LIR 7514 - EhwazR LIR 7614 - No Rune

Things don’t always flow in a sensible fashion, from past to future. Trust the intuitive leaps you make today!

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And every day, I hope.

This last year or two, I have learned that one way to help me decide if I want to do something is to talk about it.  Often, just the fact of talking about it is enough to know what I really think about it.  Because if it's gone after it's been discussed, it was "just" a cool idea which would be fun to implement, but not something I really want to put energy into.  A form of putting the seeds into the ground of the universe and seeing what takes root.

So, the day of this reading, I was at retail and following some thoughts to their conclusions -  if what I want isn't out there, I can create it myself.  Just another version, really, of "if you want something done..." 

And for me, it's not, "if you want something done right."   If I want something done, then I should do it.  It's me who wants it done!  The ultimate form of manifestation, right there in the palm of my hands.  I want the laundry done, I go do the laundry.  Ta da!  Even the act of eating food made from someone else's hands requires an energy output.  Finding the place to eat, making the order, and exchanging money for services.  You manifested that meal, however you look at it.

So, I went out to dinner with my spouse and sat down and talked it out.  All the possibilities of how I could manifest my ideal day.  He did an excellent job listening.

Which brings us to yesterday's reading:

what are you thinking about?  focus on that today.  have fun!

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Yesterday, what I was thinking about was happiness.  Through my day, as I did my readings and my retail and my relaxation, the happiness guru in me gave me a big long speech.  At first, I thought it meant I really wanted to be a motivational speaker!  (What makes you happy!?!)  And I would probably rock that, if I could find a way to get it started.

But as I was sitting on the couch with my spouse, watching television, I realized the answer was... being a lazy bum also makes me happy.  Having enough cash in the bank to enjoy, guilt free, a delicious meal and television of whatever quality.   Reading books (Oh!  I miss my library).  Planning vacations.  Playing computer games.  Admit it, Lila.  Be a woman, deserve your guru title, stand up and admit what makes you happy.  Relaxing and playing.

And yes, surprisingly to the selfish Lila, having my husband in a job which makes him happy, makes me happy.

So I applied for some bank jobs last night.  My favorite bank had some openings.  I've always wanted to work at a bank.  And I like the mental image of myself working in a bank.  And while I really appreciate the retail job getting me back into the world; and while I enjoy meeting people and making them feel good about themselves, or being cheerful and having fun;  the retail world does not feed me.  I would like to see if the banking world does.  It already has more growth options.

But I had a quandary.  I like the number 5.  And when I go into banking, I can put that work back under the 'Rithmatic heading of my business.  So what is the 5th R in my bag of abilities?  

And this is one of the ways posting the rune readings feeds me....  it answers questions.  I've already typed it. You've probably already guessed it.

So, let me introduce myself.  I am Lila Evans Allen, purveyor of the 5 R's.  Reading, Riting, 'Rithmatic, Rumination.  and Relaxation.

How can it get better than this?

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LIR 7714 - HagalazR & Berkano

We don’t need big, drastic changes to increase our comfort.

The desire for more nurturing will not destroy our worlds.

Breathe in. What do I want? Breathe out.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 7414 - Othila

Next question: what gifts, skills, ideas, legacies would you like associated with your name, your memory?

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All right, perhaps that wasn't the question at all.  For that did nothing, brought up no thoughts.  I can't relate any of yesterday's activities to this reading at all.

Still really focusing on what I want to do as work... or more, how I would like to.

Did have a family event, and DNA did come up once, as passed from Mother to Daughter, but I was not the subject of that discussion.

It being July 4th yesterday, you might think Independence would come into it, so I suppose it's possible my thoughts yesterday, or one of my actions, could lead to someone's mental or emotional independence...

Shrug..  i really don't know.  But since I believe the runes are always for purpose, I'm just going to say I must have missed it's impact on my life yesterday.  Or I misread it for my personal situation. 

Let's see what today's reading says.

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LIR 7514 - EhwazR

Things don’t always flow in a sensible fashion, from past to future. Trust the intuitive leaps you make today!

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 7314 - WunjoR

So. Now, what things made those Clan gatherings uncomfortable? And, or, what events/ groups are definitely not family?  

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Well, I don't know if this had anything to do with my day yesterday.

The day before I related the Wunjo clan to working family.  The thought I kept thinking about yesterday was, am I willing, able, truthfully happy to start a metaphysical bookstore of my own?

And the answer is...  I don't know.  There's a lot of work involved moving the home based business out into the real world.  Winning the lottery, getting a loan or a grant, or finding another source of start up is primary.  I feel like I could easily get lost amongst the minutae of business dealings and lose my passion.  I'd rather have a partner or two or three, a group willing to give time and energy so the responsibility is not mine alone.

So, is the WunjoR telling me there are no partners out there?  Or asking me to list the qualities I do NOT want in partners?

Obviously, more to think about.

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LIR 7414 - Othila

Next question: what gifts, skills, ideas, legacies would you like associated with your name, your memory?

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 7214 - Wunjo

Remember those parties, those celebrations with all your clan about you?  What made it a party?  What makes them family?


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For me, yesterday's remeniscense had nothing to do with family or close friends, per se.  It had, again, to do with work.  With being happy at what I am doing.  With the clan, family I created at various places of employment.

Where was I happiest?  What made these people family?  Where did I create relationships that still hold strong today?

I have worked in many places: fast food, dry cleaners, corporations, schools, furniture, books, metaphysical, clothes, car dealership.  Today, I my closest, deepest, longest lasting friendships come from two places - the bookstore & the metaphysical store.

So what makes them family or clan?  Shared interests.  Similair language.   An open-mindedness.  And a feeling I could be myself, I was myself, I was accepted for myself.  All of this adds up to happiness.

So why did I leave these places?  Certainly not because of the people.  But in each instance, I felt, simply, the urge to move on.  That my happiness quotient was now ready for a new ingredient.  and I have tried to go back to these places.  I still visit both stores with regularity, and even do some of my work in both places.  But a stronger foothold, or  a more permanent work relationship, has been unavailable with either place.

So, now I know what I worked in the past.  What kind of environment I want.  A metaphysical book store.  I even have some interesting ideas about opening my own.  But...  

Isn't that a wonderful word, but...?

So, we'll skip that word and just leave it at that.  A metaphysical bookstore.  Could encompass all my talents and bring more people I would love to meet.

Let's see what's next.

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LIR 7314 - WunjoR

So. Now, what things made those Clan gatherings uncomfortable? And, or, what events/ groups are definately not family?

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 7114 - PerthroR

Sometimes, it feels it would be easier to let someone else be responsible for your choices.

But you’re the one who will judge yourself tomorrow.

Your life.  Your truth. Your Choice.

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What I have discovered with this reading is that we are never free from outside influence.  Everything we do creates a ripple, and we are constanting living in the ripples created by ourselves and others.

For instance, I just realized I made a choice yesterday (to attend an event) based on something I read that resonated with my truths.  I also made a choice to add a gig to my fiverr jobs, based on a client's needs.  So actually, I totally ignored this advice.  Or, it wasn't actually applicable to me?  Cuz I was swimming in the ripples like a fish.

But this ripple effect, this universal influence does not remove responsibility from our shoulders.  We may not consciously choose the situations we are in, but we always choose our actions.

Wait.  Do we ALWAYS choose?  There are many situations we cannot guarantee our behavior, whatever we hope it might be, because there is no training for that life or death, flight or fight reaction.  If i am startled, I jump.  If a bug bites me, I swat.  And that can very much be outside influences affecting our choices.  If instinctive behavior even qualifies as a choice.

What we do when we are cognizant, however, is the choice.  Do we train ourselves out of the behavior we dislike?  Like learning to calmly put the fire out instead of running around screaming?

Do we accept our actions and face the consequences?  Like apologizing for accidently knocking over the red syrup onto the white floor.  And offering to clean it.

And most importantly, are we able to do this with the open-minded truth and acceptance we would use for others?  If you would say, "Oh, no, that's okay" to someone else, you most certainly can say it to yourself.

Do I revoke my RSVP or take down the gig?  Just because I realized it was an outside influence?  Well, no, because those things still resonate with my truth.  And with my wants.  I still choose to do so, not because I was influenced, but because it makes me happy.

For me, this reading becomes about judgement.  It is automatic.  Perhaps it is a survival instinct.  And it certainly influences the behavior that follows.  But it's what we do after the instinctive reaction; what we do with the analysis and information; what we CHOOSE that is the important facet of every ripple we create.

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LIR 7214 - Wunjo

Remember those parties, those celebrations with all your clan about you?  What made it a party?  What makes them family?

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 63014 - Eihwaz

Today is about balance. What worlds, realities, needs are you balancing? Is it working?

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As seems to be normal for this year, another issue has been - well, maybe not yet resolved  - defined.  Defined is a good word.  I know the reason why my singing range is not what it used to be.

And, as seems normal for this year, the definition needed some absorption time.  So, I turned to my old coping methods.

Well, to be more precise, I knew what my old coping methods were - which ones I really wanted to use - and modified them.  So my balance yesterday was between fulfilling the comfort need of the moment and being happy the next day.  One could say the worlds I balanced were present and future; or even past, present and future (since the comforting technique I was changing was a learned behavior of the past).  

I also did some work before I allowed myself time to absorb.  Not only because I had readings that needed to be posted, but also because it followed my current thought pattern.  I am a writer, yes?  So, let's actually write about what we're thinking!  (You will find this post on the meanderings page.)  So, I balanced another set of needs - the need to keep going with my work, which is a huge pressing need; and the need to stop and regain my equilibrium (which in itself is another balance).

The final world, reality, perhaps perception I balanced (and am still balancing) is the one between good and bad - terms I have grown out of.  I prefer happy and unhappy, really.  And while it was tempting to make a huge dramatic story out of the issue, to explain why it impacted me, the truth (my truth) is that there are positives and negatives, depending on the day and my perceptions of self and the truths I am clinging to.  A limited vocal range is traumatic news, because it shows that what I can do and what I expect to do are on different wave lengths.  But trauma just means change, adjustment, adaptation.  And the positive is, at least for this moment, the reason I can't sing that song has everything to do with the instrument and little to do with the player.

So, I have a whole new world to explore - and a new balance to achieve, between what I have and what I want to do with it.  And, I did often envy the altos...

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LIR 7114 - PerthroR

Sometimes, it feels it would be easier to let someone else be responsible for your choices.
But you’re the one who will judge yourself tomorrow.
Your life.
Your truth.
Your Choice.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 62914 - Fehu

Time to let your job, your passion, your life enervate you.  The purpose for all that hard work is happiness.  Today's a good day to enjoy it.

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As usual, I remembered one part of the reading, and not the rest.  Which is fine.  I assume there are different relevant parts for different people.

Yesterday, I was tired.  And counting calories.  So the reading, for me, took on the simple meaning of let your job feed you.  After some thoughtful time in the reading portion of my work, I went into retail.

On one hand, it did feed me.  we were busy busy (end of a coupon, a register on a fritz).  So busy people didn't take their breaks at the appointed time.  So busy, I didn't even notice I was very hungry until I made some silly little mistake.  (Quick analyzation, attention wandering, oh!  I'm grumpy.  Oh.  I'm hungry.)  So, as I had to wait for my break, I tried to let the activities, and flow of movement and work, even whatever extra energy there was hanging around feed me and energize me.

I assume it worked, as my mood did not deteriorate.  And even better, a co-worker who is highly exuberant came in for the end of my shift, so her up beat mood helped me reach one also.

But when I finally reached home, I was soooooooooo tired.  And achy.  All plans to do anything productive were out the window.

This morning I reread the post and realized I did do what it suggested.  For what do I expend energy at the retail store?  For money.  What does the money get me?  A beautiful comfy place in which to rest and watch tv and relax. I didn't realize it at the time; I was busy being grumpy about the pain and deciding to go to bed early, but I did partake of what my work brings me.  I did use the benefits I and my Significant Other provide.  Enjoy may not be the best word, but I certainly am glad of it now!

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LIR 63014 - Eihwaz

Today is about balance. What worlds, realities, needs are you balancing? Is it working?

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila