LIR 4915 NaihwazR in Earth

Did you remember your car keys and the notes?  

What else do you need today? 

What tools, what steps, what physical aspect do you need

 to move the situation to its completion?

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Early PM: Since Naihwaz also stands for the end of the storm & the Reversed would be Not the end of the storm, I have been obsessively watching the weather. Happily, in this part of the world, the weather was fine. 

But so far, it being a slow moving day, and me having to really concentrate to do the next step, I haven't forgotten anything. I don't think.

End pm: I have made to the end of the day feeling much accomplished. I did have one moment. I had Threshold Choir rehearsal today, and desperately desired some food for a quick grounding after. My tongue has been sore lately (did you know you could overdose on ginger snaps? Me neither), so pudding was the snack of choice. I stopped into a store, grabbed a six pack of chocolate for ease of holding while driving, and so I wouldn't eat the whole tub. But the little containers, being plastic, had sharp little edges on them. And when I blithely stuck my tongue in (best way to eat pudding while driving, yes?), the nasty mean pudding scratched my poor defenseless tongue right on the sore spot. Aaargh!

So, what i really needed that I didn't have was a short straw. Or a place to put down my pudding cup as I was driving 65 on the highway. In a manual shift vehicle.

yeah, fine, maybe common sense is the tool I was missing there. Told ya' I needed grounding.

I hope you  had a great (and safe driving) day!
-lila

PS - funny moment. Hubby came home for lunch; because of rune, I queried him as he left again to make sure he had everything. An hour later he came back to fetch something - not something he knew he'd need, but still... *G*

LIR 4815 Isa & EihwazR

Isa - What is the truth of the situation, the problem, the project, the feeling? Without attaching past experiences or future possibilities, what is the NOW?

EihwazR - And what can be melded easily without needing a bridge, a middleman, a conductor? Is there some extra work involved that's unnecessary?

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I became fixated yesterday on the middle man part - trying to cut out extra work and all those fiddly moments of worry that add so much burden to otherwise simple tasks. (like phone calls. Or answering emails.) Unfortunately, I feel I cut out parts which would have been helpful - like looking over my notes before filming a video class. Ah well.

As for Isa, for me it was more a day of grateful isolation. I accomplished so much, and most of it was easy. 

However, "What is the Now," is a very tricky question. In that it's so simple I want to make it more difficult. It's so tempting to add stories to it. To bring in the past, to compare now to what I want in the future.

Moments change. Truths change. Heck, in my A Capella group, some of my notes were changed because I couldn't reach them consistently. From moment to moment.

It just feels difficult sometimes, when the answers aren't evident, when the truth is something I didn't expect or, worse, goes against my reality.

Blah. Whatever. Seriously. That was then. Now is different. Somehow I made it past the tears I didn't understand, and stopped the video tape of scenarios in my head. Practice pays off. I am glad I allowed the tears of the moment, gave them their space, and then moved on. No repression, no embarrassment. Just acceptance and release.

And then pudding. So that was good.

I hope you had a great day!
-Lila

LIR 4615 - Ogham: Quert (Apple)

The apple is a symbol of reincarnation, feminine energies, & love. What could use a little more love in your life? A little more nurturing and accepting? Not teaching, not forcing, but allowing to be? We need not agree in order to love.

The Ogham is a celtic form of divination associated with trees. (Yes, simplistic description.) I'm trying it out as an alternate reading source. £

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It's an interesting balance, isn't it? Loving and accepting someone else - allowing them to be all they can be, in all their (to us) obnoxious glory - and still nourishing and loving and accepting ourselves.

"We need not agree in order to love." We need not be on the same page, from the same culture, even have the same beliefs, in order to accept and love each other. We need not be in the same room (which is sometimes safer, anyway.) All we have to do is love. And accept.

Ourselves as well as others. I accept that she wears spandex (leggings by another name) and a belt around her just long enough blouse. Doesn't mean I have to wear it. Or like it. Or like how it looks on her. And I still get to like myself.

I accept that some people push food on others as a form of hospitality. or culture. That's awesome, but I don't have to eat the food. Not even out of politeness, if I don't want to. And I still get to like myself.

I accept that some people are aggressive in their expressions of self, and react outwardly instead of inwardly. I don't have to receive the bullets, blows, harmful words. I can defend myself, or move out of range, or simply let them pass by without impact upon me. And I still get to like myself.

Why can't we all just get along? Because we are all different. And somehow, we can't seem to figure out how to deal with that. Because if we're different, doesn't that mean one of us is wrong? So we keep trying to force each other into our own personal mold so we can understand. Or force ourselves into someone else's mold.

But I think the whole goal is to be different.

Let's say the apple was the fruit of knowledge. Let's say Eve believed in herself and her mate so much, she was ready to accept the challenge of moving out of the womb of Eden. To take responsibility for self. To believe in the amazingness of herself amidst all the weirdness of the world outside the Garden.

What did they really have in the Garden? Love. For each other. For all things around them. For the Divine.

What did they take out of the Garden, when they marched bravely forward to practice in a new environment? Love.

And what was the goal, the reason to step out of the Garden? The need to receive knowledge of a more chaotic world? To accept all the chaos, to Love it, and therefore, to create the Garden anywhere they tread.

Obviously, we still need a lot of practice. Somewhere along the way we became fixated on rules instead of acceptance. We wanted someone else to tell us what to do, even though it felt constrictive and wrong. We started looking outside instead of inside for Love.

We name things. We create things. We are. And if we want to be right, all we really have to do is Love.

I'll even quote the Beatles (whom I accept and totally can't stand.) "All we need is Love." Love for ourselves in a difficult situation. Love for ourselves after we make a decision we hate. Love for ourselves when we look in the mirror and want to break something. Love for ourselves when we are giggling and smiling. Love for ourselves in every aspect.

Love of others, yes. Deep to the core. To know they have a different belief, but the same love. And Love of self - that I don't like the Beatles, spandex, fiction books, or wearing my seatbelt. Allowing myself to say I don't like a song, or a sandwich, or a political statement. And, deep to the core, Loving myself in all my differences.

Love and acceptance. Of every thing. 

what's so hard about that?

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 4415 Fehu

Do you have something someone else wants?

Do you wish to part with it?

Do you really need to look outside yourself for something you need? 

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I agree. It is the first step - looking outside of myself for an answer. For assistance. For sustenance. For assurance.

Well, it's the second step. The first step seems to be having a full blown meltdown in order to realize something needs fixing, changing, transitioning. For my happiness.

And I have some pretty awesome friends and family; they tend to help even when I'm not sure what I need. Or want. Which can confuse the issue sometimes. Because the second step, really, is being able to know what it is that's needed.

I suppose there are many answers, many possibilities, many options. It just depends on how far we each want to go. Do we want the duct tape fix? The gorilla glue? The paid for repair? Or the replacement? Or, do we want to just get rid of the issue all together?

And so we ask the Divine. We ask professionals and people we respect. And people who have known us. And we forget to ask ourselves.

The interesting thing about life, about the universe, about reality, is that it is all just one big spiral. "As within, so without. As above, so below." And the fix for the "little thing" is often the same fix, or focus, for the big.

So, my realization, my answer to my supplication of "what?!" is "consistency." In the big things - like how I celebrate and connect with the Divine on a daily basis; to the little things - like taking my supplements regularly; to the in-between things - like how to spend my energy on the things i wish to produce. 

Consistency. Not flying all over the place in planning and thinking and wondering. 
Consistency. Stick to point one. Get this part finished, done, practiced, or discarded. Then moving on.
Consistency. Find which parts are consistent (say the act of doing a daily reading) and which parts are fluid (rune readings vs ogham card readings for example.)
Consistency.

Interestingly, it was talking about it out loud which helped me arrive at this reminder. But, the answer didn't come from without. It came from within.

Though I did just say, as within so without. So I guess it's the same thing.

Gods bless connections!

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

PS - that part about the Ogham was true. I didn't have space to do a rune reading today, so I did a reading with my Ogham deck instead. Stay tuned!

LIR 4315 - Mannaz

What area of your life, business, dreams could use a little practice today? 

In order to have that perfect balance, every leg of the foundation must be equally strong.

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Today, this rune seemed to apply not to a situation, or to balance (or at least not to my balance) but to actual human nature. Today, a human walked into the room and disturbed my rune reading for tomorrow - which means there is no video, though it is posted on Tumblr & Twitter.

I video tape the readings - hence the noise was a factor in my frustration. Also, there is no separate room for readings, or office work, or television. We are very communal in our daily lives. Which means going with the flow.

But I was in the middle of the reading!

It felt so disrespectful. Because, of course, running through my head are all the thoughts, "if I'd walked in on him at work, he wouldn't be laughing." But the intention was simply for him to enter the room. Earlier than expected. Without notice, because he thought I'd be disturbed by an early phone call.

Ah, human nature. We try to balance what we feel versus what we think they want. And it often ends up in a debacle. Perhaps the balance comes in allowing the pithy and snarky comments, then letting everything settle back into itself without holding meaningless grudges. And, of course, learning from the problems. Communicating...

So maybe that is the area which needs balance. Communication. Such as, how to either notify a reading is in progress, or how we both can behave if he does walk in on another reading. (like, no slamming the door!)

I am grateful that I am practicing - as opposed to "perfect". Things break. we try again.

Anyhoo, though there is a reading for tomorrow - printed, not taped - I won't be commenting on it until the next day. So I will talk to you later!

I hope you have a great day (twice!)

-Lila

LIR 4215 Eihwaz

In this situation, you are the linchpin, the bridge between multiple worlds. What does each world require? What does each have to dispense? And what is the best balance for all worlds?

Remember, you are not the supplier of the energy. You are the conductor.

 Question  - do you wish to straddle multiple worlds?

 Maintain your energy, your boundaries, your truth.

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Ha. There are so many ways this applied today.

Let's just look at the physical world- in my neighborhood, a spring storm is covering the land... that's a bridge between the two worlds of wonderful winter and glorious summer. (yes, one of those words was sarcastic.)

Next, let's look at a specific point in the day - I belong to a writers group. It was started many years ago by a friend & colleague. Over time, I became the one to keep it going. Now it is morphing again. We want it to be a group which feeds our needs as writers, which means consistency and growth. And also requires a definite facilitator. A conductor. A straddler of worlds. Did I want the job?
Heck no! I love writing. And I love the group because it keeps me motivated to write. But I have so many other things I love ... I want to flit in and out. So no conductorship for me, thank you very much. Besides, the gentleman who will be the facilitator is obviously the best choice for it.  He already has so many ideas, if I weren't a group member, I'd want to be.

So we move onto the day in the life of Lila - where I most definitely AM the conductor. I have multiple skills and, multiple audiences (reader, client, actual listening audience). As well as being the energy producer, I need to be outside the picture to ensure the flow of energy from worker to production is equal and necessary. Which aspects need to be done at a certain time? Do I really need to schedule 3 hours to browse the bookstore? Have I taken a lunch break yet?

The most exciting thing about today was how the answers varied for each situation. If there even was a question (in the case of the weather.) How there was a yes in one area of world straddling, but a no in the other.

And also a bittersweet no - when it came to deciding if I wanted to add more singing. I mean, oh yes I do! But, I want to keep all the worlds and skills I'm currently committed to, so I just don't have the energy to add another.

Yet.

There's always tomorrow. *G*.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 33115 - Taiwaz

Why is the situation what it is (or not) today? Because of a choice consciously made in the past.

Remember, there is no good or bad. No mistakes. Simply choice and consequence. And choice again.

And since we're all choosing with our truths, this is most likely a happy situation.

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"Let's do the time warp again!"

Okay. So, yesterday felt more like practice in nurturing. And I wonder if this rune may be for today (it was read for yesterday) - except having to do with decision made now for the future! Rahr. Whatever. 

So, for me, yesterday was a day of caretaking, hence the lack of posting and or reading for today. But today (at least the last few hours) have brought up questions regarding making decisions, and the affect on our future.

We are, each and every one of us, where we are because of decisions made. I met someone tonite who inspired the thought "That's something I could have done." 

If I'd chosen a different major.

If I'd chosen a different school.

If I'd chosen (at any of one hundred times it crossed my mind) to focus more on the study and less on the performing of music.

If I'd chosen...

If I'd...

If...

And the important thing about Taiwaz, about choices, and about life itself, is there is no one right choice. Sometimes it's good to know why the situation is as it is... what choices led to here - especially if you wish to change where here is. But except for practicing purposes, there is no real need to analyze.

A choice made in the past is done. The end. The important moment is now.

A choice made now is just practice. Yes, it's life altering. Every choice is.

And the truth of the matter is, if I really want to do that thing I chose not to do earlier, well, I'm still alive. I can still go do it! (And yeah, I still choose performing. *G*.)

So, let us relish our choices. If we find ourselves sitting up at night berating ourselves, let us turn that pity party into a celebration. We chose. And chose. and Chose again! Yay us!

I heard a line on a tv show "the Walking Dead" - (and no, I don't watch it. I just occasionally hear it.) I'm going to misquote it, I think, but it went something like "It was always going to end like this." Frankly, that is a crock of shards.

But, it is always going to be the way it was. Every choice we've made brought us to this situation. So, let's look forward. Because there is still an eternity waiting to be created.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila