LIR 42714 - No Rune

No new advice; you're doing well.
You have all your pointers, there's no more to tell.
Breathe, expand, to thyself be true
And every choice will be right for you.

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Actually, the most interesting part about this reading, to me, is that I didn't have the time, space, mental energy to do readings the next few days.  So this one carried me through some very stress filled events.

Now stress, like trauma, isn't good or bad, it simply is different from the routine.  

But, I will say, these events were combinations of pleasant and "oh, really?"  Most of it was about information received relating to my heart attack.

The heart attack was many years ago.
The choices and events leading up to the heart attack were many years ago.
All those decisions are over and done with and irrelevant at this point, except for the consequences.  And this week I received more information about some of the consequences of the heart attack and the resulting medical procedures.

And I'll be honest, part of me wanted to sue someone.  I finally understand the impulse... it means someone else is to blame and i don't have to take responsibility for the possible future limitations.  But, the truth is, there is no one to sue.  Everyone did their best and made their choices of the moments according to their truths.  Especially myself.

So, I mourned and celebrated, because information received means having a specific focus for healing.  And it put some fears to rest.  So while grieving, I also celebrated.  Because, all my choices are right, right?  And i choose to heal fully, and I choose to refuse to be limited by my body.  I'm going to be one of those "miracle" people, who comes back from a major physical event better and stronger.  Because I choose to.

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LIR 5114 - Ingwaz

Your garden may start coming alive today, particularly in areas you're passionate about.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 11314 - PerthroR

Yes, your news if life changing!  Keep going!  Ride that wave of energy to further production.  You'll have even more to celebrate later.

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This one may have been speaking directly to me, so I hope it was beneficial to you as well.

I received good news yesterday, and it was so tempting to follow the old pattern of celebrating with some downtime; just drop all my projects and read a book.

But really, the news received was just the first step in the process.  There's so much more to do. In fact, because of the news, there is now a deadline for all those other things to get accomplished.

So tomorrow, the day I was planning to take as a day of rest, will be soon enough to sit and relax and relish my future possibilities.  Today (and yesterday) there's plenty of work that really would like my focus.

('Course, I did take five minutes to dance around the room.  *G*  There's gotta be SOME celebration.)

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LIR 11414 - Kunos off the cloth

That underlying anxiety?  The feeling of pressure?  That could be the fear or the hope of too many choices.  Put the anxiety aside and focus on the truths of today.  YOUR truths.  Deep breath, and, go!

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

1414 - Wunjo on it's side (yes, really)

Today you may have something to celebrate.  Do you wish to share with your clan?  Or keep it close a little while longer?


Well, over the last few days (I think it's been 3?) I have had events, feelings about which to communicate.  And some I did share with my vast clan (ie- Facebook); some I "shared" with my close clan.  And some I shared with just my person.

Part of the decision, for me, over what to share, had to do with personal goals.  Talking about things is good, because there is something purging about speaking things out loud.  And sometimes, discussing things helps put it into a shape, a possibility, it cannot achieve inside my head.   But talking about something also seems to diminish its impact on myself. I keep it's importance by keeping it a secret.

I also find I have jealousy or possession issues.  I don't want to compare and contrast my feelings with another person...  their feelings are just as valid as mine, but I want to feel unique and alone, sometimes, for a while.  My feelings.  My celebration.  My trauma.  Mine, mine, mine.

I've also found it is more and more difficult to describe the feelings.  The usual words... happy, sad, excited, scared, driven...  they are small words compared to what I feel.  I now understand why some cultures reportedly have a thousand words for snow.  I need a word for that calm moment of rejection when it's actually not only okay, but expected and I know it's the best thing for everyone concerned but I still feel a little sad but mostly I am greatly excited about the future.

So, yes, I have been on the fence about a lot of communication & communal celebrations these last few days.  Have you?

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LIR 1714  Jera

Yay!  More production from actions taken in the past!  And also a reminder.  Our actions today create harvest for the future.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila