LIR 5514 - Wunjo

Fly your "freak flag" high & proudly, 

so your peeps can find you!

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I think  I covered the wide range of interpretations for this one yesterday.

First, I started my adventures out in the world by flying my freak OUT flag.  It helped me waste a lot of time by searching frantically for something I KNEW was already in the car.  And then I took the wrong highway to my voice lesson, so I was late.

Now, on the other hand, my freak flag allowed me to be comfortable and at ease during a test drive of a vehicle.  And thus, I was able to drive the manual transmission vehicle without stalling.  Not even once!  In my favor, the vehicle won't even try to start if the clutch isn't engaged, so there was no horrible, neck-wrecking jerking to begin THAT adventure.  Yay!  It was my first time doing a test drive all by myself (as in, no other family or friends with me.)  Just me and the salesperson.   And my freak flag allowed me to be me, who turns out to be a pretty decent person.  Yay again!  And I had a nice discussion with the salesperson.  Yay times 3.

Then I came to the moment when it was time to lower the freak flag.  The usual methods of either freaking out more or just bouncing off the walls and being unproductive didn't make me feel happy.  I did have to take a few moments and put my feet in cold water (and yes, actually run the AC) because it had been a warm and busy day.  To me that's an annoying freak need, but taking care of myself is key to continued production.  Which is what commenced after my soak.

Maybe that's a different freak flag.  The calm switch from one project, one goal, to the next.  

So how many "freak flags" do I have, anyway?  Probably a colorful array!  How about you?

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No rune for today! 

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 5314 - Taiwaz

More sacrifices coming home; more choices made in the past showing their results. 

 Let's celebrate all the choices we've made!

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Why does that seem to be the most difficult part?  Celebrating our choices?

Everytime I look back on my choices I hear the song from Into the Woods; "How do you know what you want 'til you get what you want and you see if you like it?"

You don't.  Or I don't.  Granted, practice and experience eventually tell you what things you like for the moment (Ooo!  Shiney!)  And what things you really like in the long run.

And whatever else I have gained from past (and passed) choices, these last few days, the most important skill is to know there is a difference between making a choice for myself, and making a choice so I'll be finished with the process of choosing.  Sometimes the sacrifice we make is to wait.

The other benefit of making many choices in the past is knowing this other important fact - no choice is permanent.  I can always change my mind.  A second, a minute, a year, a decade later.  Changes, adaptation, a different set of circumstances.  My choices are (I hope) evolving with me.

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LIR 5514 - Wunjo

Fly your "freak flag" high & proudly, so your peeps can find you!

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 5114 - Ingwaz

Your garden may start coming alive today, particularly in areas you're passionate about.

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For me, it may have been more about more seeds being planted.  I had some sparks lit during writing group which I hope will sprout into some passionate production.  It makes me happy just to think about it.  *G*

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LIR 5314 - Taiwaz

More sacrifices coming home; more choices made in the past showing their results.  Let's celebrate all the choices we've made!

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 42714 - No Rune

No new advice; you're doing well.
You have all your pointers, there's no more to tell.
Breathe, expand, to thyself be true
And every choice will be right for you.

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Actually, the most interesting part about this reading, to me, is that I didn't have the time, space, mental energy to do readings the next few days.  So this one carried me through some very stress filled events.

Now stress, like trauma, isn't good or bad, it simply is different from the routine.  

But, I will say, these events were combinations of pleasant and "oh, really?"  Most of it was about information received relating to my heart attack.

The heart attack was many years ago.
The choices and events leading up to the heart attack were many years ago.
All those decisions are over and done with and irrelevant at this point, except for the consequences.  And this week I received more information about some of the consequences of the heart attack and the resulting medical procedures.

And I'll be honest, part of me wanted to sue someone.  I finally understand the impulse... it means someone else is to blame and i don't have to take responsibility for the possible future limitations.  But, the truth is, there is no one to sue.  Everyone did their best and made their choices of the moments according to their truths.  Especially myself.

So, I mourned and celebrated, because information received means having a specific focus for healing.  And it put some fears to rest.  So while grieving, I also celebrated.  Because, all my choices are right, right?  And i choose to heal fully, and I choose to refuse to be limited by my body.  I'm going to be one of those "miracle" people, who comes back from a major physical event better and stronger.  Because I choose to.

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LIR 5114 - Ingwaz

Your garden may start coming alive today, particularly in areas you're passionate about.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila