LIR 72714 - Uraz

what do you consider to be your earthly foundations? 
What, who is really supporting you financially, healthily?

And what, who are you supporting? Healthily?

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I think for me, yesterday was about food.

A long-time friend and I went out to eat and she paid for the meal.  And we actually talked about the psychology of eating.  Later, my husband and I together cooked a simple yet satisfactory meal.  Later that evening, I tried to find something to satisfy that craving, that balance between sweet and salt.

And of course tried to answer that elusive question, am I really hungry?  What void am I trying to fill with food?

When it comes to food, there is a balance.  In fact, I think there may be a lot more going on than we allow ourselves to realize.  Beyond the comfort food and the filling of the void.  There are the nutrients, the vitamins, the load of salt and chemicals which we pop into our bodies without awareness.

Why do we have cravings?  Why do we try for balance?  Why does something taste good and help the happy feeling on one day, and doesn't on another?  Am I eating to provide ourselves with energy, or for something else?  Are my food choices to support mental health, physical health, or an addiction, possibly a habit?

And eating habits or physical attributes can be as touchy a subject as race or religion.  "Are you calling me fat?"  But, I am fat.  Or am I chubby?  Comfortable?

Which means, for me, all these adjectives are meaningless.  What is my truth?  What is important?  What is the foundation of all this questioning and consuming?

Am I happy?

Does this food make me happy?  Both when consuming, and hours later.  And days later?

Does this food make me, and my body - my earthly foundation - happy?

Something for me to think about, to bring into awareness, every day.

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LIR 72814 - OthilaR far off the mat

Deep, deep down is the hope or fear that some genetic gift passed you by.

Stand tall. You are not your ancestors; your choices are your own.

And your today is your choice.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

113013 - FehuR

Today is a good day to focus less on how your income flows in and more on how you use it to make yourself happy.

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For me, Fehu this time was less about the actual financial income than it was about the energy. The difference in the feel of energy when I purchase something for myself versus the feel when I allow someone else to purchase it for me.  Specifically, this weekend, it seemed to be about food.

Food is essential.  One of the "Basic Needs".  Food is very symbolic: breaking bread; the bread winner; bringing home the bacon; the hunter.  So when someone pays for another's meal, it is, in effect, receiving the food from the payer's hand.

I was one of those persons who insisted on paying for everyone, if possible.  Often  I felt this made up for not remembering birthdays or other holidays.  So the intention was truly to gift.  But... when someone receives a gift they do not want, it can feel more like a burden or an obligation.  And, in the case of allowing someone to purchase food for you, it can feel like giving away your power.

As I have been required to keep a closer eye on my finances (and have turned from financial gifts to energetic ones), so it is time to start looking at how I feel about receiving certain gifts.  When I go out with someone, am I happier paying for half, allowing them to pay for the whole meal, or each paying for their specific expenses?  Does it depend on the person, on the circumstances, on my mood?  Does it need to be spelled out beforehand, if only to myself?  What is going to make me happy?  Because eating food someone else provided while resenting that they provided it makes the meal sour.

Maybe part of it is being in tune with how the other person feels about purchasing/ receiving.  Is it an expectation, based on past practices, and thus feels more like an obligation and less like a gift?  Are they truly giving, or just doing what has become, in effect, their job?

I haven't quite worked it out yet.  Even now, a few days later.  I think I'd forgotten how symbolic food really is.  Something to continue pondering.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila