LIR 32815 - Berkano

Another thing to practice now, before the rush hits. 

Nurturing.

If you practice nurturing for yourself - the tough love AND the compassion - it will be easy to do later, when you're in the middle of the project or dream manifestation.

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It was a slow process getting myself out of bed this morning. Oh, so slow. If you've tried to move a cat from your lap when it's very comfortable, you can imagine my waking process. (and yes, there might have been some hissing and clawing. The drooling happened when I was asleep, so I take no responsibility for that).

Because I knew it was a nurture day, and that Mother Love can be a tricky thing, I paid special attention to something inner - trying to see if I was being a slave driving bitch, or simply firm in my compassion. And oh, the most interesting thing!

My usual morning routine was very plodding. But doable. (and it's a good thing I actually write the word Breakfast on my to do list for the day, or I might forget to eat it.) Stretching helped. Morning meditation helped. Seeing little birds helped.

But the thing which energized me the most and propelled me completely out of the fog of morning sleep was my singing practice.

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I never even had any caffeine this morning! and there was a cup of Irish Breakfast Tea waiting. and waiting. (I forgot to drink it, at first, and then I didn't need it.)

by the time I was through my warm up exercises, my mind was engaged. When I was finished with the first song, my body was no longer feeling weighted. And when the timer beeped, I was ready to move onto the next step in the day. I barely remembered I'd felt like a reluctant blob. And that was the best nurturing I have ever done for myself! To bring myself fully conscious in such an easy and effortless way, which also ticked something off my to do list. 

It's better than food, which is an easy nurture item, but also easy to misuse. Perhaps it's not as awesome as lying in the grass, but that's not a current nurturing tool for me.

Hmm. maybe I might work out how to make it one, again.

see, the day isn't over 'til it's over. And of course, there's hope I'll get into bed in a timely fashion (before the words blur. Another fine line between slave driving and compassion.) and the Nurturing goes on!

I hope you had a great one!
-Lila

122413 Berkano

Today's nurturing includes the energy of others, whether you are nurturing them or receiving nourishment from them.  Deep breath, and you decide what feels best in each situation.

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Ah.  This one came as a big surprise to me.  This last year being difficult for many people, I have become accustomed to relying mostly on myself.  To not turning to anyone.  I have been practicing asking for help, but...   And, as I imagine is happening with many people, though things are slowly improving, this past week has been one of major upheaval.

I was having a break down (and trying to sing through it), when my person came in and gave me exactly what I needed, a hug.  Scarily, this nurturing did NOT stop the meltdown, it facilitated it and out poured all sorts of words, describing feelings I would never have thought I was having.

And I'll be honest.  I did start the break down with the thought, knowledge that I needed some outside assistance (cuz the rune said so), and I was working on feeling the spiritual support (when I wasn't singing angry woman music.)  Having the physical support was astounding and today I realize something.  (Here's the kick in the pants part of the nurturing...)

I've gotten a little too used to the difficult status quo.  My responses and patterns are still based on the protective posture I've been practicing.  Frankly, I'm still getting used to the idea that I have the right and responsibility to protect myself, to stand up for myself, to do for myself.

But now, things are improving.  And there are people I can turn to, and people I can let in.  Today is not yesterday, every moment is new, every situation is a death and a birth.  And if I don't want to be alone, then I need to put a window in the protective walls and see who's out there helping me.

So Thanks, Berkano, and person, for the support and the subsequent learning experience (yes, slight sarcasm).  Thanks for helping me reach one of the sore spots, thanks for helping see the positive side, eventually.  And "Thank you for the music" (Abba), especially the song "Piece of Sky" from Yentl.  

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Reading for 122713  FehuR, AnsazR

It may feel difficult today to get your ideas to flow into the productivity stage.  Two options:  change your focus (go AROUND the block), or chuck it for the day (go for coffee.)

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila