LIR 42215 IsaR & Ansaz in Air

(no pictures this week, cuz they're on the other computer)

This will not be a week of isolation, hibernation. It is a week to expect all sorts of energy interactions.

   If the question is to stay home or to go out? Go out.

   If the question is "whose energy is this?" The answer might be, someone else's.

Remember, there are many ways to leave our happy hidey holes. One good way is communication - through writing, social media, phones, videos, packages. Even meditation.

And there may a lot of ideas, a lot of inspiration this week. Do you have a good system for filing it? Cataloging? Putting it someplace you can easily find it again? Because when there's a stream of thoughts, sometimes it's all we can do to write them down. We'll have to flesh them out later.

Chances are it will be difficult to find a minute of peace this week. So be ready. Make your own. Know when you absolutely need to have a few minutes of mindlessness.  And know when you're just nervous or unsure. Is it truth or fear which is keeping you and your thoughts tucked inside?

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So how was your week, last week? Did you make it through with your truth intact? With your peace?

Mine went by so quickly, so fully, I can analyze it completely. But I can say there was a moment of despair as I contemplated this trip I am currently on... the Threshold Choir gathering. For no good reason, of course, except those last minute... I don't want to say dragons of despair, because I think of dragons as majestic and forceful and kind of imminent... and these thoughts are less solid, so they kind of slide around the daily thoughts and preparations until suddenly I'm sitting in front of the computer thinking, do I really want to do this? What kind of person will I be at this event?

But obviously, I did travel. I did not stay in isolation. And I'm sure I'll be glad I did, once I find my voice. (But that's a topic for another blog.)

As for the inspiration, I felt I came closer to getting all my ideas organized. I feel compulsively that I must gather them all in one place, before I get started on the writing part of the writing again. Not only to try and find the lost pieces of ideas, but I think, so that I can write with the confidence that I will always be able to find what I've done. As I type this out (Hoping i actually sound coherent) I realize it's a form of honoring my work. It is important enough to me to be filed with as much care as the taxes. Or the medical files. These are my babies.

Beyond the reading, since I have you here, I have to say I feel like I'm slamming into all these realities, and truths. Solidifying things. Not becoming so much as discovering. Fulfilling? manifesting! It's a bit disconcerting from the inside and I often revert to old patterns, but oh, the glory and freedom of remembering, it's all practice.

I hope you have a great week!
-Lila

LIR Taurus 2015 - LaguzR & SoweloR (as seen in newsletter)

Yup, another month where it feels like nothing is going to take off, nothing is going to move forward. Where is the rush, the excitement? Where is the freak out? If I don't take off, how can I succeed?

Chill! The time of Taurus is a time of slow, methodical work. With the changes and fluctuations of spring, it is an excellent time to check every step, have your foundations secure, be mindful of your practice and your truths. This is not a time for quick changes.

Perhaps there won't ever be a huge, explosive take off. Or at least, it won't feel like that. After all, we have been working to be sure of our truths, knowing that everything is practice. This makes every moment THE moment, and every moment no big deal. We may never feel those opening nights jitters because every new thing gives us a little jitter, and we're so focused on practicing, we'll find we're safely and happily ensconced in a thriving situation without even realizing we've become "successful" or even "launched".

And yes, we may be afraid we're on the wrong track, following the wrong dream, NEVER going to find the rainbow. We've been holding onto belief for so long, we're almost used to not having the actual manifestation.

But perhaps that's the way things work these days, after all the transitions and storms. A slow and methodical growth. A quiet presence. Hard work and belief and being willing to believe in the dream. Because if you're like me, it may not feel like a successful game all the time, but it's still the only game I'm willing to play. So, I'll keep playing. Slow and steady.

LaguzR - no big rush this month. SoweloR - the fear (or hope) of lack of success.

Release the barely hidden fear; unless you want the project to be put to bed, the only thing the fear will do is distract you. There is no explosive birth of your project, relationship, situation. And that's a good thing. Success comes not from the way a dream is launched upon the world, but from the energy & truth put into the project.

I think I can handle that. What about you?

I hope you have a great moon!

-Lila

No Rune

Hello to you!

I just wanted to let you know, I am changing the rune reading time frame for general readings. I am going to try it on a weekly basis, and see if I can be more consistent.

Thank you for being part of the practice!

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 41715 No Rune / Ogham Nion (Ash)

Yes, continue to work on the basics. Keep practicing.

Remember, each moment is its own moment. Does each moment represent your full truth? Spiritual, political, emotional, physical?

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You might check out my Meanderings page for my latest rant about moments. The last few days have been challenging.

I refuse to believe that, at the base, we (humans) are simply creatures of pain and chaos, undeserving of any good fortune except through the hands of the Universe. That feels ugly, heavy, and irresponsible.

But I am unable to deny that some days, it is better to just go back to bed. That sometimes the truth of the moment is, "I feel like a bag of shards, and I don't want to play today."

It is so difficult to accept that. We struggle against it automatically, especially those of us who are optimistic.

But we feel what we feel, and denying the pain, or the sulk, or the indifference, is denying ourselves.

So, yesterday I accepted my pity party. I revelled in it. I became a full participant. I actually woke up happy this morning.

But some of the effort is coming back, so today will be a definite day of practicing.

The basics of the truth I am practicing is accepting the times when I'm not full stream ahead. I don't know quite how to meld the acceptance of grumpy into the happiness I prefer, but I do know the acceptance is the first step.

I don't seem to be expressing it properly. 

Um, the truth of this moment is full of a myriad of components - mixing both my desire and my reality, my emotional and my spiritual state, and, most importantly, acknowledging what my physical body can do in this moment. It's not stating defeat. (There is no defeat.). It's not even saying "It shall be this way forever." I used the words give up and give in yesterday, but it's really about accepting the current situation. Feeling every part of it. Breathing it in. Giving attention to all the facets. Then, changing them.

Because I can't affect anything until I acknowledge it exists. I can't fully accept something until I allow it to be what it is, in all it's fullness.

Here's another view: When I go into a new situation, I remove expectation of it and myself. I have no idea what is going to happen. I have no idea what it's going to be like. I will allow it to be. And allow myself to react accordingly, without prejudgement.

Perhaps EVERY DAY is a new situation. 


I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 41615 - No Rune / Ogham Ngetal (Reed)

What part of your quest, journey, situation requires planning? and which part can just be done?  Today might be a good day to get those plans on paper, so when it's time to go you can just go.

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Yup, another No Rune pull, so I switched to Ogham. Not to negate my need to practice, but I feel there should be more to offer. I don't like having nothing to say. *G*.

I actually expected my work yesterday to focus on the budget we're trying to create - which is a lot like making a day plan. There's the ideal, and then there's the actual. Did I know I spent so much money on tea? Well, yes, yes I did. Happily, I have learned I can't drink more than 1 kind of tea at a time, and the market is close by, so I don't need to shop on the contingency plan (what if I want this?!). I can shop on the truth plan (this is what I want today.)

The truth plan also works for checking books out of the library, buying  shoes, and in a very broad sense, buying cars. In fact, which so many things quickly available for most of us, there's little need to look further than the next few days when it comes to the daily objects in our lives.

But I digress. I had expected to budget (and boy, am I looking forward to the day where money doesn't rule everyone's life. It will be so wonderful to just be, and do, as desired without having to plot and plan and take 40 different things into account.) Instead, I ended up finishing another project which needed to be done today - but it would still be considered paperwork. So that was pretty cool. I'm really glad I focused, bore down and got it done yesterday.

I think I don't like to budget, really. It is constrictive thinking. Limiting. It clashes with my beliefs in constant, abundant energy.

Hmm. I have to wonder off and write an article now, which I hope will be in my Newsletter (by which I mean, I hope I actually get the Newsletter sent this moon.)

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 41515 - No Rune

Yup, again. Another good day to expect the basics. Stick to your truths. Just take one step at a time. And remember. It's practice. It's all practice.

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I think the last time the rune came up as no rune, I had the same challenge I faced with this day. Groggy, plan for the day all twisted up. Not inclined to do anything! Definately a time for practice.

Happily, my peeps helped me over the hurdle - one friend talked about having the same issues (lying back or stepping forward); and another refused to validate my need to be a couch potato. So, yesterday I worked through it. And I'm so glad I did! I have a project which really needs finishing tomorrow (preferably today) and I did a big chunk of it yesterday.

Further happiness, this two week span (from day off to day off) has been more productive, on the whole, than previous 2 week spans. I often get to the middle and throw my hands up in the air and laze around. This set, I only sat mindlessly in front of the tv for a 1/2 day. I think.

Well. I choose to believe this is so. I choose to believe my stamina is increasing. Because that is what I need for the future.

So, no rune for me is coming to mean, keep your nose to the grind stone. You're going to have enough challenge just focusing on the basics. 

Moving on!

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 41415 Uraz

Are your foundations, your basic truths, solid? Or do they still need tweaking? Did something work better in the past?

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All right - humorous - I did this reading in the car, on the road, (not driving!), while waiting for an appointment to start. That was something I did in the past.

This week (this month) I do seem to be practicing how to be flexible... though now that I think about it, I've never been a master at having a definitive, consistent, schedule. I like change. In certain areas *wry grin*.

So, is the foundation solid? what would the foundation be, for my work? Maybe that's what I'm testing by all this changing.

I do like having a plan. A basic plan. I like being prepared, even if it's to say to myself "I have no idea what's going to happen, so there's nothing else I can do to prepare."

A solid foundation, for me, allows me to let go of the specifics. There's room for change, for differences. And there are probably things in the past (like the rune readings on the road) which will slide easily back into play.

This should be interesting.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 41215 Ansaz & Wunjo

It looks like Information, inspiration, communication

is coming in to you regarding or from your Clan.

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Clan is a funny thing. It can be the family of your blood. The family of your profession. The family of your interests. The family of your heart.

I have a family of blood, of course. One I keep contact with *G*. And I had a very interesting (and unexpected) meditation communication with one member.  It was cool, when I finished questioning the possibilities and just allowed it to be.

I have family of the heart, definately. People I have come to consider bosom companions, and with whom i actually discuss things I consider private. Nothing unusual came in to play with them yesterday.

Family of my profession & interests. There was a definite message about both on what kind of teacher (coach) I hope I am, and what kind of teacher I prefer to work with to further my learning. You have to know your stuff. Be able to articulate your stuff. Be able to use different approaches if I'm not getting it. Critic, but do not express judgment - either of me, or of yourself in how well you're doing at teaching. (At least during the class. When we've gone our separate ways, express judgment all you want.)

I have received one other message - I prefer to be with, learn from, people who celebrate their activities, feel the passion, "do it because they love it". For them, I am happy to return energy in the form of cash, or time, or service.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 41114 No Rune

Yay, everything is moving smoothly!

 You have enough information; 

and if you have a question, you also have the answer.

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Hmm. I don't know about smoothly. I would really like to practice getting to bed sooner so I can get out of bed sooner. I prefer having 2 to 3 hours to wake up and stretch all my muscles, including my brain. And my body obviously prefers to have 8 to 10 hours to sleep. Dilemma. Then there's the 6 to 12 hours worth of production I'd like to achieve in a day. Oh, yeah. No problem. That's 24. Why am I so behind?

Oh, maybe it's because there's other people involved in my life. Or my life involves other people. What!ever.

Even with the reluctant beginning, I did start my "work" day on time. And I do feel I have accomplished much. Including an interesting meditation - which I postponed on impulse, doing a different task instead. Which enabled me to answer a call, and then do meditation uninterrupted. Yay me, for interpreting my questions and answers correctly.

This practice is so exciting, isn't it? Every day things fall into place, more things work and other things change, and when it "just works", it's amazing. And the most amazing part is the feeling while we're doing it...not excited, really; not nervous; certainly not disbelieving... but casual and powerful at the same time.

A very good day.

I hope today is even better!
-Lila

LIR 41015 Fehu & IngwazR

What energy is feeding you? Is it enough or too much? 

Is it in accord with the energy that fuels your passion?

What seeds haven't blossomed yet? 

Do they need more energy, more time?

 Have you even missed them?

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BEST. HAIRCUT. EVER.  and Oh, I didn't think of that.

So, Fehu was about my haircut appointment at Spellbound, I expect. Not necessarily about the haircut itself, but about where it was. About expanding my community (because Spellbound is a metaphysical store as well as a hair salon; and the stylists are Wiccans. And practicing Witches.) I do enjoy the restful company of being among people just doing their thing, exercising their power joyfully.

And Fehu was probably a bit about staying up until 1 in the morning writing about the experience (See Meanderings blog.).  It's interesting that pouring my thoughts and ideas out onto a "blank" page brings me great joy. I love writing. Possibly as much as I love singing. Actually, possibly more.

Wait. No judgment. No comparison. It simply is. I have so many possibilities for awesome happiness just among the seeds I have chosen to focus on, is there room for more?

But, yesterday I also visited with the next generation of my family (or some of it). And yes, I have missed them. Their exuberance. Their unique perceptions.  Their expressions and reticence. Happily, I have made plans to spend some time with them. So, yeah, there'd best be room for more.

When you're happy you need less sleep right?

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 4915 NaihwazR in Earth

Did you remember your car keys and the notes?  

What else do you need today? 

What tools, what steps, what physical aspect do you need

 to move the situation to its completion?

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Early PM: Since Naihwaz also stands for the end of the storm & the Reversed would be Not the end of the storm, I have been obsessively watching the weather. Happily, in this part of the world, the weather was fine. 

But so far, it being a slow moving day, and me having to really concentrate to do the next step, I haven't forgotten anything. I don't think.

End pm: I have made to the end of the day feeling much accomplished. I did have one moment. I had Threshold Choir rehearsal today, and desperately desired some food for a quick grounding after. My tongue has been sore lately (did you know you could overdose on ginger snaps? Me neither), so pudding was the snack of choice. I stopped into a store, grabbed a six pack of chocolate for ease of holding while driving, and so I wouldn't eat the whole tub. But the little containers, being plastic, had sharp little edges on them. And when I blithely stuck my tongue in (best way to eat pudding while driving, yes?), the nasty mean pudding scratched my poor defenseless tongue right on the sore spot. Aaargh!

So, what i really needed that I didn't have was a short straw. Or a place to put down my pudding cup as I was driving 65 on the highway. In a manual shift vehicle.

yeah, fine, maybe common sense is the tool I was missing there. Told ya' I needed grounding.

I hope you  had a great (and safe driving) day!
-lila

PS - funny moment. Hubby came home for lunch; because of rune, I queried him as he left again to make sure he had everything. An hour later he came back to fetch something - not something he knew he'd need, but still... *G*

LIR 4815 Isa & EihwazR

Isa - What is the truth of the situation, the problem, the project, the feeling? Without attaching past experiences or future possibilities, what is the NOW?

EihwazR - And what can be melded easily without needing a bridge, a middleman, a conductor? Is there some extra work involved that's unnecessary?

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I became fixated yesterday on the middle man part - trying to cut out extra work and all those fiddly moments of worry that add so much burden to otherwise simple tasks. (like phone calls. Or answering emails.) Unfortunately, I feel I cut out parts which would have been helpful - like looking over my notes before filming a video class. Ah well.

As for Isa, for me it was more a day of grateful isolation. I accomplished so much, and most of it was easy. 

However, "What is the Now," is a very tricky question. In that it's so simple I want to make it more difficult. It's so tempting to add stories to it. To bring in the past, to compare now to what I want in the future.

Moments change. Truths change. Heck, in my A Capella group, some of my notes were changed because I couldn't reach them consistently. From moment to moment.

It just feels difficult sometimes, when the answers aren't evident, when the truth is something I didn't expect or, worse, goes against my reality.

Blah. Whatever. Seriously. That was then. Now is different. Somehow I made it past the tears I didn't understand, and stopped the video tape of scenarios in my head. Practice pays off. I am glad I allowed the tears of the moment, gave them their space, and then moved on. No repression, no embarrassment. Just acceptance and release.

And then pudding. So that was good.

I hope you had a great day!
-Lila

LIR 4615 - Ogham: Quert (Apple)

The apple is a symbol of reincarnation, feminine energies, & love. What could use a little more love in your life? A little more nurturing and accepting? Not teaching, not forcing, but allowing to be? We need not agree in order to love.

The Ogham is a celtic form of divination associated with trees. (Yes, simplistic description.) I'm trying it out as an alternate reading source. £

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It's an interesting balance, isn't it? Loving and accepting someone else - allowing them to be all they can be, in all their (to us) obnoxious glory - and still nourishing and loving and accepting ourselves.

"We need not agree in order to love." We need not be on the same page, from the same culture, even have the same beliefs, in order to accept and love each other. We need not be in the same room (which is sometimes safer, anyway.) All we have to do is love. And accept.

Ourselves as well as others. I accept that she wears spandex (leggings by another name) and a belt around her just long enough blouse. Doesn't mean I have to wear it. Or like it. Or like how it looks on her. And I still get to like myself.

I accept that some people push food on others as a form of hospitality. or culture. That's awesome, but I don't have to eat the food. Not even out of politeness, if I don't want to. And I still get to like myself.

I accept that some people are aggressive in their expressions of self, and react outwardly instead of inwardly. I don't have to receive the bullets, blows, harmful words. I can defend myself, or move out of range, or simply let them pass by without impact upon me. And I still get to like myself.

Why can't we all just get along? Because we are all different. And somehow, we can't seem to figure out how to deal with that. Because if we're different, doesn't that mean one of us is wrong? So we keep trying to force each other into our own personal mold so we can understand. Or force ourselves into someone else's mold.

But I think the whole goal is to be different.

Let's say the apple was the fruit of knowledge. Let's say Eve believed in herself and her mate so much, she was ready to accept the challenge of moving out of the womb of Eden. To take responsibility for self. To believe in the amazingness of herself amidst all the weirdness of the world outside the Garden.

What did they really have in the Garden? Love. For each other. For all things around them. For the Divine.

What did they take out of the Garden, when they marched bravely forward to practice in a new environment? Love.

And what was the goal, the reason to step out of the Garden? The need to receive knowledge of a more chaotic world? To accept all the chaos, to Love it, and therefore, to create the Garden anywhere they tread.

Obviously, we still need a lot of practice. Somewhere along the way we became fixated on rules instead of acceptance. We wanted someone else to tell us what to do, even though it felt constrictive and wrong. We started looking outside instead of inside for Love.

We name things. We create things. We are. And if we want to be right, all we really have to do is Love.

I'll even quote the Beatles (whom I accept and totally can't stand.) "All we need is Love." Love for ourselves in a difficult situation. Love for ourselves after we make a decision we hate. Love for ourselves when we look in the mirror and want to break something. Love for ourselves when we are giggling and smiling. Love for ourselves in every aspect.

Love of others, yes. Deep to the core. To know they have a different belief, but the same love. And Love of self - that I don't like the Beatles, spandex, fiction books, or wearing my seatbelt. Allowing myself to say I don't like a song, or a sandwich, or a political statement. And, deep to the core, Loving myself in all my differences.

Love and acceptance. Of every thing. 

what's so hard about that?

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 4415 Fehu

Do you have something someone else wants?

Do you wish to part with it?

Do you really need to look outside yourself for something you need? 

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I agree. It is the first step - looking outside of myself for an answer. For assistance. For sustenance. For assurance.

Well, it's the second step. The first step seems to be having a full blown meltdown in order to realize something needs fixing, changing, transitioning. For my happiness.

And I have some pretty awesome friends and family; they tend to help even when I'm not sure what I need. Or want. Which can confuse the issue sometimes. Because the second step, really, is being able to know what it is that's needed.

I suppose there are many answers, many possibilities, many options. It just depends on how far we each want to go. Do we want the duct tape fix? The gorilla glue? The paid for repair? Or the replacement? Or, do we want to just get rid of the issue all together?

And so we ask the Divine. We ask professionals and people we respect. And people who have known us. And we forget to ask ourselves.

The interesting thing about life, about the universe, about reality, is that it is all just one big spiral. "As within, so without. As above, so below." And the fix for the "little thing" is often the same fix, or focus, for the big.

So, my realization, my answer to my supplication of "what?!" is "consistency." In the big things - like how I celebrate and connect with the Divine on a daily basis; to the little things - like taking my supplements regularly; to the in-between things - like how to spend my energy on the things i wish to produce. 

Consistency. Not flying all over the place in planning and thinking and wondering. 
Consistency. Stick to point one. Get this part finished, done, practiced, or discarded. Then moving on.
Consistency. Find which parts are consistent (say the act of doing a daily reading) and which parts are fluid (rune readings vs ogham card readings for example.)
Consistency.

Interestingly, it was talking about it out loud which helped me arrive at this reminder. But, the answer didn't come from without. It came from within.

Though I did just say, as within so without. So I guess it's the same thing.

Gods bless connections!

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

PS - that part about the Ogham was true. I didn't have space to do a rune reading today, so I did a reading with my Ogham deck instead. Stay tuned!

LIR 4315 - Mannaz

What area of your life, business, dreams could use a little practice today? 

In order to have that perfect balance, every leg of the foundation must be equally strong.

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Today, this rune seemed to apply not to a situation, or to balance (or at least not to my balance) but to actual human nature. Today, a human walked into the room and disturbed my rune reading for tomorrow - which means there is no video, though it is posted on Tumblr & Twitter.

I video tape the readings - hence the noise was a factor in my frustration. Also, there is no separate room for readings, or office work, or television. We are very communal in our daily lives. Which means going with the flow.

But I was in the middle of the reading!

It felt so disrespectful. Because, of course, running through my head are all the thoughts, "if I'd walked in on him at work, he wouldn't be laughing." But the intention was simply for him to enter the room. Earlier than expected. Without notice, because he thought I'd be disturbed by an early phone call.

Ah, human nature. We try to balance what we feel versus what we think they want. And it often ends up in a debacle. Perhaps the balance comes in allowing the pithy and snarky comments, then letting everything settle back into itself without holding meaningless grudges. And, of course, learning from the problems. Communicating...

So maybe that is the area which needs balance. Communication. Such as, how to either notify a reading is in progress, or how we both can behave if he does walk in on another reading. (like, no slamming the door!)

I am grateful that I am practicing - as opposed to "perfect". Things break. we try again.

Anyhoo, though there is a reading for tomorrow - printed, not taped - I won't be commenting on it until the next day. So I will talk to you later!

I hope you have a great day (twice!)

-Lila

LIR 4215 Eihwaz

In this situation, you are the linchpin, the bridge between multiple worlds. What does each world require? What does each have to dispense? And what is the best balance for all worlds?

Remember, you are not the supplier of the energy. You are the conductor.

 Question  - do you wish to straddle multiple worlds?

 Maintain your energy, your boundaries, your truth.

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Ha. There are so many ways this applied today.

Let's just look at the physical world- in my neighborhood, a spring storm is covering the land... that's a bridge between the two worlds of wonderful winter and glorious summer. (yes, one of those words was sarcastic.)

Next, let's look at a specific point in the day - I belong to a writers group. It was started many years ago by a friend & colleague. Over time, I became the one to keep it going. Now it is morphing again. We want it to be a group which feeds our needs as writers, which means consistency and growth. And also requires a definite facilitator. A conductor. A straddler of worlds. Did I want the job?
Heck no! I love writing. And I love the group because it keeps me motivated to write. But I have so many other things I love ... I want to flit in and out. So no conductorship for me, thank you very much. Besides, the gentleman who will be the facilitator is obviously the best choice for it.  He already has so many ideas, if I weren't a group member, I'd want to be.

So we move onto the day in the life of Lila - where I most definitely AM the conductor. I have multiple skills and, multiple audiences (reader, client, actual listening audience). As well as being the energy producer, I need to be outside the picture to ensure the flow of energy from worker to production is equal and necessary. Which aspects need to be done at a certain time? Do I really need to schedule 3 hours to browse the bookstore? Have I taken a lunch break yet?

The most exciting thing about today was how the answers varied for each situation. If there even was a question (in the case of the weather.) How there was a yes in one area of world straddling, but a no in the other.

And also a bittersweet no - when it came to deciding if I wanted to add more singing. I mean, oh yes I do! But, I want to keep all the worlds and skills I'm currently committed to, so I just don't have the energy to add another.

Yet.

There's always tomorrow. *G*.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 33115 - Taiwaz

Why is the situation what it is (or not) today? Because of a choice consciously made in the past.

Remember, there is no good or bad. No mistakes. Simply choice and consequence. And choice again.

And since we're all choosing with our truths, this is most likely a happy situation.

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"Let's do the time warp again!"

Okay. So, yesterday felt more like practice in nurturing. And I wonder if this rune may be for today (it was read for yesterday) - except having to do with decision made now for the future! Rahr. Whatever. 

So, for me, yesterday was a day of caretaking, hence the lack of posting and or reading for today. But today (at least the last few hours) have brought up questions regarding making decisions, and the affect on our future.

We are, each and every one of us, where we are because of decisions made. I met someone tonite who inspired the thought "That's something I could have done." 

If I'd chosen a different major.

If I'd chosen a different school.

If I'd chosen (at any of one hundred times it crossed my mind) to focus more on the study and less on the performing of music.

If I'd chosen...

If I'd...

If...

And the important thing about Taiwaz, about choices, and about life itself, is there is no one right choice. Sometimes it's good to know why the situation is as it is... what choices led to here - especially if you wish to change where here is. But except for practicing purposes, there is no real need to analyze.

A choice made in the past is done. The end. The important moment is now.

A choice made now is just practice. Yes, it's life altering. Every choice is.

And the truth of the matter is, if I really want to do that thing I chose not to do earlier, well, I'm still alive. I can still go do it! (And yeah, I still choose performing. *G*.)

So, let us relish our choices. If we find ourselves sitting up at night berating ourselves, let us turn that pity party into a celebration. We chose. And chose. and Chose again! Yay us!

I heard a line on a tv show "the Walking Dead" - (and no, I don't watch it. I just occasionally hear it.) I'm going to misquote it, I think, but it went something like "It was always going to end like this." Frankly, that is a crock of shards.

But, it is always going to be the way it was. Every choice we've made brought us to this situation. So, let's look forward. Because there is still an eternity waiting to be created.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila