LIR 73014 - Mannaz

A good day to rebalance, with attention on the physical -

 be it financial, visual, health.

Remember, the body is as important as the mind.

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this is about calories again, isn't it?

Actually, I think it probably was.  And my attempt (less successful than I wanted) to balance the amount of cake I consumed with the time spent doing Dance Dance Revolution.

And I just have to ask... what is it about cake?  Yum.

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LIR 73114 - DagazR far off the mat

Today’s driving force may be an instinctive fear or hope that time is running away from you.

But whether your deadline is tomorrow or next year, your best pace is the one which enables you to do your best.

Time is only fleeting when categorize it. Now is eternal.

I hope you have a great now!
-Lila

LIR 72914 - UrazR

Not everything has to be a permanent part of your life. Trying something new can be fun, exciting, & non-committal.

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So calories didn't count today, right?

This could have covered everything from clothes worn to job applied for.  It helped give a certain freedom to the day, and combined well with my personal reading, which included "if you don't plant the seeds, you don't have a harvest."

It's interesting how many things can be both positive and negative in connotation.  It all just depends on your point of view and frame of mind.

Yesterday's reading made it easier to talk about some things, with my friend and counselor.  Because just putting ideas out there does not mean I am dedicating my time to them.  It means I am entertaining them.  Trying them on for size.  Letting them be silly or grand or deep, and seeing how they fit with my truths.

For me, it was a nice breezy day, and the deep soul searching talks had an air of lightness about them.

And I really hope it applied to the calories too!

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LIR 73014 -Mannaz

A good day to rebalance, with attention on the physical - be it financial, visual, health.

Remember, the body is as important as the mind.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 72814 - OthilaR far off the mat

Deep, deep down is the hope or fear that some genetic gift passed you by.

Stand tall. You are not your ancestors; your choices are your own.

And your today is your choice.

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Whenever I pull the Othila rune, my mind automatically goes to DNA and inherited health issues.  Which can be everything from hairlines to immune diseases.

My mom seemed to have a lot of health issues (except for her hairline) before she died.  Issues which, frankly, I would rather be dead than suffer through.  But maybe she didn't suffer the way I would have suffered.  Maybe her pain tolerance was different; maybe her activities were more mental anyway.

There are many maybes and one truth.  I am not her.

But yesterday had nothing to do with any known matriarchal health issues.  No matter how I try to slant my perception, no matter how deeply I dug into my unconscious motivations.

So, what did it have to do with?

Ancestral gifts is about inheritance: of land, of skills, of traditions perhaps.  Since I personally am on a quest for happy income, it most likely had to do with fields occupied by others in my family.  As I hunted through various web sites, there were probably, deep down, echoes of "Well, she did that."  Or, "I could be like him." Or even "But we already have one of those in the family."  Which is good to know.  Because, again, my happiness does not rest on what others have done, or even (mostly) on being the only one who does something.  My truth is about what I want to do.

Enlightenment is Awesome - especially if one remembers everything one feels enlightened about.  Such as, um, Lila, your slight obsession with your health is pretty conscious.  Way off the mat means deep, deep, deep, deep down.  Quit looking at the obvious, please.

To which, if anyone else said that, I would reply.  Okay.  Lesson learned.  Now quit beating yourself up!

So.  Onto the new day.

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LIR 72914 - UrazR

Not everything has to be a permanent part of your life. Trying something new can be fun, exciting, & non-comittal.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 72714 - Uraz

what do you consider to be your earthly foundations? 
What, who is really supporting you financially, healthily?

And what, who are you supporting? Healthily?

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I think for me, yesterday was about food.

A long-time friend and I went out to eat and she paid for the meal.  And we actually talked about the psychology of eating.  Later, my husband and I together cooked a simple yet satisfactory meal.  Later that evening, I tried to find something to satisfy that craving, that balance between sweet and salt.

And of course tried to answer that elusive question, am I really hungry?  What void am I trying to fill with food?

When it comes to food, there is a balance.  In fact, I think there may be a lot more going on than we allow ourselves to realize.  Beyond the comfort food and the filling of the void.  There are the nutrients, the vitamins, the load of salt and chemicals which we pop into our bodies without awareness.

Why do we have cravings?  Why do we try for balance?  Why does something taste good and help the happy feeling on one day, and doesn't on another?  Am I eating to provide ourselves with energy, or for something else?  Are my food choices to support mental health, physical health, or an addiction, possibly a habit?

And eating habits or physical attributes can be as touchy a subject as race or religion.  "Are you calling me fat?"  But, I am fat.  Or am I chubby?  Comfortable?

Which means, for me, all these adjectives are meaningless.  What is my truth?  What is important?  What is the foundation of all this questioning and consuming?

Am I happy?

Does this food make me happy?  Both when consuming, and hours later.  And days later?

Does this food make me, and my body - my earthly foundation - happy?

Something for me to think about, to bring into awareness, every day.

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LIR 72814 - OthilaR far off the mat

Deep, deep down is the hope or fear that some genetic gift passed you by.

Stand tall. You are not your ancestors; your choices are your own.

And your today is your choice.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 72414 - Blank Rune

Looks like some decisions are being made today. 

Review your needs, your wants, your dreams, 

so when it comes time to give your answer, 

you can speak with your Truth.

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The "review" tended toward a lot of - "not that".  "Nope."  "Definitely don't want to be a part of that."  With one or two "Eeewwww"s.  

Perhaps it was more than that, though.  Perhaps, as I look back, I can say that along with the rejection of things undesired, I stood up for, stood in the circle of the things, emotions, dreams, truths I do desire.  I, maybe embodied, maybe held the space for, or maybe did a lot of picking and choosing, and connected with only those aspects I wanted around me.  Whether it was at retail or ritual.

And it feels like it's coming back to faith.  Faith in myself.  I don't, consciously, know the exact picture of what will make me happy.  I don't know, consciously, all the myriad of possibilities available.  So, I am casting my net wide.  Each time something sparks a "hmm, I wonder if I'd like that?" I send out a feeler.  And then, once the connection is made, I know a little more of how I feel about it.  Because I can always say no.  Or yes.  Or maybe.

But until I am connected, I can't actually know the reality of it.

There really is an element of, "if you want something done, you have to do it yourself."    Which sometimes feels grumbly, because shouldn't everything I want fall into my lap?  But, this being a free will species, EVERYONE gets to choose how they deliver it, or if they deliver it at all.  Everyone gets to say no, or yes, or maybe.

So, we connect.  And we explore the shared reality.  And then I trust myself, and through myself the universe, to bring the right things closer.  To open the doors which will lead to that state of happiness, to that place and job and existence and energy exchange which feeds me.  The place where my Truth is not only accepted, but lauded.  Or debated with friendly intent so I can find more Truth.

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LIR 72714 - Uraz

what do you consider to be your earthly foundations? What, who is really supporting you financially, healthily?

And what, who are you supporting? Healthily?

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 72314 - Jera

How do you know your hard work will pay off?

Look where you are now! Only you could have made the choices which led to this harvest, these rewards.

It only gets richer, fuller, happier from here.

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Yes, of course I believe it only gets better from here.  I know this, deep down.  But sometimes the way seems...

...well, it's like Castleville Legends (and yes, I play that game with fervor and dedication.  Mostly.  Rather like the daily rune readings *G*.)  In the game, the area you've discovered is well lit and full of options, but the surrounding areas are foggy.  And sometimes you can see a structure, or a statue, hidden in the mist, but the way the game progresses takes you away from those interesting structures instead of towards them.  And sometimes you become very bored with your current options and you really want to explore more!

You know, because you've done enough levels now, that there is a "logical" progression of steps to be taken.  So when you're sitting around waiting for the next challenge, there are still things you can do to prepare, like make and sell items, gain more experience, empty the vault.  And you know you can move forward, because you've already made it to this level...  you know what to expect.  Even if you're not quite sure which direction the next level will take you.

But those buildings are so enticing!  And there are so many of them.  And it seems to take so long to get to the next level!

Tho, the more time spent actually working at things which gain coin and experience, the faster you get to the next level.

What?

The more time I spend actually working, the faster I get to the next level.  The more work I do, the more harvest I receive.  The more energy I put out, the more experience I gain.  I know which things work slowly and which work quickly to put the coin in my accounts.  I know which job choices work are a 50/50 chance and which are guaranteed; which will make me happy to go to work, and which ones are worth the pay check, and which ones I'll just resent.  The Harvest I have received so far from all the past levels of playing the game which is my life is more than the income, it is the knowledge and the experience.  I have tried things.  I enjoy some things and, no matter how much I might want it to be otherwise, I despise other things.  So it is.

The moral of this blog is, again, to trust myself.  If I can't seem to get to the sparkling diamond in the distance, maybe it's because there's still more work and prep and concentration needed here.  And the more energy I place here, the more quickly my options will expand.  And the more quickly my options expand, the sooner I will get to that sparkling diamond, to find out if it's something I even really want.

In other words, Lila, get back to work!

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LIR 72414 - Blank Rune

Looks like some decisions are being made today. Review your needs, your wants, your dreams, so when it comes time to give your answer, you can speak with your Truth.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 71814 - Dagaz, Uraz, Ehwaz, Othila, Fehu

A little more time, a little more thought. Firm your foundations, ride the emotional wave, accept your gifts & open your arms wide. Your dreams are coming!

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i just have to say - five minutes after I cast this, just finished typing up the interpretation, and a company called.  They had already filled the position I had applied for, and wondered if I were interested in a different position.  

I don't know if I would have grabbed it anyway, but with this reading firmly in hand, I said no thank you.  I'm holding out for what I want!

It'll be interesting to see what the rest of the day brings.

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5 days later...  well, 5 is a good number.  A restful number.

I find it interesting which parts of a reading I latch onto.  Often it's the fearful parts I have to over come.  Like that little time rune, down in the lower right corner.  Part of me wants to scream, "HOW MUCH TIME?!"  So there have been days when I have simply been riding the whirlwind.  Or, to be more accurate, I have simply been being me, while the whirl wind flows around.

Have I firmed my foundations?  Well, I definitely confirmed I have no desire to stay in a retail job, no matter how awesome the people.  And, in my job search, I have realized also that transit time is not necessarily what I want right now.  Though, I leave that up in the air a little more than others, because it could be good to get my behind out of the house.

But is that my real foundation?  I am very comfortable in the house, but do I get any work done if there is no outside impetuous?

And is that important?

Right.

So.

Foundation -  More of a honing, than an expanding.
Time - both relaxing and stressful.
Arms open wide to accept gifts?  Hmm.  Let's see what today brings.

I mean yes!  Yes!  I accept.  *G*

Really, if I pay attention to what I, myself, my body and my happiness meter are telling me, I can separate the hobbies from the work which feeds me.  So once more, accepting my gifts means also accepting how I want to use those gifts.  Or not, as the case may be.  Which means, again and always, accepting myself.

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LIR 72314 - Jera

How do you know your hard work will pay off?

Look where you are now! Only you could have made the choices which led to this harvest, these rewards.

It only gets richer, fuller, happier from here.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila