LIR 52015 weekly - Naihwaz & PerthroR

I have learned a new aspect of Naihwaz this past weekend - that of the sacred fire, the fire created to purify the offerings, to request aid and blessings, to accept the bounty that comes. In my mind, this translates as making the fire, and the objects, sacred. Which leads one to wonder, just what does sacred mean?

I think, I feel, sacredness is connected to that feeling of Nirvana, of accomplishment, of awe and wonder and joy so deep it's difficult to express. And isn't that what we feel when we finally reach home, after a journey? When we finally accomplish our goals? When we finish a great book, or hear an amazing song, or see a beautiful science theory?

We feel the moment is sacred. We may even feel the item or event is sacred. Hopefully we also feel sacred ourselves, for that moment.

What if we could be in that moment all the time? What if we allowed ourselves, our movements, our thoughts, our truths to be constantly awesome, amazing, and sacred?

There is no need for bells or whistles, for jewelry, outfits, or feasts. Just an acknowledgement, a silence, an acceptance of the tools, the moment, the transition. A knowing that it is, they are, we are, sacred. Because, whatever we have and however we have practiced, these moments will never be again. And we have given of our best.

So this week Naihwaz asks, what is sacred within our hands, within ourselves here at the end of this transition? What is celebrated, now that we have arrived on our personal shore? Can we, further, allow the tools and gifts and moments to just be, simple and sacred (in whatever fashion you consider sacred), without trying to make them more, or less, than they are? Can we allow ourselves to be, in every moment, sacred, purely ourselves, no adornment necessary?

PerthroR chimes in with a thought. To really celebrate, feel, allow the awesomeness of this moment, perhaps wait before running out to celebrate with your clan. Allow that moment of silence, of pure personal appreciation. Allow yourself to rest, explore the tools, the shore line, the end of your journey. We have worked on and from our truths for a very long time. This may only be one shoreline, one storm, one situation or emotional discovery on our path, but we deserve to appreciate it for ourselves. Not to dilute it with the party, the celebration.

We deserve to make the moment sacred with the silence and fullness of our regard.

Granted, PerthroR may also be a question, or an answer to a different question. Even without the desire to give each moment its own sacred space in time, this may be a good weekend to just sit back and breath. No big parties, no rush to connect with your clan. Allow yourself and your body (and your tools and your thoughts) time to process, settle back into shape.

As I type this, I realize sometimes we float a long time between the end of the storm and settling into shore. It's not that the distance is long, or even that we're adrift. It's simply that it takes that long to process all that has happened and apply it to the new world we are in.

So, allow yourself the sacredness of the moments it takes to celebrate your scientific discovery, to appreciate all the amazing work you have done, to replay the song or reread the book, to find where you are and what you have. There is no rush to connect with your clan. They will always be there. And it can be easier to find the sacred truths in ourselves, if we each have the space to process all the awesomeness personally, before muddying it with the opinions and perceptions of others.

Who are also uniquely sacred.

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Before I rush off to do the upload the next thing, I just have to say. The sacred part I will enjoy practicing.

The not partying, gathering, celebrating with my clan? Not so easy. I'll have to think about that one. I mean, yes, not only would it help me process, it would help me catch up on all the things I want to DO with all the insights and tools and...

Let me put it another way. I often think, when I encounter Naihwaz, that it's saying yes, you can make do with these few [insert tool names here]. But all it says is you'll have what you need (and conversly, what you need is what you'll have.) 

Long pause for a perusal of what I have - when it comes to ideas, projects, happy to do's and necessary to do's - I have a lot. Insert expletive of your choice lot. And another party next weekend. It does make sense to settle in, buckle down, physically process some of my to do list. 

but.

But?

"But I really want to see the Avengers on the big screen," she whispers. I wonder if I can tell myself it's self care? Will I believe it? It could even be my truth. 

I hope you have a great week!

-Lila

LIR 42414 - Naihwaz & Hagalaz

Sometimes, we find the biggest transformation is at the end of the storm.  The person who started the journey is not the person who ends it, and does need room and time to accept her or his new self.

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I'm still working on this one, it seems.  I spent some time with a person who made me wonder if I used to be like that...  and this is neither a positive or negative, because all aspects have a person can be enjoyable and then annoying...  or perhaps am i still like her in some aspects.  I'm learning that my reactions to people tell me a lot about myself.  And working the retail has brought a lot of old patterns back to the front.  And some of them make me happy; some of them don't make me happy; and some of them feel like simple survival skills.

I know it's easy to look at all the situations around us and say "why me?"  And I think the point of this reading is that answer - because we are unhappy with who we are.  I want change, so I embark on a huge path of change.  And at the end, I decide which aspects I keep and which I throw away.  Because no one can truly take anything from me without my permission.  So the changes, the huge sweeping transition brought on by the storm of Hagalaz, is only a suggestion.  Only the strong things survives the hailstorm, but nothing stops me from running right out and replacing the old destroyed things I miss.

So when I reach the end of the storm, when I wash up on the beach with Naihwaz - the tools I need to survive - they are the tools of my choosing.  The tools and patterns, memories and thoughts I have chosen to cling to, to drag with me through the change.

We are the mistresses & masters of our destiny.  Whether we choose to put our lives into the hands of a Divine Being, or whether we choose to maintain an iron control, we are in charge.  We Choose.  So at the end of the storm, to really achieve the change we desire, we must allow ourselves, our patterns, our judgements, our realities to change as well.

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LIR 42714 - No Rune

No new advice; you're doing well.
You have all your pointers, there's no more to tell.
Breathe, expand, to thyself be true
And every choice will be right for you.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 2914 HagalazR

The storm is not coming.  But we no longer need trauma to effect a transition.  We breathe, we choose, we change, we grow.

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While it's true the storm did not come from the outside, I created my own storm.  Between the feeling of do, do, do something, and the frustrations of what I chose to work on, I allowed a storm to build.  And then I unleashed it on the innocent messenger.

There was no need for the storm, but there was one.  Had there been no storm, it would have signified change and growth.  Instead, in turns out I need to practice more.  And I need to check my meds again.  Or increase my awareness.  Probably both.  Because, from my view point of do no harm and accept responsibility, allowing the frustration from one project to affect my communication with, well, anyone, is bad behavior.

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LIR 21014 no rune

again, today, we have no particular issue to focus on. Keep on breathing & growing, believing & sowing the seeds of your dreams.

I hope you have a great day!
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111613 - Naihwaz

Another swell in the storm.  Remember your personal goals, and don't get distracted by irrelevant what ifs.  We will have everything we need.  Everything.

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This applied for me two ways, today.

I did a house cleansing for a friend today.  I do them occasionally, but not so often that I have a definite prep & pack routine.  So, naturally, I found myself wanting to run around grabbing and buying and scouring for things I MIGHT need for the cleansing.

In that situation, Naihwaz definately meant "you will have what you need; if you don't have it you won't need it."

Now, when you're working off-site, that can still be tricky.  Because you have to listen, when going through the supplies, to yourself.  You do have to have enough items, the right items: scent, stone, herb, pen, ruler, paper, clay, whatever... when you travel away from your storage space, you have to make choices about what to take with you.   So one must listen.

But, one listens with intent and consciousness, NOT with grabbing everything in sight "Just in case".  And still, there's most likely going to be a "oh, I wish I'd grabbed..." So one makes do.

Which leads us to the part two of my Naihwaz today... afterward.  "Don't get distracted by irrelevant what ifs."  It is so easy, after doing any work, to devalue all I've done by judging and critiquing and "Oh, I should have."  This is harmful, to self and to all those who've participated in, or benefited from, the work.  There is a difference between thinking, "next time, I would like to try this" and "Oh, I should have done this." The should haves are irrelevant.  The past is.

So.  Coming and going, Naihwaz helped me through something I enjoy doing, but can easily ruin for myself by panic before and judgement behind.

Thank you, Naihwaz.  *G*

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

101513 - HagalazR in water

Another calm day, especially in the emotional arena. 
More practically, it could mean the quiet stormy weather is most likely going to stay quiet.
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And it did.  There was a light snow this morning, when I did this reading.  A nice light snow, drifting poetically, the sun not really shining, just warming the background. It stayed cold, but there was never a real STORM! here.

And, yes.  No major emotional storms today either.  Really, thinking on it, nothing emotional.

There may have been one or two incidents I might usually have reacted emotionally too, but I was too busy being involved in other quandaries to even give much thought to them.  Nice!  and Yay!  A month ago, I might have been very offended by the questions which, today, I simply answered and moved on.  Let's hear it for the calming of the storms!  I can't tell you if it's a perception shift...  Well, actually I'm sure it's a perception shift, but whether my perception of myself, or my perception of others' perceptions of myself *G*, or the perception of what is needed to define boundary lines...

  ............  yeah, that was a long convoluted sentence..................

...I don't know.  Simply grateful there was a shift and I didn't need to feel enraged or offended, and cry and throw things before realizing the irrelevance of it all.

So.  No wet storms.  Physically or emotionally.  I am happy with that.  Back to work.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila