Communication may be interesting today. Clarify, breathe, and start over if you need to.
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Well, the amusing thing about that reading is - I was doing the video recording, and I did, in fact, have to start over as I was unable to string words together coherently in the first take.
But the other way it applied to me this past day is through shopping.
Clothes shopping to be precise.
I am a bookkeeper because I love numbers. And in bookkeeping (or any math, as far as I know), 1 equals 1 equals 1. Always and forever. Calculus may do all sorts of funky things to the number 1, or 2 or 47, but the number itself never loses its meaning. 1 is always 1.
Until you get to clothes. (and shoes.) First, you have to qualify what "age" group you're talking about. A size 1 in infants is different from a 1 in toddlers which is different from a 1 in kids which is different from a size 1 in Juniors which is a different than the 1 in General which is different from a size 1 in Women's. (And of course all of these are different from the male size 1.)
After you find the appropriate "age", you then get to explore different brands. And yes, Merano's size 1 is different from Mossimo. Vera Wang is different from Apt 9. Wranglers is different from Levi's. Or, since I was looking at underwear, Hanes is different from Fruit of the Loom which is different from Bali which is different from...
Now, let me share something really fun with you. Just within one brand the sizes were different in different styles! - the Med size for hipsters was NOT the same as the Med size for boy shorts. Grrr. ARRRGH.
So, my communication issues had to do with me trying to figure out the communication system of intimates. And I did guess incorrectly. I'll be taking them back and trying again.
Though probably not tomorrow. I was so traumatized by the experience (she types with an eye roll, but she really means it) I never did get to today's rune reading. So look for me not tomorrow. (Unless you aren't reading this today. Then tomorrow changes. Unlike the numbers.)
I hope you have a great day!
-Lila
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
12913 - Kunos & WunjoR
Kunos - Choices become more specific, possibly spiritual in nature.
WunjoR - communication with clan is spotty.
Today is a good day to double check our truths and our assumptions.
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The thing that most comes to mind about this reading and my experiences of the past day is: "the trouble with Divination."
Of course, the first down side to Divination is proving a negative. How many accidents have we avoided, how many bitter paths have we missed, how many ill feelings have we escaped because we turned right instead of left? Oh yeah? Prove it.
But the second down side is about focus: If all you focus on is the event or situation, how can you know what else is possible?
A member of my clan read me an astrological prediction for 2014 (obviously a general prediction, but Yay Leos!). It was very encouraging, but now I find myself limiting the choices I'm considering so my bright and shiny future will fit into that reading.
And that's just silly. I put a lot of work into a lot of things this year - emotional, personal, spiritual and business (al). Any number of doors could be the way to fulfill my ultimate goal. And the focus mentioned in the prediction can be a side benefit of many of those doors. Why limit myself to just that narrow perception triggered by specific words?
"I see a tall dark stranger, and a tropical island."
Immediate perception: Ooh! Captain Jack (a lot steadier on his feet, and wearing a tux) is going to walk into the grocery store one day and decide I need to sail away with him.
Reality: A brunette basketball player has to cancel her vacation because she's picked for an All Star team. I'm idly shopping cruise sights and voila! the tickets are available for the right time and right price and right place for me.
Danger: That I pass up this opportunity because it didn't fit into the perception. (And, let's be honest, if a stranger tried to sweep me up, I'd probably scream and beat him with my purse. Especially if he looked like Captain Jack. Too bad Legolas is blonde.)
The point is this. Perception needs two eyes, one on the broad view and one on the narrow, allowing all sorts of possibilities. The truth of today is not necessarily the truth of tomorrow because the focus changes every day. I pick my path moment to moment; and while my past choices may limit my current choices, there's no need to narrow the future before it even happens.
I hope that made sense.
And I hope you have a great day!
-Lila
WunjoR - communication with clan is spotty.
Today is a good day to double check our truths and our assumptions.
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The thing that most comes to mind about this reading and my experiences of the past day is: "the trouble with Divination."
Of course, the first down side to Divination is proving a negative. How many accidents have we avoided, how many bitter paths have we missed, how many ill feelings have we escaped because we turned right instead of left? Oh yeah? Prove it.
But the second down side is about focus: If all you focus on is the event or situation, how can you know what else is possible?
A member of my clan read me an astrological prediction for 2014 (obviously a general prediction, but Yay Leos!). It was very encouraging, but now I find myself limiting the choices I'm considering so my bright and shiny future will fit into that reading.
And that's just silly. I put a lot of work into a lot of things this year - emotional, personal, spiritual and business (al). Any number of doors could be the way to fulfill my ultimate goal. And the focus mentioned in the prediction can be a side benefit of many of those doors. Why limit myself to just that narrow perception triggered by specific words?
"I see a tall dark stranger, and a tropical island."
Immediate perception: Ooh! Captain Jack (a lot steadier on his feet, and wearing a tux) is going to walk into the grocery store one day and decide I need to sail away with him.
Reality: A brunette basketball player has to cancel her vacation because she's picked for an All Star team. I'm idly shopping cruise sights and voila! the tickets are available for the right time and right price and right place for me.
Danger: That I pass up this opportunity because it didn't fit into the perception. (And, let's be honest, if a stranger tried to sweep me up, I'd probably scream and beat him with my purse. Especially if he looked like Captain Jack. Too bad Legolas is blonde.)
The point is this. Perception needs two eyes, one on the broad view and one on the narrow, allowing all sorts of possibilities. The truth of today is not necessarily the truth of tomorrow because the focus changes every day. I pick my path moment to moment; and while my past choices may limit my current choices, there's no need to narrow the future before it even happens.
I hope that made sense.
And I hope you have a great day!
-Lila
Monday, December 9, 2013
12813 - Berkano
Today we get to step up and try on that nurturing role - through comfort or gentle nudging. Nurturing comes in all forms, so listen to your truth.
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The person I nurtured was myself. And a lot of it was in the gentle nudging way, if by gentle nudging you mean re-enacting the scene in Mystery, Alaska where the men are all standing around commiserating while insisting their teammate serve up his own justice by sliding into a snowbank with just his jock strap on.
The men are, in effect, nurturing the transgressor. They understand his pain, but he needs to face the harsh task ahead of him and grow thereby. They listen to his griping and whining, but are relentless in their attitude of "Just do it." There is also an underlying understanding that he made his bed, so now he gets to throw his delicate parts into it.
And yes, that's how I've been "nurturing" myself this past day. Which I don't really like, cuz it makes one me sound harsh, and the other me sound wimpy.
Which brings up the question - what exactly is nurturing?
(which leads us to searching for a dictionary app or e-book. Which takes time away from the thought process. Not! helpful.) Okay. From Dictionary.com Android app:
Nurture: to feed and protect; to support and encourage, as during the period of training or development; foster; to bring up; train; educate (also available as a noun.) (rooted in the word nourishment)
To support and encourage (right into a snow bank.) Train. Educate.
That one. Educate. I like that word. That is what I'm doing for myself. Because the parts of me that need nurturing are the parts I know so little about... like the physical body. And I've been through education before, so I know it requires study and learning, it stretches the brain. I understand how education works. (At least for me.) I enjoy the thought of educating myself. It's a pretty empowering word.
So, I have been educating myself for the past day, and opening the door to further education.
I hope you have a great day!
-Lila
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The person I nurtured was myself. And a lot of it was in the gentle nudging way, if by gentle nudging you mean re-enacting the scene in Mystery, Alaska where the men are all standing around commiserating while insisting their teammate serve up his own justice by sliding into a snowbank with just his jock strap on.
The men are, in effect, nurturing the transgressor. They understand his pain, but he needs to face the harsh task ahead of him and grow thereby. They listen to his griping and whining, but are relentless in their attitude of "Just do it." There is also an underlying understanding that he made his bed, so now he gets to throw his delicate parts into it.
And yes, that's how I've been "nurturing" myself this past day. Which I don't really like, cuz it makes one me sound harsh, and the other me sound wimpy.
Which brings up the question - what exactly is nurturing?
(which leads us to searching for a dictionary app or e-book. Which takes time away from the thought process. Not! helpful.) Okay. From Dictionary.com Android app:
Nurture: to feed and protect; to support and encourage, as during the period of training or development; foster; to bring up; train; educate (also available as a noun.) (rooted in the word nourishment)
To support and encourage (right into a snow bank.) Train. Educate.
That one. Educate. I like that word. That is what I'm doing for myself. Because the parts of me that need nurturing are the parts I know so little about... like the physical body. And I've been through education before, so I know it requires study and learning, it stretches the brain. I understand how education works. (At least for me.) I enjoy the thought of educating myself. It's a pretty empowering word.
So, I have been educating myself for the past day, and opening the door to further education.
I hope you have a great day!
-Lila
Saturday, December 7, 2013
12413 - ThurisazR
You may fear your shields are down. Just pay attention; you will be fine.
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Blech.
And hello, after, what? 3, 4 days?
Physically, my shields were down. I was virally attacked and I did not enjoy it at all.
In the past, having a cold was a cue to take some down time. And guilt played a big part of the vicious cycle which went something like this.
I start feeling tired. I don't want to do things. But, work ethic and guilt and "good girl" syndrome kick in and start yelling at me, so I go do things. Then I do get sick. But is it really sick enough to take the day off? To not go to school or work? To lounge around in bed all day and sleep? (oh wonderful sleep?) Is it sick enough to eat bland things and drink wimpy teas? Or am I just being lazy? Do I just want a day without responsibility? Guilt, exhaustion, guilt, exhaustion. Until I finally do call in sick, because doing that was less fearful than being ill at school or work.
Of course, in grade school, I had an adult to make the decision for me. And as an adult, I followed the rules of "if you're sick enough to stay home from work, you're sick enough to stay home from everything else." (this actually backfired once.) There was also the idea, once I got into the workplace, that it's better to go in sick and be sent home, then to call in sick. "Because at least they can see you've tried."
Today, all of that game playing seems another kind of releasing of responsibility. THEY get to tell us when we're sick enough to stay home. THEY get to say working at a sub par speed for five days is better than taking one day off and working up to speed for the other four. Maybe we all prefer to be victims, martyrs, submissive to THEY.
And yes, it's very easy for me to be philosophical about it in my position -- my clients are flexible, and if I don't accomplish my other responsibilities, I don't lose income or have to worry about feeding my children.
But from my perspective, it all comes down to this today. (Or it still comes down to this.) What is right for me? For my body? For my happiness? Because I agonized for hours, even while bowed before the porcelain throne, whether to go to a client the next day. Surely I would be better. Surely it was more responsible to drag myself out into public, possibly infecting others, make myself do something because, hey, I wasn't really sick, I was just being lazy, right? And looking back now, that just seems horribly terribly wrong.
When I am healthy (and happy) I do the bookkeeping and the runes and the other things because I want to. If I didn't want to, I wouldn't do it. So, Lila, it's time to take even more responsibility. When you're sick, which is difficult to admit in the first place, you'll heal much faster if you pay attention and focus on healing the problem, then if you play with guilt.
Of course, this also all ties into the mind over matter body issues; chemical versus emotional also plays into health versus illness. So much to practice. To stand up to. To stand up for.
Speaking of, I don't expect I'll actually be doing a rune reading today. I don't quite have the focus I'd like. But I hope to read tomorrow and thus post on Monday. We'll see what the body allows.
I hope you're having a great (and healthy!) day.
-Lila
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Blech.
And hello, after, what? 3, 4 days?
Physically, my shields were down. I was virally attacked and I did not enjoy it at all.
In the past, having a cold was a cue to take some down time. And guilt played a big part of the vicious cycle which went something like this.
I start feeling tired. I don't want to do things. But, work ethic and guilt and "good girl" syndrome kick in and start yelling at me, so I go do things. Then I do get sick. But is it really sick enough to take the day off? To not go to school or work? To lounge around in bed all day and sleep? (oh wonderful sleep?) Is it sick enough to eat bland things and drink wimpy teas? Or am I just being lazy? Do I just want a day without responsibility? Guilt, exhaustion, guilt, exhaustion. Until I finally do call in sick, because doing that was less fearful than being ill at school or work.
Of course, in grade school, I had an adult to make the decision for me. And as an adult, I followed the rules of "if you're sick enough to stay home from work, you're sick enough to stay home from everything else." (this actually backfired once.) There was also the idea, once I got into the workplace, that it's better to go in sick and be sent home, then to call in sick. "Because at least they can see you've tried."
Today, all of that game playing seems another kind of releasing of responsibility. THEY get to tell us when we're sick enough to stay home. THEY get to say working at a sub par speed for five days is better than taking one day off and working up to speed for the other four. Maybe we all prefer to be victims, martyrs, submissive to THEY.
And yes, it's very easy for me to be philosophical about it in my position -- my clients are flexible, and if I don't accomplish my other responsibilities, I don't lose income or have to worry about feeding my children.
But from my perspective, it all comes down to this today. (Or it still comes down to this.) What is right for me? For my body? For my happiness? Because I agonized for hours, even while bowed before the porcelain throne, whether to go to a client the next day. Surely I would be better. Surely it was more responsible to drag myself out into public, possibly infecting others, make myself do something because, hey, I wasn't really sick, I was just being lazy, right? And looking back now, that just seems horribly terribly wrong.
When I am healthy (and happy) I do the bookkeeping and the runes and the other things because I want to. If I didn't want to, I wouldn't do it. So, Lila, it's time to take even more responsibility. When you're sick, which is difficult to admit in the first place, you'll heal much faster if you pay attention and focus on healing the problem, then if you play with guilt.
Of course, this also all ties into the mind over matter body issues; chemical versus emotional also plays into health versus illness. So much to practice. To stand up to. To stand up for.
Speaking of, I don't expect I'll actually be doing a rune reading today. I don't quite have the focus I'd like. But I hope to read tomorrow and thus post on Monday. We'll see what the body allows.
I hope you're having a great (and healthy!) day.
-Lila
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
12313 - Ehwaz
Can you identify all of your symbiotic relationships? Some may surprise you. What are you giving & what are you receiving? Which ones make you happy?
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The symbiotic relationship I most often neglect is the one with my body. For many long years, I charged down the "mind over matter" road, sure my body would do what I asked, no matter it's condition or training. Since I practiced before I asked it to do musical theater, and never ever demanded it to do marathons, we got along pretty well. Sure, I was dramatic, but, hey! musical theater. And I chalked my erratic mood swings up to empathy.
But eventually I realized some of my actions/ reactions/ Involuntary habits were due to chemicals, and not to emotional or mental flow. In fact, the chemical could influence the emotional and mental. Talk about being brought down a peg. It just didn't seem right. I accepted the brain sent electrical currents (and that just proved the mind was the most powerful muscle). I figured out my beliefs on the soul, its purpose, it's separation from the body. Heck, I had astrology to explain a lot of my behavior!
So to realize something as simple as food could have a major effect on me was very disturbing. Caffeine, okay. Alcohol, yes. Tobacco, whatever. Drugs... well, duh, that's why they're illegal. Sugar only affected children of course. But food...
Food was only about calories and taste. Vitamins were for bones (and hair!). There was no way they could have an effect on my body. Much less all the other chemicals no one had even invented yet!
I still forget that I can be brought low by a lack of lunch. And it can get pretty obvious when I forget my herbals.
So awareness of body is my theme for yesterday's reading. To remember. To care for. To pamper a bit. Because even if cloning becomes viable, I don't want it. When this body is done, I'm done. And I'm not done yet.
Therefore, I gots to take care of my body, so it can get me where I want to go.
I hope you have a great day!
-Lila
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The symbiotic relationship I most often neglect is the one with my body. For many long years, I charged down the "mind over matter" road, sure my body would do what I asked, no matter it's condition or training. Since I practiced before I asked it to do musical theater, and never ever demanded it to do marathons, we got along pretty well. Sure, I was dramatic, but, hey! musical theater. And I chalked my erratic mood swings up to empathy.
But eventually I realized some of my actions/ reactions/ Involuntary habits were due to chemicals, and not to emotional or mental flow. In fact, the chemical could influence the emotional and mental. Talk about being brought down a peg. It just didn't seem right. I accepted the brain sent electrical currents (and that just proved the mind was the most powerful muscle). I figured out my beliefs on the soul, its purpose, it's separation from the body. Heck, I had astrology to explain a lot of my behavior!
So to realize something as simple as food could have a major effect on me was very disturbing. Caffeine, okay. Alcohol, yes. Tobacco, whatever. Drugs... well, duh, that's why they're illegal. Sugar only affected children of course. But food...
Food was only about calories and taste. Vitamins were for bones (and hair!). There was no way they could have an effect on my body. Much less all the other chemicals no one had even invented yet!
I still forget that I can be brought low by a lack of lunch. And it can get pretty obvious when I forget my herbals.
So awareness of body is my theme for yesterday's reading. To remember. To care for. To pamper a bit. Because even if cloning becomes viable, I don't want it. When this body is done, I'm done. And I'm not done yet.
Therefore, I gots to take care of my body, so it can get me where I want to go.
I hope you have a great day!
-Lila
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
December 2013
(as seen in Spirit Wise newsletter)
The rune for December is Berkano. Berkana, beorc, Birca
Berkano is the rune of nurturing, of providing warmth and comfort and safety. Berkano is also the rune of growth; of leaving the nest when the time is come.
December is still part of the dark times, a time when we naturallly go into ourselves and tidy up, make resolutions, make plans for the future. December is also a time to rest from the work and prepare for the party.
And for December, Berkano is pointing from past to future.
We have been doing a lot of introspection already, in these past months, as we have worked and focused and harvested and balanced. So, if we focus a little more on the celebration and a little less on the introspection, that is fine. All the work we've done in the past is going to nurture and shelter us now. There may be moments where our truths require us to step up and step out, but for the main, let it flow. Let it be easy and joyful. Berkano will carry us through.
Berkano. Earth Mother. Let this dark time nurture us, so we can celebrate with our whole selves when the light returns.
I hope you have a great month.
-Lila
113013 - FehuR
Today is a good day to focus less on how your income flows in and more on how you use it to make yourself happy.
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For me, Fehu this time was less about the actual financial income than it was about the energy. The difference in the feel of energy when I purchase something for myself versus the feel when I allow someone else to purchase it for me. Specifically, this weekend, it seemed to be about food.
Food is essential. One of the "Basic Needs". Food is very symbolic: breaking bread; the bread winner; bringing home the bacon; the hunter. So when someone pays for another's meal, it is, in effect, receiving the food from the payer's hand.
I was one of those persons who insisted on paying for everyone, if possible. Often I felt this made up for not remembering birthdays or other holidays. So the intention was truly to gift. But... when someone receives a gift they do not want, it can feel more like a burden or an obligation. And, in the case of allowing someone to purchase food for you, it can feel like giving away your power.
As I have been required to keep a closer eye on my finances (and have turned from financial gifts to energetic ones), so it is time to start looking at how I feel about receiving certain gifts. When I go out with someone, am I happier paying for half, allowing them to pay for the whole meal, or each paying for their specific expenses? Does it depend on the person, on the circumstances, on my mood? Does it need to be spelled out beforehand, if only to myself? What is going to make me happy? Because eating food someone else provided while resenting that they provided it makes the meal sour.
Maybe part of it is being in tune with how the other person feels about purchasing/ receiving. Is it an expectation, based on past practices, and thus feels more like an obligation and less like a gift? Are they truly giving, or just doing what has become, in effect, their job?
I haven't quite worked it out yet. Even now, a few days later. I think I'd forgotten how symbolic food really is. Something to continue pondering.
I hope you have a great day!
-Lila
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For me, Fehu this time was less about the actual financial income than it was about the energy. The difference in the feel of energy when I purchase something for myself versus the feel when I allow someone else to purchase it for me. Specifically, this weekend, it seemed to be about food.
Food is essential. One of the "Basic Needs". Food is very symbolic: breaking bread; the bread winner; bringing home the bacon; the hunter. So when someone pays for another's meal, it is, in effect, receiving the food from the payer's hand.
I was one of those persons who insisted on paying for everyone, if possible. Often I felt this made up for not remembering birthdays or other holidays. So the intention was truly to gift. But... when someone receives a gift they do not want, it can feel more like a burden or an obligation. And, in the case of allowing someone to purchase food for you, it can feel like giving away your power.
As I have been required to keep a closer eye on my finances (and have turned from financial gifts to energetic ones), so it is time to start looking at how I feel about receiving certain gifts. When I go out with someone, am I happier paying for half, allowing them to pay for the whole meal, or each paying for their specific expenses? Does it depend on the person, on the circumstances, on my mood? Does it need to be spelled out beforehand, if only to myself? What is going to make me happy? Because eating food someone else provided while resenting that they provided it makes the meal sour.
Maybe part of it is being in tune with how the other person feels about purchasing/ receiving. Is it an expectation, based on past practices, and thus feels more like an obligation and less like a gift? Are they truly giving, or just doing what has become, in effect, their job?
I haven't quite worked it out yet. Even now, a few days later. I think I'd forgotten how symbolic food really is. Something to continue pondering.
I hope you have a great day!
-Lila
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