Showing posts with label want. Show all posts
Showing posts with label want. Show all posts

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

LIR 71414 - No Rune



Yes, No Rune again today.
 This could mean any or all of the following:
1) Universe still busy; you’re still good
2) I, Lila, am too focused on my own stuff to interpret correctly for the general reading.
3) today is a day for individual readings, choices, mentality. In which case, please check out my offer on fiverr.com. *g*  http://www.fiverr.com/unicallen/rune-your-life-for-5-days

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Oh my aching...!

Have I thanked you lately for your readership?  I get multiple page views a day, so it feels I am talking to someone.  Which helps.  A lot.

Yesterday was quite interesting.  First, before I pulled the rune (or lack thereof,) I had a thought...  "today, it's about the question."  That was followed by, "Which sounds personal.  So focus on the general first, and we'll work on the specific second."

Which I did.  And I/we received the above reading.

Then, I did my personal reading.  The question of the day was Naihwaz.  Which I interpreted as, "What do you need?"

The immediate reply was, "money."

And oh my goodness, why is that so hard to say out loud?  (Or type in public, whichever.)  Money money money money money money money money money.

I want money.  I need money.  Love it.  Own it.  Admit it.  I LIKE money.

I immediately want to go into a long discourse about how I like money for more than just it's spendability, which is true.  I like dispensing money.  I like being a cashier and giving exact change.  I like being a bookkeeper and  putting the numbers in their spot.  I just like money.  But, for these purposes right here, it's not about the appreciation of money as a source of energy on its own.

It's about having money.  A source of income.  More inflow than outflow.  Money money money.  "When I am a rich woman, ya da dida dida dida dida dida dida dum."

As I type this, I realize it might not be the most reassuring post.  I have recently started applying to banks - because I want to combine customer service with money handling.  And of course these posts are public record, which  means I might appear a little less stable than the preferred bank teller should be.  *wry grin*.  But, in an interview I hope I would say the same thing.  I like money.  I respect it.  And, just like energy, I would never be able to take or use money that isn't mine.  That's just... wrong.  Dirty.  Heavy.  Bad karma.

But I would be quite happy to earn my own money while being the caretaker of others'.  Bring it in!  Pay my bills, buy fun stuff, and still have money!

Of course, there are other options for money to flow into my life.  I have 3 books out there waiting for purchase.  I have fiver gigs.  I am quite open to grants and donations.  And my brain teems with ideas for earning and using and keeping the flow of money going around and around.  I need money.  I want money.  Money will help me feel happy.

But....  yesterday was not JUST about money.

What do you need?  Getting ready for voice lessons, I  prepared my music, my checkbook, and the items I would need for errands afterward.  I tried to download a music file so I could practice my song on the way.  I also wanted a set of warm up exercises, but I couldn't find anything easily transferrable to my phone.

I left the house knowing I had forgotten something.  I went back and checked the locks, refilled the water, checked my phone.

When I arrived, I didn't have my music.

I berated myself for a minute.  But being without my music actually led to an interesting lesson in storytelling, something very important to me.  And I received some exercises.  I have what I need.  And moreover, what I want.  Which included reassurances about both my teacher and myself.

Even the store had the swimsuit items I "needed".  It took a little hunting, but they were there.  As soon as I decide what I really wanted.

And I wonder, with excitement and anticipation, what others things did I do yesterday, like filling in my Linkedin info, or searching more banks for jobs, or answering emails, or keeping the doors open, which will provide what I want and need?

I do hope your day was as inspiring and personal!  Now, let's see what's happening today.

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LIR 71514 - Taiwaz, Sowelo
Question of the day:
what choices will lead to happiness & success?
which sacrifices are worth it?
I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

LIR 7714 - HagalazR & Berkano





We don’t need big, drastic changes to increase our comfort.



The desire for more nurturing will not destroy our worlds.



Breathe in. What do I want? Breathe out.
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Yesterday, I was pretty sure about what I wanted.  This morning, my mind is a fever of images and ideas and possibilities.

But, it is a pretty basic thing to remember.  Breathe in.  What do I want?  Breathe out.  I wish I'd reread this last night, or earlier this morning.

Because I know the panicked flitting from idea to idea is not what I want.  It in no way makes me happy.  And some of those ideas were (are) fun!  But.

The question itself may be even simpler.  "Do I want this?"

And if the answer is no, no judgement.  No big drama.  Just accept and move on.

Yes, that feels right.  That feels happy.  That feels calm and comforting.

Breathe out.  "Do I want this?"  Breathe in.

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LIR 7814 No Rune
Well, we must be on the right track, whatever we’re doing. *g*
Slow & steady.
I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

Sunday, June 22, 2014

LIR 61814 - Dagaz


Take time to think, Compare, contemplate, be sure before moving forward.

 If it feels rushed, it might not be the right time.

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Well, I must say I am impressed with myself.  Because that's what I did.  I thought.  And I thought.  And I discussed and I talked and I thought some more.

A friend of mine brought up a very good thought this weekend.  She said, and I paraphrase, "Okay.  We know what we don't like.  We may not know why, but we know what.  So, what do we want to replace it with?"

It's not enough, it seems, just to want something.  I suppose that's part of free will, and taking responsibility.  I have to know all parts of what I want.  As in, do I just want to be content?  Earning income by doing a task that has no meaning to me?  Filling my days with repetition, so I can freely hang out at night?  Or do I want more, even if it means having to work for the times of relaxation and hanging out?

what do I really want?  Over all.  And in little pieces.  If this doesn't make me happy, what do I want to replace it with?

And, how do I want to get there?

I have learned one thing, in my contemplations.  I do NOT believe in compromise.  I want it all!  Every drop of happiness.  Every moment.  So mote it be.

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LIR 62214 - PerthroR

Look. It’s not about the outside influences. It’s not about what others want or think is right. It’s not even about fate, destiny, or what “should” be.
It’s about what we want. It’s about what makes us happy. Each, individually, uniquely happy.
So. What do you WANT?
I hope you have a great day!
-Lila