LIR 73014 - Mannaz

A good day to rebalance, with attention on the physical -

 be it financial, visual, health.

Remember, the body is as important as the mind.

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this is about calories again, isn't it?

Actually, I think it probably was.  And my attempt (less successful than I wanted) to balance the amount of cake I consumed with the time spent doing Dance Dance Revolution.

And I just have to ask... what is it about cake?  Yum.

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LIR 73114 - DagazR far off the mat

Today’s driving force may be an instinctive fear or hope that time is running away from you.

But whether your deadline is tomorrow or next year, your best pace is the one which enables you to do your best.

Time is only fleeting when categorize it. Now is eternal.

I hope you have a great now!
-Lila

LIR 72914 - UrazR

Not everything has to be a permanent part of your life. Trying something new can be fun, exciting, & non-committal.

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So calories didn't count today, right?

This could have covered everything from clothes worn to job applied for.  It helped give a certain freedom to the day, and combined well with my personal reading, which included "if you don't plant the seeds, you don't have a harvest."

It's interesting how many things can be both positive and negative in connotation.  It all just depends on your point of view and frame of mind.

Yesterday's reading made it easier to talk about some things, with my friend and counselor.  Because just putting ideas out there does not mean I am dedicating my time to them.  It means I am entertaining them.  Trying them on for size.  Letting them be silly or grand or deep, and seeing how they fit with my truths.

For me, it was a nice breezy day, and the deep soul searching talks had an air of lightness about them.

And I really hope it applied to the calories too!

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LIR 73014 -Mannaz

A good day to rebalance, with attention on the physical - be it financial, visual, health.

Remember, the body is as important as the mind.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 72814 - OthilaR far off the mat

Deep, deep down is the hope or fear that some genetic gift passed you by.

Stand tall. You are not your ancestors; your choices are your own.

And your today is your choice.

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Whenever I pull the Othila rune, my mind automatically goes to DNA and inherited health issues.  Which can be everything from hairlines to immune diseases.

My mom seemed to have a lot of health issues (except for her hairline) before she died.  Issues which, frankly, I would rather be dead than suffer through.  But maybe she didn't suffer the way I would have suffered.  Maybe her pain tolerance was different; maybe her activities were more mental anyway.

There are many maybes and one truth.  I am not her.

But yesterday had nothing to do with any known matriarchal health issues.  No matter how I try to slant my perception, no matter how deeply I dug into my unconscious motivations.

So, what did it have to do with?

Ancestral gifts is about inheritance: of land, of skills, of traditions perhaps.  Since I personally am on a quest for happy income, it most likely had to do with fields occupied by others in my family.  As I hunted through various web sites, there were probably, deep down, echoes of "Well, she did that."  Or, "I could be like him." Or even "But we already have one of those in the family."  Which is good to know.  Because, again, my happiness does not rest on what others have done, or even (mostly) on being the only one who does something.  My truth is about what I want to do.

Enlightenment is Awesome - especially if one remembers everything one feels enlightened about.  Such as, um, Lila, your slight obsession with your health is pretty conscious.  Way off the mat means deep, deep, deep, deep down.  Quit looking at the obvious, please.

To which, if anyone else said that, I would reply.  Okay.  Lesson learned.  Now quit beating yourself up!

So.  Onto the new day.

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LIR 72914 - UrazR

Not everything has to be a permanent part of your life. Trying something new can be fun, exciting, & non-comittal.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 72714 - Uraz

what do you consider to be your earthly foundations? 
What, who is really supporting you financially, healthily?

And what, who are you supporting? Healthily?

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I think for me, yesterday was about food.

A long-time friend and I went out to eat and she paid for the meal.  And we actually talked about the psychology of eating.  Later, my husband and I together cooked a simple yet satisfactory meal.  Later that evening, I tried to find something to satisfy that craving, that balance between sweet and salt.

And of course tried to answer that elusive question, am I really hungry?  What void am I trying to fill with food?

When it comes to food, there is a balance.  In fact, I think there may be a lot more going on than we allow ourselves to realize.  Beyond the comfort food and the filling of the void.  There are the nutrients, the vitamins, the load of salt and chemicals which we pop into our bodies without awareness.

Why do we have cravings?  Why do we try for balance?  Why does something taste good and help the happy feeling on one day, and doesn't on another?  Am I eating to provide ourselves with energy, or for something else?  Are my food choices to support mental health, physical health, or an addiction, possibly a habit?

And eating habits or physical attributes can be as touchy a subject as race or religion.  "Are you calling me fat?"  But, I am fat.  Or am I chubby?  Comfortable?

Which means, for me, all these adjectives are meaningless.  What is my truth?  What is important?  What is the foundation of all this questioning and consuming?

Am I happy?

Does this food make me happy?  Both when consuming, and hours later.  And days later?

Does this food make me, and my body - my earthly foundation - happy?

Something for me to think about, to bring into awareness, every day.

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LIR 72814 - OthilaR far off the mat

Deep, deep down is the hope or fear that some genetic gift passed you by.

Stand tall. You are not your ancestors; your choices are your own.

And your today is your choice.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 72414 - Blank Rune

Looks like some decisions are being made today. 

Review your needs, your wants, your dreams, 

so when it comes time to give your answer, 

you can speak with your Truth.

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The "review" tended toward a lot of - "not that".  "Nope."  "Definitely don't want to be a part of that."  With one or two "Eeewwww"s.  

Perhaps it was more than that, though.  Perhaps, as I look back, I can say that along with the rejection of things undesired, I stood up for, stood in the circle of the things, emotions, dreams, truths I do desire.  I, maybe embodied, maybe held the space for, or maybe did a lot of picking and choosing, and connected with only those aspects I wanted around me.  Whether it was at retail or ritual.

And it feels like it's coming back to faith.  Faith in myself.  I don't, consciously, know the exact picture of what will make me happy.  I don't know, consciously, all the myriad of possibilities available.  So, I am casting my net wide.  Each time something sparks a "hmm, I wonder if I'd like that?" I send out a feeler.  And then, once the connection is made, I know a little more of how I feel about it.  Because I can always say no.  Or yes.  Or maybe.

But until I am connected, I can't actually know the reality of it.

There really is an element of, "if you want something done, you have to do it yourself."    Which sometimes feels grumbly, because shouldn't everything I want fall into my lap?  But, this being a free will species, EVERYONE gets to choose how they deliver it, or if they deliver it at all.  Everyone gets to say no, or yes, or maybe.

So, we connect.  And we explore the shared reality.  And then I trust myself, and through myself the universe, to bring the right things closer.  To open the doors which will lead to that state of happiness, to that place and job and existence and energy exchange which feeds me.  The place where my Truth is not only accepted, but lauded.  Or debated with friendly intent so I can find more Truth.

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LIR 72714 - Uraz

what do you consider to be your earthly foundations? What, who is really supporting you financially, healthily?

And what, who are you supporting? Healthily?

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 72314 - Jera

How do you know your hard work will pay off?

Look where you are now! Only you could have made the choices which led to this harvest, these rewards.

It only gets richer, fuller, happier from here.

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Yes, of course I believe it only gets better from here.  I know this, deep down.  But sometimes the way seems...

...well, it's like Castleville Legends (and yes, I play that game with fervor and dedication.  Mostly.  Rather like the daily rune readings *G*.)  In the game, the area you've discovered is well lit and full of options, but the surrounding areas are foggy.  And sometimes you can see a structure, or a statue, hidden in the mist, but the way the game progresses takes you away from those interesting structures instead of towards them.  And sometimes you become very bored with your current options and you really want to explore more!

You know, because you've done enough levels now, that there is a "logical" progression of steps to be taken.  So when you're sitting around waiting for the next challenge, there are still things you can do to prepare, like make and sell items, gain more experience, empty the vault.  And you know you can move forward, because you've already made it to this level...  you know what to expect.  Even if you're not quite sure which direction the next level will take you.

But those buildings are so enticing!  And there are so many of them.  And it seems to take so long to get to the next level!

Tho, the more time spent actually working at things which gain coin and experience, the faster you get to the next level.

What?

The more time I spend actually working, the faster I get to the next level.  The more work I do, the more harvest I receive.  The more energy I put out, the more experience I gain.  I know which things work slowly and which work quickly to put the coin in my accounts.  I know which job choices work are a 50/50 chance and which are guaranteed; which will make me happy to go to work, and which ones are worth the pay check, and which ones I'll just resent.  The Harvest I have received so far from all the past levels of playing the game which is my life is more than the income, it is the knowledge and the experience.  I have tried things.  I enjoy some things and, no matter how much I might want it to be otherwise, I despise other things.  So it is.

The moral of this blog is, again, to trust myself.  If I can't seem to get to the sparkling diamond in the distance, maybe it's because there's still more work and prep and concentration needed here.  And the more energy I place here, the more quickly my options will expand.  And the more quickly my options expand, the sooner I will get to that sparkling diamond, to find out if it's something I even really want.

In other words, Lila, get back to work!

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LIR 72414 - Blank Rune

Looks like some decisions are being made today. Review your needs, your wants, your dreams, so when it comes time to give your answer, you can speak with your Truth.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 71814 - Dagaz, Uraz, Ehwaz, Othila, Fehu

A little more time, a little more thought. Firm your foundations, ride the emotional wave, accept your gifts & open your arms wide. Your dreams are coming!

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i just have to say - five minutes after I cast this, just finished typing up the interpretation, and a company called.  They had already filled the position I had applied for, and wondered if I were interested in a different position.  

I don't know if I would have grabbed it anyway, but with this reading firmly in hand, I said no thank you.  I'm holding out for what I want!

It'll be interesting to see what the rest of the day brings.

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5 days later...  well, 5 is a good number.  A restful number.

I find it interesting which parts of a reading I latch onto.  Often it's the fearful parts I have to over come.  Like that little time rune, down in the lower right corner.  Part of me wants to scream, "HOW MUCH TIME?!"  So there have been days when I have simply been riding the whirlwind.  Or, to be more accurate, I have simply been being me, while the whirl wind flows around.

Have I firmed my foundations?  Well, I definitely confirmed I have no desire to stay in a retail job, no matter how awesome the people.  And, in my job search, I have realized also that transit time is not necessarily what I want right now.  Though, I leave that up in the air a little more than others, because it could be good to get my behind out of the house.

But is that my real foundation?  I am very comfortable in the house, but do I get any work done if there is no outside impetuous?

And is that important?

Right.

So.

Foundation -  More of a honing, than an expanding.
Time - both relaxing and stressful.
Arms open wide to accept gifts?  Hmm.  Let's see what today brings.

I mean yes!  Yes!  I accept.  *G*

Really, if I pay attention to what I, myself, my body and my happiness meter are telling me, I can separate the hobbies from the work which feeds me.  So once more, accepting my gifts means also accepting how I want to use those gifts.  Or not, as the case may be.  Which means, again and always, accepting myself.

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LIR 72314 - Jera

How do you know your hard work will pay off?

Look where you are now! Only you could have made the choices which led to this harvest, these rewards.

It only gets richer, fuller, happier from here.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 71514 - Taiwaz, Sowelo

Question of the day:

what choices will lead to happiness & success?

which sacrifices are worth it?

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Since this was a question, I automatically asked and answered it.  What sacrifices are worth the success?  And the only thing I could think of was time.

Then of course I started obsessing with sacrifice.  But let's look at the first part of the question.  What choices will lead to happiness?  Time could also be the answer to that.    Spending time working on things, being with people and in places which create happiness.  Doing things that make me feel happy will lead to doing more happy things.

And back to the obsession about sacrifice.  Like "work" it has a negative connotation.  But really, all it means is choosing, doesn't it?  Choosing one thing over another.  Choosing this or that.  Choose excitement over fear.  Choose happiness over drama.  Choose to spend the time on things which make me happy, instead of bemoaning my anger or frustration or sorrow.

The important word is choice.

As always.

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LIR 71814 - Dagaz, Uraz, Ehwaz, Othila, Fehu  (lol - "from a trickle to a roar".)

A little more time, a little more thought. Firm your foundations, ride the emotional wave, accept your gifts & open your arms wide. Your dreams are coming!

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 71414 - No Rune

Yes, No Rune again today.

 This could mean any or all of the following:

1) Universe still busy; you’re still good
2) I, Lila, am too focused on my own stuff to interpret correctly for the general reading.
3) today is a day for individual readings, choices, mentality. In which case, please check out my offer on fiverr.com. *g*  http://www.fiverr.com/unicallen/rune-your-life-for-5-days

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Oh my aching...!

Have I thanked you lately for your readership?  I get multiple page views a day, so it feels I am talking to someone.  Which helps.  A lot.

Yesterday was quite interesting.  First, before I pulled the rune (or lack thereof,) I had a thought...  "today, it's about the question."  That was followed by, "Which sounds personal.  So focus on the general first, and we'll work on the specific second."

Which I did.  And I/we received the above reading.

Then, I did my personal reading.  The question of the day was Naihwaz.  Which I interpreted as, "What do you need?"

The immediate reply was, "money."

And oh my goodness, why is that so hard to say out loud?  (Or type in public, whichever.)  Money money money money money money money money money.

I want money.  I need money.  Love it.  Own it.  Admit it.  I LIKE money.

I immediately want to go into a long discourse about how I like money for more than just it's spendability, which is true.  I like dispensing money.  I like being a cashier and giving exact change.  I like being a bookkeeper and  putting the numbers in their spot.  I just like money.  But, for these purposes right here, it's not about the appreciation of money as a source of energy on its own.

It's about having money.  A source of income.  More inflow than outflow.  Money money money.  "When I am a rich woman, ya da dida dida dida dida dida dida dum."

As I type this, I realize it might not be the most reassuring post.  I have recently started applying to banks - because I want to combine customer service with money handling.  And of course these posts are public record, which  means I might appear a little less stable than the preferred bank teller should be.  *wry grin*.  But, in an interview I hope I would say the same thing.  I like money.  I respect it.  And, just like energy, I would never be able to take or use money that isn't mine.  That's just... wrong.  Dirty.  Heavy.  Bad karma.

But I would be quite happy to earn my own money while being the caretaker of others'.  Bring it in!  Pay my bills, buy fun stuff, and still have money!

Of course, there are other options for money to flow into my life.  I have 3 books out there waiting for purchase.  I have fiver gigs.  I am quite open to grants and donations.  And my brain teems with ideas for earning and using and keeping the flow of money going around and around.  I need money.  I want money.  Money will help me feel happy.

But....  yesterday was not JUST about money.

What do you need?  Getting ready for voice lessons, I  prepared my music, my checkbook, and the items I would need for errands afterward.  I tried to download a music file so I could practice my song on the way.  I also wanted a set of warm up exercises, but I couldn't find anything easily transferrable to my phone.

I left the house knowing I had forgotten something.  I went back and checked the locks, refilled the water, checked my phone.

When I arrived, I didn't have my music.

I berated myself for a minute.  But being without my music actually led to an interesting lesson in storytelling, something very important to me.  And I received some exercises.  I have what I need.  And moreover, what I want.  Which included reassurances about both my teacher and myself.

Even the store had the swimsuit items I "needed".  It took a little hunting, but they were there.  As soon as I decide what I really wanted.

And I wonder, with excitement and anticipation, what others things did I do yesterday, like filling in my Linkedin info, or searching more banks for jobs, or answering emails, or keeping the doors open, which will provide what I want and need?

I do hope your day was as inspiring and personal!  Now, let's see what's happening today.

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LIR 71514 - Taiwaz, Sowelo

Question of the day:

what choices will lead to happiness & success?

which sacrifices are worth it?

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 71314 - No Rune

"You’ve got this covered.
 Anyway, I’m busy."
 Love, the Universe.

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I admit it.  My first reaction was, oh, goody.  An easy day.  No prob.  La la la la la.

Except it wasn't exactly easy.

Not to say it was a day fraught with peril, or even complicated by mental issues.  But it was a busy day (which makes sense, since I am part of the Universe.)  A day of working and learning and expending energy.

And it was easy, in that I am happiest when I am doing things I know how to do.  And doing them well.

There were several interesting moments, including a snail rescue and a conversation with a spider, but the one i feel is most related to this reading is the following:

During quiet moments at retail, I put merchandise away.  There was one piece which had been at my register when I arrived.  I couldn't find the right place the first time.  Or the second time.  It was nearing the end of my shift when I went out to try again.  After pacing the department, I saw someone who worked there regularly and I thought to myself, "Well, I'm just going to have to ask for help."  A woman walked in front of me, bent down to grab something and walked away.  And there on the rack she grabbed from were the pieces which matched the one I was holding.

Express a need, manifest an answer.  Yup, I love being part of the Universe, even when it's busy.

Or perhaps especially then.

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LIR 71414 - No Rune

Yes, No Rune again today. This could mean any or all of the following:

1)Universe still busy; you’re still good
2)I, Lila, am too focused on my own stuff to interpret correctly for the general reading.
3) today is a day for individual readings, choices, mentality. In which case, please check out my offer on fiverr.com. *g*  http://www.fiverr.com/unicallen/rune-your-life-for-5-days

Thank you & I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 71114 - PerthroR & Ehwaz

Remember, it is your truth & your needs that will keep things flowing the way you want.

Yes, everyone is important, but you are the ONLY one with your experiences.

 

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In other words, if all your friends jumped off a cliff, would you do it?

And remember, sometimes the answer is no.

For me, this reading had 2 or 3 parts.  The first was easily determined.  I turned in my 2 week notice at my current retail job.  There were the expected protestations, and the questions which boiled down to "What can we do to make it happier for you here?"

And it was flattering.  And it was tempting.  But the answer is, "nothing."   The only way for me to be happier at this retail job is for it not to be this retail job.  So.  I imagine there will be a few more conversations, but the truth, my truth, is that it is time for me to move on.

Relatively easy.

Not so easy are the moments when friendly people want to discuss opinions.  Whether it's books, movies, or political arenas, sometimes it's frustrating trying to balance acceptance of other's views and maintaining/ expressing my own views.  I like the person, shouldn't I like the same things she/ he likes?

And then the moments with friends.  True friends.  Long term friends.  However, this is a little easier because part of the strength of the friendship is the give and take of ideas, the flow of one leading and then the other.  A lot of practice has gone into this: the quick turn around between total agreement and opposing views; the switch between one person having knowledge and then other.  Again, the truth of the moment is the most important thing, not the ego, not even the image of "My place in the pack."

And finally, the most interesting part.  The rebellion part.  The "anti-influence".  Being used to doing the opposite of what people advise is just as false as going blindly along.  Opposing sides is not a permanent truth.  And this is the aspect of outside influences I still feel I need a lot of practice in.  When one is used to being unique and different, and prides herself on that, it is easy to miss the good advice, the suggestions and opportunities and vibrations, from unexpected sources.

So, to answer all the mothers in our heads,  if my friends jumped off a cliff, would I follow?  Putting aside the questions such as: can I fly?  What kind of safety device am I wearing?  Is there a time portal we're jumping into? the real issue is this.  Would it make me happy?  if the answer is "yes," I'm jumping.

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LIR 71314 - No Rune

"You’ve got this covered. Anyway, I’m busy." Love, the Universe.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 71014 - Naihwaz

Breathe!   

Relax.

Believe… you will have everything you need, 

when you need it.

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Oh, boy, did I need this advice yesterday.  It was one of THOSE days (or could have become one).  I won't say that everything which could go wrong did, because it didn't.  And I did a good job of keeping myself from going to that mental place.

But...  I did have to keep reminding myself to breathe and believe. 

Everything did work out, and it even finalized some plans of mine, and once I relaxed and paid attention, I felt better about the work I was doing, but...  I did have to keep reminding myself.

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LIR 71114 - PerthroR & Ehwaz

Remember, it is your truth & your needs that will keep things flowing the way you want.
Yes, everyone is important, but you are the ONLY one with your experiences.

I hope you have a great day!
- Lila

LIR 7914 - HagalazR

No big storms.

No scary transitions.

No drama required.

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Ah, the wisdom of the runes.  This was prediction and advice.

This reading, for me, was about reaction.  I had information on my writing, plans about retail, and, of course, what makes me happy.  And it all flows from, what is truth?

The most amusing thing, however, is as I finished my reading yesterday, my phone reminded me that I needed to leave 1/2 before I expected.  So, instead of freaking out, I did the next reading and moved on.

No drama required.

So let us move on to the next rune reading.

LIR 7814 - No Rune

Well, we must be on the right track, 

whatever we’re doing. *g*

Slow & steady.

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This was definitely advice, and not a prediction for yesterday.  The first part sent me into a tailspin of denial, because I have no idea what I'm doing!  It did spawn a few meanderings, which I hope to post on the "meanderings" page.

But finally, after a lot of mental beating against the walls, and trying various coping practices, I was able to quiet the mental chatter.  Slow and steady.  One day at a time.  It's not just something to help, it's a truth I prefer to live by.  How else do I, myself, be truly happy?  Even when I'm really good at something and the definition of slow is faster than it was a month ago, still, slow and steady in every movement, in every practice, in every thought.  Love today.  Trust myself.  And be the truth of the moment.

Slow and steady.  Okay.

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LIR 7914 -HagalazR

No big storms.
No scary transitions.
No drama required.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

  

LIR 7714 - HagalazR & Berkano

We don’t need big, drastic changes to increase our comfort.

The desire for more nurturing will not destroy our worlds.

Breathe in. What do I want? Breathe out.

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Yesterday, I was pretty sure about what I wanted.  This morning, my mind is a fever of images and ideas and possibilities.

But, it is a pretty basic thing to remember.  Breathe in.  What do I want?  Breathe out.  I wish I'd reread this last night, or earlier this morning.

Because I know the panicked flitting from idea to idea is not what I want.  It in no way makes me happy.  And some of those ideas were (are) fun!  But.

The question itself may be even simpler.  "Do I want this?"

And if the answer is no, no judgement.  No big drama.  Just accept and move on.

Yes, that feels right.  That feels happy.  That feels calm and comforting.

Breathe out.  "Do I want this?"  Breathe in.

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LIR 7814 No Rune

Well, we must be on the right track, whatever we’re doing. *g*

Slow & steady.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila