LIR 7114 - PerthroR

Sometimes, it feels it would be easier to let someone else be responsible for your choices.

But you’re the one who will judge yourself tomorrow.

Your life.  Your truth. Your Choice.

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What I have discovered with this reading is that we are never free from outside influence.  Everything we do creates a ripple, and we are constanting living in the ripples created by ourselves and others.

For instance, I just realized I made a choice yesterday (to attend an event) based on something I read that resonated with my truths.  I also made a choice to add a gig to my fiverr jobs, based on a client's needs.  So actually, I totally ignored this advice.  Or, it wasn't actually applicable to me?  Cuz I was swimming in the ripples like a fish.

But this ripple effect, this universal influence does not remove responsibility from our shoulders.  We may not consciously choose the situations we are in, but we always choose our actions.

Wait.  Do we ALWAYS choose?  There are many situations we cannot guarantee our behavior, whatever we hope it might be, because there is no training for that life or death, flight or fight reaction.  If i am startled, I jump.  If a bug bites me, I swat.  And that can very much be outside influences affecting our choices.  If instinctive behavior even qualifies as a choice.

What we do when we are cognizant, however, is the choice.  Do we train ourselves out of the behavior we dislike?  Like learning to calmly put the fire out instead of running around screaming?

Do we accept our actions and face the consequences?  Like apologizing for accidently knocking over the red syrup onto the white floor.  And offering to clean it.

And most importantly, are we able to do this with the open-minded truth and acceptance we would use for others?  If you would say, "Oh, no, that's okay" to someone else, you most certainly can say it to yourself.

Do I revoke my RSVP or take down the gig?  Just because I realized it was an outside influence?  Well, no, because those things still resonate with my truth.  And with my wants.  I still choose to do so, not because I was influenced, but because it makes me happy.

For me, this reading becomes about judgement.  It is automatic.  Perhaps it is a survival instinct.  And it certainly influences the behavior that follows.  But it's what we do after the instinctive reaction; what we do with the analysis and information; what we CHOOSE that is the important facet of every ripple we create.

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LIR 7214 - Wunjo

Remember those parties, those celebrations with all your clan about you?  What made it a party?  What makes them family?

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

111613 - Naihwaz

Another swell in the storm.  Remember your personal goals, and don't get distracted by irrelevant what ifs.  We will have everything we need.  Everything.

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This applied for me two ways, today.

I did a house cleansing for a friend today.  I do them occasionally, but not so often that I have a definite prep & pack routine.  So, naturally, I found myself wanting to run around grabbing and buying and scouring for things I MIGHT need for the cleansing.

In that situation, Naihwaz definately meant "you will have what you need; if you don't have it you won't need it."

Now, when you're working off-site, that can still be tricky.  Because you have to listen, when going through the supplies, to yourself.  You do have to have enough items, the right items: scent, stone, herb, pen, ruler, paper, clay, whatever... when you travel away from your storage space, you have to make choices about what to take with you.   So one must listen.

But, one listens with intent and consciousness, NOT with grabbing everything in sight "Just in case".  And still, there's most likely going to be a "oh, I wish I'd grabbed..." So one makes do.

Which leads us to the part two of my Naihwaz today... afterward.  "Don't get distracted by irrelevant what ifs."  It is so easy, after doing any work, to devalue all I've done by judging and critiquing and "Oh, I should have."  This is harmful, to self and to all those who've participated in, or benefited from, the work.  There is a difference between thinking, "next time, I would like to try this" and "Oh, I should have done this." The should haves are irrelevant.  The past is.

So.  Coming and going, Naihwaz helped me through something I enjoy doing, but can easily ruin for myself by panic before and judgement behind.

Thank you, Naihwaz.  *G*

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila