LIR 11916 Weekly - Jera

"Do you believe the work is equal
 to the harvest you desire?"





What a loaded question.

If you're like me, the answer seems to be "What work?" With a lot of exclamation points.

Yes, I know the general feel of the harvest I'm working for, believing in, manifesting. I see it in the distance - a cozy cottage with trees and twinkly lights and a babbling brook. My favorite steed munching contentedly in it's own cozy place, and easy connection to all the people I love.
Or a grand store, where I can wake up in the morning and wander downstairs to do my writing in between clients and customers and random people pulled in by the atmosphere. My peeps are everywhere. My favorite steed is there too, and sometimes turns into a leer jet so I can travel to exotic places and write about them for the delight of my soul. There are classes and singing and knick-knacks and a veranda.

I can feel this. I can see it. I know I have the skills to BE it.

But between me and the cottage / store / castle of dreams is a misty expanse of nothingness. Just fog. Thick, heavy, clinging, dragging fog. Like in a video game, where the next part of the map isn't revealed until you finish all the quests on this part of the map.

And I have no idea how to clear the fog. I don't know what quests are due. I am running from screen to screen, pushing buttons and searching trunks, and nothing is working. And I can't seem to access my hints.

So, to answer the question, the work I am doing is NOT equal to the harvest. It seems to have nothing to do with the harvest. It feels like I'm spinning my wheels.

Yesterday a path-partner advised, "Just stop and step away." As in, stop stomping on the gas if I'm not getting anywhere. Stop running from screen to screen. Stop trying to figure out the fog. Quit trying to get across, or through.

Maybe sit down and have a cup of tea. Read a book. Finish my to do list - okay, start my to do list. It may not feel like it's attached to the harvest, but it is work that needs to be done. And there is still work which brings me happiness - like writing, and reading runes, and laundry.

And maybe that's the real answer. Just keep doing the happy. I know it's the answer I'm supposed to say, as a happiness practitioner. It's the answer that resonates, even though I have no idea how it will get me through, over, under, or around the fog. It's the answer I'm resisting because I CAN'T see how it will bring me to my dream.

But wheel spinning , as time consuming as it is, isn't working. It doesn't bring happiness either. And it's wasting gas.

So maybe if I focus on the happiness, the working of it will transport me directly to the next screen.

Because work that brings me joy is the only work that is equal to, worthy of, the twinkly Cottage Store and the Marvelous Steed and My People.

I don't know. It doesn't feel like the whole truth, but it feels like today's step. It'll be interesting to see what happens tomorrow.

I hope you have a great day.

-Lila

LIR 81914 - JeraR, DagazR

So you can’t exactly see the form the harvest will take. Keep working! Keep gathering. Keep believing it will be the brightest & happiest possible return. 

Your truth guides your reality.

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It didn't exactly form as I expected, but it really followed through.  

And it's very interesting what we consider harvest.  What I consider Harvest.  Harvest is really outcome, isn't it?  Consequence?  Return on the energy?  So, many of the things I spent energy on yesterday not only had a different return than expected, they didn't need the energy requirements I expected.

For example, I have a monthly date with a friend - I consider it a networking meeting because I  receive awesome inspiration and give the awesomeness of my talents in return.  This month, an unexpected friend joined us.  Obviously, with a different energy in the flow, the outcome was different.  The topics covered were sometimes different, a new point of view and perspective was introduced, and new, different inspirations were gained.

But there's no need for me to sit, at the end of the day, and sort out her inspirations from his inspirations, nor to place value on either person's ideas.   I have given of my talents.  I have energy and inspiration from others' talents in return.

Productivity was also a focus.

I enjoy to sit and discuss things, talk them out, preferably making a ritual of it - a time and place, with food and drink.  But last night, when I suggested making a formal discussion out of my momentous inspiration, it was declined.  The preference was to keep talking while we went about our chores.  

Which really drove home this point for me:  the flow right now doesn't necessarily have time, or the energy, for ritual discussion.  We're in the harvest, getting things done, really exerting our energy, and so we have revelations on the fly.  We are in the middle of our dreams and ideas  -  not at the beginning, not at the debriefing end, but the middle.    Setting up a formal meeting could steal momentum.  Better to keep moving forward while talking it out for five minutes.

So that was my day... moving forward truth by truth, and allowing myself to connect with new energies and being open to the harvest results.  How was yours?

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LIR 82014 -Othila off the mat

Today’s choice(s) might be influenced by the hope or fear you are just like your [mother, father, grandparent, Great Cousin, insert ancestral connection here.]

The similarity is irrelevant. Are You Happy with the trait? Accept & adapt, practice ‘til the answer is yes, & move forward.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 72314 - Jera

How do you know your hard work will pay off?

Look where you are now! Only you could have made the choices which led to this harvest, these rewards.

It only gets richer, fuller, happier from here.

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Yes, of course I believe it only gets better from here.  I know this, deep down.  But sometimes the way seems...

...well, it's like Castleville Legends (and yes, I play that game with fervor and dedication.  Mostly.  Rather like the daily rune readings *G*.)  In the game, the area you've discovered is well lit and full of options, but the surrounding areas are foggy.  And sometimes you can see a structure, or a statue, hidden in the mist, but the way the game progresses takes you away from those interesting structures instead of towards them.  And sometimes you become very bored with your current options and you really want to explore more!

You know, because you've done enough levels now, that there is a "logical" progression of steps to be taken.  So when you're sitting around waiting for the next challenge, there are still things you can do to prepare, like make and sell items, gain more experience, empty the vault.  And you know you can move forward, because you've already made it to this level...  you know what to expect.  Even if you're not quite sure which direction the next level will take you.

But those buildings are so enticing!  And there are so many of them.  And it seems to take so long to get to the next level!

Tho, the more time spent actually working at things which gain coin and experience, the faster you get to the next level.

What?

The more time I spend actually working, the faster I get to the next level.  The more work I do, the more harvest I receive.  The more energy I put out, the more experience I gain.  I know which things work slowly and which work quickly to put the coin in my accounts.  I know which job choices work are a 50/50 chance and which are guaranteed; which will make me happy to go to work, and which ones are worth the pay check, and which ones I'll just resent.  The Harvest I have received so far from all the past levels of playing the game which is my life is more than the income, it is the knowledge and the experience.  I have tried things.  I enjoy some things and, no matter how much I might want it to be otherwise, I despise other things.  So it is.

The moral of this blog is, again, to trust myself.  If I can't seem to get to the sparkling diamond in the distance, maybe it's because there's still more work and prep and concentration needed here.  And the more energy I place here, the more quickly my options will expand.  And the more quickly my options expand, the sooner I will get to that sparkling diamond, to find out if it's something I even really want.

In other words, Lila, get back to work!

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LIR 72414 - Blank Rune

Looks like some decisions are being made today. Review your needs, your wants, your dreams, so when it comes time to give your answer, you can speak with your Truth.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 1714  Jera

Yay!  More production from actions taken in the past!  And also a reminder.  Our actions today create harvest for the future.

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It's been a week, so I can't say I remember everything that was harvested.  But here is the thought that strikes me now, that has been relevant through the last week.

Every action, every thought, every single decision brings a harvest of consequences.  And we train ourselves and others with those actions and reactions.

For one example, we set up an appointment to view an apartment.  There was a choice of Sunday or Monday to view.  I chose Sunday because I factored in past behaviors & preferences like time getting off of work, how we drive, weekend versus weekday traffic.  The weather may not be optimal, but it's a good thing to know also - what the drive is like in uncertain weather.  All of these decisions are harvests from past actions.  Learning experiences.

Every single day we do and try and we file away all the feelings and responses we receive from our six senses to create a harvest for the next time we do and try.  It is not just others we receive harvest from, it is ourselves.  How do we treat ourselves if something we don't like happens?  How do we reward ourselves and for what?  What little things do we do that we think are being strong, and are really just punishing?  what other things do we do simply because they make us happy?

Another example, in my case, is back to the food and health thing.  Because we watch tv while we eat dinner, eating is a natural act while watching television.  So when I wake up and realize I've eaten too much, I have to look back not at the meals, but at the things I've consumed because by body thinks I'm hungry when I watch tv.

Every action brings a harvest of consequences.  this is good to know, because it means I am totally in control.

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LIR 11214 - Eihwaz

Today is a day to step back and view the bigger picture; how can you balance your truths with the truths of another - be it another person, or you from another time?

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

121813 JeraR

It may feel like you're not receiving the equivalent of the energy you put out, particularly in communications.  Remember, the harvest isn't all in yet.  Tomorrow is another day.

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Communications wise, I can see how this applied to a friend, yesterday.  His perception led him to expect the conversation to go one way, when it didn't go anywhere at all.

For me personally, yesterday was much more about the physical harvest as relates to health.  It seems I put a lot of time and energy into thinking about my health and my body in general, and yet haven't received the results I expected.  Like taking medication and not having it work the way I hoped.

Was the seed not planted soon enough (ie: the meds not taken in a timely fashion)?  Have i not waited a long enough time?  Is more care required?

Well, like I said, today is another day.

I hope you're having a great one!

-Lila

112713 - JeraR

It seems the harvest is elusive.  It may not be quite time to reap.  Or, the produce may appear different than expected.  Either way, you choose what you will accept.

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Hmmph.  Well.  The harvest itself is not feeling elusive...  because of the reading, I relaxed yesterday and allowed everything to be a step toward my goals, or an unanticipated result of all my hard work.  Sometimes it's all about perspective.

What was elusive, until I thought that last line (just now), was my mouse - which has flowers and leaves on it.  I was going to type about my search for it, and how I looked -- not in all possible places, otherwise I would have found it, but in all places I thought it could possibly be.  However, I shall type about the finding of it instead.

As I type, I have a habit of glancing around the room, as if looking away from the screen triggers the thoughts; or as if watching the words appear on the screen inhibits further words.  (And it feels pretty cool to type while appearing to pay attention to something else.)  So, I was looking down at the floor when I typed the line about perspective. I saw a shelf.  I realized I hadn't actually looked under that shelf.  I'd looked behind it, but not under it.

And there was my mouse.  Under the shelf.  Yay!

So, my harvest feels bountiful, with anticipation of more to come.  I am happy.

Since today is a festival day for Americans (which means me), I am going to take a day off from rune pulling.  There will be no rune blog tomorrow.  However, there has already been much introspection and ruminating, and when I happy I love to express myself, so keep an eye on the "meanderings" blog.  There may be MORE harvest!

I hope you have great day!

-Lila

91713

Past choices show up again today as another project gets a kick start.  All part of the harvest package here in the universe.
    *I will keep moving forward!*

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What an excellent way to lose a day - trying to figure out how to write a formula in Excel to quickly find data.  If it'd looked up all the figures manually, I would have made more progress.  Sigh.  Preparing for the future is oftimes a little frustrating; especially when dealing with "help" sites that don't answer the question I'm trying to ask.

But.  I will keep moving forward.  I am moving forward.  And I think I'm a little stubborn.  Hmm.

don't know if a project took off, but I certainly tried to remember stuff I'd done years ago in a different version of the program.  Yay?!

-L

91113

Yay!  Today we havest!  We receive the benefits, reap the rewards, pluck the fruits of our labors.  A taste of the bounty to come.  Celebrate yourself and all your hard word!

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And what did this mean for me today?  This morning, it was a high flying sensation.  A perfect morning of doing a little of everything in my repertoire: reading, rithmatic and ruminating.  Even a little riting advice.

But it feels like I forgot, by the end of the day, to celebrate the harvest.  I only pined for more.  Looking back on what I had.

It's an easy trap to fall into, to feel good and then retreat; to focus on the resting phase like it's a low point.  And to actively look for all the things that could prevent more good days.  Like we're only allowed one?  Never.  Never!  More and more and more.  Today was just a taste of the bounty; a taste of the harvest.  Like testing the fruit to make sure it's going to be ripe.  And I do want more.  I want many more mornings like this morning.  But I want even more than that.  I want days.  I want evenings.  I want weeks and months and years.  I want it all.  Even the resting phases.  I will practice the resting phases as I practiced the skills that give me my bounty.  And eventually, even resting will be a celebration.

I hope you have a great day!

-L