Showing posts with label music. Show all posts
Showing posts with label music. Show all posts

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

LIR 71414 - No Rune



Yes, No Rune again today.
 This could mean any or all of the following:
1) Universe still busy; you’re still good
2) I, Lila, am too focused on my own stuff to interpret correctly for the general reading.
3) today is a day for individual readings, choices, mentality. In which case, please check out my offer on fiverr.com. *g*  http://www.fiverr.com/unicallen/rune-your-life-for-5-days

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Oh my aching...!

Have I thanked you lately for your readership?  I get multiple page views a day, so it feels I am talking to someone.  Which helps.  A lot.

Yesterday was quite interesting.  First, before I pulled the rune (or lack thereof,) I had a thought...  "today, it's about the question."  That was followed by, "Which sounds personal.  So focus on the general first, and we'll work on the specific second."

Which I did.  And I/we received the above reading.

Then, I did my personal reading.  The question of the day was Naihwaz.  Which I interpreted as, "What do you need?"

The immediate reply was, "money."

And oh my goodness, why is that so hard to say out loud?  (Or type in public, whichever.)  Money money money money money money money money money.

I want money.  I need money.  Love it.  Own it.  Admit it.  I LIKE money.

I immediately want to go into a long discourse about how I like money for more than just it's spendability, which is true.  I like dispensing money.  I like being a cashier and giving exact change.  I like being a bookkeeper and  putting the numbers in their spot.  I just like money.  But, for these purposes right here, it's not about the appreciation of money as a source of energy on its own.

It's about having money.  A source of income.  More inflow than outflow.  Money money money.  "When I am a rich woman, ya da dida dida dida dida dida dida dum."

As I type this, I realize it might not be the most reassuring post.  I have recently started applying to banks - because I want to combine customer service with money handling.  And of course these posts are public record, which  means I might appear a little less stable than the preferred bank teller should be.  *wry grin*.  But, in an interview I hope I would say the same thing.  I like money.  I respect it.  And, just like energy, I would never be able to take or use money that isn't mine.  That's just... wrong.  Dirty.  Heavy.  Bad karma.

But I would be quite happy to earn my own money while being the caretaker of others'.  Bring it in!  Pay my bills, buy fun stuff, and still have money!

Of course, there are other options for money to flow into my life.  I have 3 books out there waiting for purchase.  I have fiver gigs.  I am quite open to grants and donations.  And my brain teems with ideas for earning and using and keeping the flow of money going around and around.  I need money.  I want money.  Money will help me feel happy.

But....  yesterday was not JUST about money.

What do you need?  Getting ready for voice lessons, I  prepared my music, my checkbook, and the items I would need for errands afterward.  I tried to download a music file so I could practice my song on the way.  I also wanted a set of warm up exercises, but I couldn't find anything easily transferrable to my phone.

I left the house knowing I had forgotten something.  I went back and checked the locks, refilled the water, checked my phone.

When I arrived, I didn't have my music.

I berated myself for a minute.  But being without my music actually led to an interesting lesson in storytelling, something very important to me.  And I received some exercises.  I have what I need.  And moreover, what I want.  Which included reassurances about both my teacher and myself.

Even the store had the swimsuit items I "needed".  It took a little hunting, but they were there.  As soon as I decide what I really wanted.

And I wonder, with excitement and anticipation, what others things did I do yesterday, like filling in my Linkedin info, or searching more banks for jobs, or answering emails, or keeping the doors open, which will provide what I want and need?

I do hope your day was as inspiring and personal!  Now, let's see what's happening today.

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LIR 71514 - Taiwaz, Sowelo
Question of the day:
what choices will lead to happiness & success?
which sacrifices are worth it?
I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

Friday, December 27, 2013

122413 Berkano

Today's nurturing includes the energy of others, whether you are nurturing them or receiving nourishment from them.  Deep breath, and you decide what feels best in each situation.

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Ah.  This one came as a big surprise to me.  This last year being difficult for many people, I have become accustomed to relying mostly on myself.  To not turning to anyone.  I have been practicing asking for help, but...   And, as I imagine is happening with many people, though things are slowly improving, this past week has been one of major upheaval.

I was having a break down (and trying to sing through it), when my person came in and gave me exactly what I needed, a hug.  Scarily, this nurturing did NOT stop the meltdown, it facilitated it and out poured all sorts of words, describing feelings I would never have thought I was having.

And I'll be honest.  I did start the break down with the thought, knowledge that I needed some outside assistance (cuz the rune said so), and I was working on feeling the spiritual support (when I wasn't singing angry woman music.)  Having the physical support was astounding and today I realize something.  (Here's the kick in the pants part of the nurturing...)

I've gotten a little too used to the difficult status quo.  My responses and patterns are still based on the protective posture I've been practicing.  Frankly, I'm still getting used to the idea that I have the right and responsibility to protect myself, to stand up for myself, to do for myself.

But now, things are improving.  And there are people I can turn to, and people I can let in.  Today is not yesterday, every moment is new, every situation is a death and a birth.  And if I don't want to be alone, then I need to put a window in the protective walls and see who's out there helping me.

So Thanks, Berkano, and person, for the support and the subsequent learning experience (yes, slight sarcasm).  Thanks for helping me reach one of the sore spots, thanks for helping see the positive side, eventually.  And "Thank you for the music" (Abba), especially the song "Piece of Sky" from Yentl.  

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Reading for 122713  FehuR, AnsazR

It may feel difficult today to get your ideas to flow into the productivity stage.  Two options:  change your focus (go AROUND the block), or chuck it for the day (go for coffee.)

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila