LIR 72314 - Jera

How do you know your hard work will pay off?

Look where you are now! Only you could have made the choices which led to this harvest, these rewards.

It only gets richer, fuller, happier from here.

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Yes, of course I believe it only gets better from here.  I know this, deep down.  But sometimes the way seems...

...well, it's like Castleville Legends (and yes, I play that game with fervor and dedication.  Mostly.  Rather like the daily rune readings *G*.)  In the game, the area you've discovered is well lit and full of options, but the surrounding areas are foggy.  And sometimes you can see a structure, or a statue, hidden in the mist, but the way the game progresses takes you away from those interesting structures instead of towards them.  And sometimes you become very bored with your current options and you really want to explore more!

You know, because you've done enough levels now, that there is a "logical" progression of steps to be taken.  So when you're sitting around waiting for the next challenge, there are still things you can do to prepare, like make and sell items, gain more experience, empty the vault.  And you know you can move forward, because you've already made it to this level...  you know what to expect.  Even if you're not quite sure which direction the next level will take you.

But those buildings are so enticing!  And there are so many of them.  And it seems to take so long to get to the next level!

Tho, the more time spent actually working at things which gain coin and experience, the faster you get to the next level.

What?

The more time I spend actually working, the faster I get to the next level.  The more work I do, the more harvest I receive.  The more energy I put out, the more experience I gain.  I know which things work slowly and which work quickly to put the coin in my accounts.  I know which job choices work are a 50/50 chance and which are guaranteed; which will make me happy to go to work, and which ones are worth the pay check, and which ones I'll just resent.  The Harvest I have received so far from all the past levels of playing the game which is my life is more than the income, it is the knowledge and the experience.  I have tried things.  I enjoy some things and, no matter how much I might want it to be otherwise, I despise other things.  So it is.

The moral of this blog is, again, to trust myself.  If I can't seem to get to the sparkling diamond in the distance, maybe it's because there's still more work and prep and concentration needed here.  And the more energy I place here, the more quickly my options will expand.  And the more quickly my options expand, the sooner I will get to that sparkling diamond, to find out if it's something I even really want.

In other words, Lila, get back to work!

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LIR 72414 - Blank Rune

Looks like some decisions are being made today. Review your needs, your wants, your dreams, so when it comes time to give your answer, you can speak with your Truth.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 7214 - Wunjo

Remember those parties, those celebrations with all your clan about you?  What made it a party?  What makes them family?


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For me, yesterday's remeniscense had nothing to do with family or close friends, per se.  It had, again, to do with work.  With being happy at what I am doing.  With the clan, family I created at various places of employment.

Where was I happiest?  What made these people family?  Where did I create relationships that still hold strong today?

I have worked in many places: fast food, dry cleaners, corporations, schools, furniture, books, metaphysical, clothes, car dealership.  Today, I my closest, deepest, longest lasting friendships come from two places - the bookstore & the metaphysical store.

So what makes them family or clan?  Shared interests.  Similair language.   An open-mindedness.  And a feeling I could be myself, I was myself, I was accepted for myself.  All of this adds up to happiness.

So why did I leave these places?  Certainly not because of the people.  But in each instance, I felt, simply, the urge to move on.  That my happiness quotient was now ready for a new ingredient.  and I have tried to go back to these places.  I still visit both stores with regularity, and even do some of my work in both places.  But a stronger foothold, or  a more permanent work relationship, has been unavailable with either place.

So, now I know what I worked in the past.  What kind of environment I want.  A metaphysical book store.  I even have some interesting ideas about opening my own.  But...  

Isn't that a wonderful word, but...?

So, we'll skip that word and just leave it at that.  A metaphysical bookstore.  Could encompass all my talents and bring more people I would love to meet.

Let's see what's next.

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LIR 7314 - WunjoR

So. Now, what things made those Clan gatherings uncomfortable? And, or, what events/ groups are definately not family?

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 62914 - Fehu

Time to let your job, your passion, your life enervate you.  The purpose for all that hard work is happiness.  Today's a good day to enjoy it.

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As usual, I remembered one part of the reading, and not the rest.  Which is fine.  I assume there are different relevant parts for different people.

Yesterday, I was tired.  And counting calories.  So the reading, for me, took on the simple meaning of let your job feed you.  After some thoughtful time in the reading portion of my work, I went into retail.

On one hand, it did feed me.  we were busy busy (end of a coupon, a register on a fritz).  So busy people didn't take their breaks at the appointed time.  So busy, I didn't even notice I was very hungry until I made some silly little mistake.  (Quick analyzation, attention wandering, oh!  I'm grumpy.  Oh.  I'm hungry.)  So, as I had to wait for my break, I tried to let the activities, and flow of movement and work, even whatever extra energy there was hanging around feed me and energize me.

I assume it worked, as my mood did not deteriorate.  And even better, a co-worker who is highly exuberant came in for the end of my shift, so her up beat mood helped me reach one also.

But when I finally reached home, I was soooooooooo tired.  And achy.  All plans to do anything productive were out the window.

This morning I reread the post and realized I did do what it suggested.  For what do I expend energy at the retail store?  For money.  What does the money get me?  A beautiful comfy place in which to rest and watch tv and relax. I didn't realize it at the time; I was busy being grumpy about the pain and deciding to go to bed early, but I did partake of what my work brings me.  I did use the benefits I and my Significant Other provide.  Enjoy may not be the best word, but I certainly am glad of it now!

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LIR 63014 - Eihwaz

Today is about balance. What worlds, realities, needs are you balancing? Is it working?

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 11314 - PerthroR

Yes, your news if life changing!  Keep going!  Ride that wave of energy to further production.  You'll have even more to celebrate later.

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This one may have been speaking directly to me, so I hope it was beneficial to you as well.

I received good news yesterday, and it was so tempting to follow the old pattern of celebrating with some downtime; just drop all my projects and read a book.

But really, the news received was just the first step in the process.  There's so much more to do. In fact, because of the news, there is now a deadline for all those other things to get accomplished.

So tomorrow, the day I was planning to take as a day of rest, will be soon enough to sit and relax and relish my future possibilities.  Today (and yesterday) there's plenty of work that really would like my focus.

('Course, I did take five minutes to dance around the room.  *G*  There's gotta be SOME celebration.)

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LIR 11414 - Kunos off the cloth

That underlying anxiety?  The feeling of pressure?  That could be the fear or the hope of too many choices.  Put the anxiety aside and focus on the truths of today.  YOUR truths.  Deep breath, and, go!

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila