LIR 72814 - OthilaR far off the mat

Deep, deep down is the hope or fear that some genetic gift passed you by.

Stand tall. You are not your ancestors; your choices are your own.

And your today is your choice.

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Whenever I pull the Othila rune, my mind automatically goes to DNA and inherited health issues.  Which can be everything from hairlines to immune diseases.

My mom seemed to have a lot of health issues (except for her hairline) before she died.  Issues which, frankly, I would rather be dead than suffer through.  But maybe she didn't suffer the way I would have suffered.  Maybe her pain tolerance was different; maybe her activities were more mental anyway.

There are many maybes and one truth.  I am not her.

But yesterday had nothing to do with any known matriarchal health issues.  No matter how I try to slant my perception, no matter how deeply I dug into my unconscious motivations.

So, what did it have to do with?

Ancestral gifts is about inheritance: of land, of skills, of traditions perhaps.  Since I personally am on a quest for happy income, it most likely had to do with fields occupied by others in my family.  As I hunted through various web sites, there were probably, deep down, echoes of "Well, she did that."  Or, "I could be like him." Or even "But we already have one of those in the family."  Which is good to know.  Because, again, my happiness does not rest on what others have done, or even (mostly) on being the only one who does something.  My truth is about what I want to do.

Enlightenment is Awesome - especially if one remembers everything one feels enlightened about.  Such as, um, Lila, your slight obsession with your health is pretty conscious.  Way off the mat means deep, deep, deep, deep down.  Quit looking at the obvious, please.

To which, if anyone else said that, I would reply.  Okay.  Lesson learned.  Now quit beating yourself up!

So.  Onto the new day.

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LIR 72914 - UrazR

Not everything has to be a permanent part of your life. Trying something new can be fun, exciting, & non-comittal.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 22614 - OthiloR

Today's answers may lie somewhere other than the traditional path.  Look not amongst the skills & gifts handed down from family.  Reach outside your ancestral box.

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The situation that comes most to mind regarding this reading is the job hunt.

The questions -  "What do you want to be when you grow up?"  "What is your major?"  "What do you do?"  As if our jobs define us.  And we do, I believe, all want a job, or something, which gives us purpose and makes all the other crap we've brought into our lives worthwhile.

So here  I am, over 40, looking at the jobs for which I may be qualified, and thinking, but do I really want to BE a... sales clerk, file clerk, call center, admin assistant, bank teller...  for the rest of my life?  Do i want that to be my career?

But the truth is, this job search isn't about the rest of my life, in that sense.  It is about the next moment.  Fulfilling my needs for the next moment.  It even says it in most of the descriptions... these are "at will" jobs.  I work there while I want to work there.  They employ me while they want to employ me.  I can work where I find work.  I can switch jobs.  As we all know, life is about change and growth, not stasis.

And I already have a job, I just need more income.  So I am actually looking for a second job.

So, the non-traditional job hunt.  What will get me what I need for this next moment?  And working with something that I can be excited about, or want to learn more about.  Remove the limits of labels and titles.  Heck, given that a lot of companies are hiring temporary or part time, I may end up finding two or three jobs!  On top of the ones I already have.  So.

Also, to stay out of the insurance genre.  For that is a family thing.

And whether I am working in a shop, or alphabetizing, or answering phones, what I DO is still the same - being the best Lila I can be.

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LIR 22714 - No rune & Wunjo

A day to practice our truths, with no special emphasis.  But, if you need something to ponder, try this.  What symbols do you want to represent you?  Around which flags do you wish to gather?

Thank you, and I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 22414 - Wunjo

The clan may be gathering around you, physically or energetically.

How would you call them together?  What symbol or flag would represent them?  And does that symbol align with your truths?

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I would not say I was aware of any gathering yesterday, physically or energetically from any of my various clans.  

The symbology thing was interesting though.  Many years ago I found a symbol, in a book about unicorns, which I adapted to be my symbol.  It is very similar to symbols and runes which are already out there.  I hadn't thought about it in a while.  A long while, actually.

I get daily recommendations from Snag a Job for jobs "in my area"; and I clicked on one suggestion yesterday because of the name of the company.  And there was a variation of my symbol, as their logo.  My stomach did a little jump.  Maybe this was my job!  (heavenly choir, spotlights dancing.)

But.

They were looking for call center persons, which is not something I am currently interested in.  And I wasn't particularly thrilled by the services the company offered.  But I wondered if it was something i should apply for anyway, because I resonated with the logo.  Maybe there was something more to the company.  Something underneath, better than it looked.

But, I tend not to be that subtle, for all I like to call a spade a long apparatus with which one turns dirt.  So my perfect job (with confetti and a kick line) will tempt me with things I am interested in and then reward me with things I like.   My truth has nothing to do with call centers and outsourcing.  Even if it's wrapped with a pretty bow.

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LIR 22514 - Taiwaz & Perthro

Today's situation is based on past decisions, past actions.  Some choices were yours, but other people's choices affect us too.

So when you're celebrating your current fortune, you might take a moment to celebrate everyone who chooses.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila