92913 Perthro

Today is a good day to hear what others have to say.  (listening <> doing; choice = yours).

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Well, I certainly needed to get out of my own head, today.  But it seemed all I heard from others was not information but demands.

some issues were my own expectations meeting reality with a fatal explosion.  these I managed to accept.  but other issues... well, someone still has a lot of practice to do.  Sometimes I think it's me, sometimes I don't.

But, at the end of the day, having woken feeling spiritual and connected, and going to bed feeling cranky and hermicidal (the desire to commit hermitage), I worry... Okay.  Truth.  I am talking myself out of worrying that I missed something vital.

The beauty of the universe is every death brings a chance for a new life.  sleep is a little death.

shrug.  So.  That was my day.  Hope you had a great one.

-Lila

92613 - Isa

Today seems to be a good day for some alone time.  If you do go out, keep the shield up and use precautions against nasty energy (physical as well as mental).  You too can prevent the spread of viruses!

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Today I followed the advice of the runes, and made choices that would give me the most alone time.

One of these choices involved facing a fear.

I do bookkeeping work for a metaphysical store.  I prefer to do the work before the store opens, and I have been entrusted with a key.

Like all good stores, this one has an alarm system.

Now, when one has an alarm system, there is usually some time allowed between unlocking the door and punching in the code.  After all, one has to get the key out of the lock, close and relock the door, and then find the keypad in the dim lighting.   And until about two months ago, the procedure was painless.

But then, the allowable time between unlocking the door and punching in the code became nano-seconds.  (Or I became very very slow.)  Three weeks in a row, the loud and ear punching alarm would sound before I could finish signing in.  The fourth week, I decided I wasn't going to do it anymore.  I was traumatized and I was going to do what I needed to do to make myself feel good.

So I went grocery shopping instead.  (which tells you how bad it really was.)  And I did the bookwork during business hours.

Today... well, the runes said alone time.  So I gathered my courage, did some deep breathing, and walked to the front of the door.  I complimented the store and asked it very politely to be nice to me.  I breathed some more, shook my hair back, and unlocked the door.  I punched in the disarm code (which I had been repeating to myself over and over and over.)  And the keypad, ever so politely, told me I was safe to enter the building.  Without a single nasty buzz.  As if we'd always been chums.

And yes.  My fingers were shaking.  I thought I'd been exaggerating when I called myself traumatized.  Maybe not.

So, thank you Universe, for telling me, asking m, daring, advising me to take some alone time.

And thank you bloggee, for being the reason for me to post this.  With all the busyness of the rest of the day, I'd forgotten my triumph of the morning.

Yay me!

I hope you had a great day.

-Lila

Life in Runes 92513

Hagalaz.  Algiz.  LaguzR.

A little energetic transformation to shift things.  A little emotional energy to random strangers.  A little bit longer to wait before the take off.

You can send some of the extra enrgy out to others; it may help you feel like you're accomplishing something in this next "now what!" moment.

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Well, if you're following these posts with bated breath, waiting for the next daily adventure, you'll notice I did not comment on my life last night.  It was one of "those" days.

I'm not sure which aspect of life LaguzR was referring to, but Hagalaz sure swept through in the afternoon.  Every expectation of how the afternoon would go, went.  Right out the window.  I don't think I stopped moving.  But the hardest part was actually taking the deep breath and moving through it.  It would have been much nicer to just sit and see if it all went away.  Interestingly, the two things I had been definitely planning did happen.

And as for Algiz, well, I just sent good thoughts to every car I saw.  

So, yesterday was all right.  I hope you had a great day!

-L

92413

So it feels like there aren't a lot of choices today.  This is okay! Just keep doing.  Remember, we are rescuing ourselves.  Yay us!

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I don't know if i have anything to add.  It was kind of a mediocre reading and it was half accurate.

Regarding the "big" event of today, I had few choices.  But all solutions required an outside force for assistance.  (this morning my car was a beautiful paperweight sitting in the garage.  Had to have "roadside assistance" come out and give us a jump start.  The engine light is still on; I have a service appointment.  I did try some Reiki on it first; no foreseeable effect.)

But I did keep doing.  Until I became tired of doing and decided to watch Burlesque instead.  (Beautiful!)

And I am doing again now.  So the day began and ended with purpose.  

All right.  Yay me!

Hope you had a great day!

-Lila

92313

It's time to stop depending on outside sources for emotional validation.  *Some mysterious stranger isn't going to complete me.  I complete me.

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I may complete me, but I could sometimes wish for someone to at least drop the answer in my lap!  Or maybe a hint that involves more than 4 hours of...

Well, I was going to say time wasted, but obviously it wasn't wasted.  I learned more about myself today, and what I want.

I learned there are some things I just can't seem to do easily; formatting and uploading a document to become an ebook seems to be one of those things.  Every time I try, it takes hours to complete, or my computer dies.  Or, as was today's case, nothing happens.  (well, except I curbed an urge to reach energetically through the computer screen and "assist" the customer service rep in understanding my issue.)  

However, uploading documents, attractive web pages, and other things "e-tastic" are a necessary part of my ultimate goal (to sell books).  So, the solution that makes sense is to ask for help.  find help.  Accept help.

So, isn't that depending on an outside source?  In order to get my work validated (ie published!)  

Or did it simply mean the internet wouldn't be helpful today?  Or that the customer service couldn't help me?  Or that my emotional security is not reliant upon the end product of my work?

But in the end, after all the drama, trauma and frustration, it does come to the point.  I am the only person who can make me feel good about myself and about what I have or have not accomplished today.  I am the only person who can ride through the emotional backlash.  I am my own hero.

Yay me!

I hope you have great day.

-Lila

92013

The inheritance is not manifesting today. (othiloR)

  choices can be limited by emotional ties (kunosR)  

Remember: *What do I want?  What makes ME happy?

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It being a long couple of days, I'm tired.  Humorously, yesterday did not succeed as planned.  Sigh.

But, quick analysis of today...
           Well, I tried to take a picture with an inherited camera...  it did not come out in digital the way it looked in life.
           Emotional ties: hmm.  I probably could have encouraged an emotional connection to make a better choice.
           What do I want?  What makes me happy?  This one, I lived by today.  I weighed my choices, decided what I was willing to exchange for what I wanted, and made a decision based on what made me the happiest.  So.  Yay me!

I hope your day was as empowering.

-L

91813

Today is not Eureka day.  Sigh.  Even if the question is answered we might feel there is more to know.  So be it.  Breathe and let it go.  The mind often works best under cover.

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Hmm.  That came as a surprise.

I have been working on trying to write a formula in excel for the 2 days before today.  With "today is not a Eureka! day", I just decided not to waste my time trying again.  Let it sit and see if the answer comes the next time I play with it.  Yay!

Instead, I spent a very productive day getting all my chores out of the way so I could have some time for meditation and celebration tomorrow.

And now, the health of someone else decrees my time will most likely be spent focused outside of myself tomorrow.

Does this have anything to do with the reading?  Does the reading cover this?  The rune was Sowelo R, in air.  
      >Sowelo = success; R is lack of success.  I succeeded in doing all my chores.
      > air = communication, thinking.  I may not have all the meditating time I wanted, but that's tomorrow.  (but I found out tonite.  So that is a goal unfulfilled.)  But that is not necessarily a success or lack there of; my time was cleared.  My actions fulfilled my intentions.  Outside forces and responsibilities to others changed the plans for tomorrow.
    >and if the health requires a dr's visit, there may be plenty of time for meditation in the waiting room. *wry grin*

So.  Though this event is a surprise, I don't know if it's related to the reading.  Should the reading have "warned" me?  Well, no.  The question is general.  "What does the universe want US to know today?"

Besides, this event relied on the choices of others.  Such a decision (to deal with dis-ease) may not have been made, or perhaps confirmed, until right before I was informed.

 Ah well.  Looking back on today, I am glad for all the hard work and by tomorrow I will be grateful for the lack of conflicts.

Hope you had a great day!
-L