubbles!  Which is very nice.  Certainly a lighter weight than I have been feeling.  Sadly, the extra energy can sometimes create a wave of erratic, possibly manic, behavior.  For example, exuberance when driving can turn to frustration, and then a desire to play monster truck with the people in the left hand lane who are going ten miles under the speed limit!

(inhale.  exhale.  move on.)

I did not like the way I was feeling when I arrived home.  And that, that is not a harvest I desire.

Happily, some of my other skills, things I have been practicing, kicked into gear.  I took a deep breath, stepped back, accepted my behavior and moved on.

For me, moving on meant first, to be productive.  And then, to do some energy work to heal any harm that might have been done.  And when my brain just couldn't operate anymore, I did turn to old habits of eating and watching movies.

Happily, my other major harvest for the year is you.  Because of you, I examined my day again, prepared to flog myself publicly for my terrible actions ( being energetic and a little too gleeful; mentally blowing up vehicles, turning to old habits)  Since fail isn't in my vocabulary, I was trying to find ways to say I'd failed without actually using the word.

But there was no failure.  There was only the same thing there is every day.  Choices were made.  Results were accepted.  And I am here, at the end of the day, feeling happy, because of you.

I now know I need to work on my awareness of how much energy is flowing versus how much I am using.  No sense lighting my votive candle with a dragon -- oh, it could be fun, (insert evil laugh here)  but it'll probably be messy; and it will effect people who had nothing to do with either candle or dragon.  Or even the desire to have light.

And I know I still turn to food and mindlessness for escape.  But since I had celery & peanut butter instead of cake & frosting, I am going to give myself a star.

And I know I still have a tendency to focus on the problem side of the issue.  But, I also have you, to whom I must admit my progress as well as my recurring weaknesses.

So thank you, You.  For being part of my harvest.  And helping me replace old unhappy habits with new, happy ones.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila