LIR 62914 - Fehu

Time to let your job, your passion, your life enervate you.  The purpose for all that hard work is happiness.  Today's a good day to enjoy it.

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As usual, I remembered one part of the reading, and not the rest.  Which is fine.  I assume there are different relevant parts for different people.

Yesterday, I was tired.  And counting calories.  So the reading, for me, took on the simple meaning of let your job feed you.  After some thoughtful time in the reading portion of my work, I went into retail.

On one hand, it did feed me.  we were busy busy (end of a coupon, a register on a fritz).  So busy people didn't take their breaks at the appointed time.  So busy, I didn't even notice I was very hungry until I made some silly little mistake.  (Quick analyzation, attention wandering, oh!  I'm grumpy.  Oh.  I'm hungry.)  So, as I had to wait for my break, I tried to let the activities, and flow of movement and work, even whatever extra energy there was hanging around feed me and energize me.

I assume it worked, as my mood did not deteriorate.  And even better, a co-worker who is highly exuberant came in for the end of my shift, so her up beat mood helped me reach one also.

But when I finally reached home, I was soooooooooo tired.  And achy.  All plans to do anything productive were out the window.

This morning I reread the post and realized I did do what it suggested.  For what do I expend energy at the retail store?  For money.  What does the money get me?  A beautiful comfy place in which to rest and watch tv and relax. I didn't realize it at the time; I was busy being grumpy about the pain and deciding to go to bed early, but I did partake of what my work brings me.  I did use the benefits I and my Significant Other provide.  Enjoy may not be the best word, but I certainly am glad of it now!

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LIR 63014 - Eihwaz

Today is about balance. What worlds, realities, needs are you balancing? Is it working?

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 62814 - Dagaz

Yes, another good day to stop & think. Don’t rush into anything. 

Perhaps analyze past results so your future will feed your truth & your happiness.

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Today, this was more of a foretelling than advice.  Or perhaps the advice lodged in my subconscious and worked in my favor.

Regardless, I can see there were many points where I did not react, but analyzed - emotional state, thought pattern, intentions - and used past events or future precedents to redirect the energetic feed of the emotion, thought or deed.  IE: feeling myself snappish and grumpy after making a set of runes indicated the need for grounding.  And some chocolate.  Though I do admit chocolate is my go to answer for everything.  78% dark preferably.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila 

LIR 62614 - Ansaz

Listen. To yourself. To others. To the music all around.  

Hear.      The wisdom.              The guidance.                     The truth.

Receive. The message.The inspiration. The easy happiness.

Live.

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Yup.  Totally rocked this today.  Or it totally rocked me.  rom the beginning it helped me.  Because I am a writer.  And listening is the best way to be inspired - for stories, for characters, and for my life.   More fun, I asked people about their thoughts on a subject I was contemplating today, and received much inspiration.

And there was a second part.  Tell the story.  Pass the inspiration along.  Or at least it's the second part for me, writer and counselor.  For others, the passion of the inspiration may take another form.

I hope you have as great a day as I had today!

-Lila

LIR 62414 - IngwazR & Algiz

It may feel like nothing’s taking root today.

It may even feel impossible, or worse, improbable.

But only you decide your reality. 

So even if it feels uphill all the way, when you give energy to the goal, you are succeeding.

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Well, this post had me thinking all day long.  First, because it seemed to be speaking directly to me - since I had difficulty getting out of bed and getting to work on time.  So yes, I was boosting myself a little.  But then, I figured, I want to put the positive in readings anyway!  Silver linings, right?  And if I do it for everyone else, I can darn well do it for myself.

Later, as I posted my first fiverr gig (link available soon on UnicAllen page), I thought - what if this is the thing that doesn't take root?  What if no one wants my brand of reading?

And the rest still applies.  What's important is practicing putting myself out there.  It's like submitting books to publishers.  When it's right, it'll be right.  Meanwhile, I gotta keep doing what I love doing.

Tonite, I finally figured it out.  The things that won't take root are all the calories I consumed today!  See, a silver lining after all.  So there.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 62314 - Isa

Today is a good day to isolate yourself a little, to stand apart, to shield from other people, outside influences, habits of the past.

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I don't know if I did shield from others, or if today was simply a day of solitude.  Even at my retail job, I spent a lot of time alone.  So that was interesting.  Because before I went out to my retail job, I said "I'm kind of glad I have to go in tonite.  It'll get me away from the computer."  I also meant, pull me out of myself for a little.  But that didn't really happen.

But I did use the part about shielding from the past to good purpose today.  I coddled myself a small bit when needed today, and then went back to work.  And, at the end of this day, I feel happy.  Accomplished.  Hopeful for tomorrow.

Yay me!

Add on - the problem with writing up my posts at the end of the day is then I think the reading is no longer relevant.  So, last night, feeling happy and accomplished, I fell right back into old patterns.

However, back on the happy side again, I am not going to follow up my downfall with self-loathing and recriminations.  Instead, i am going to remember why I dislike that pattern and help myself next time.  So, again, yay me!  *G*

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LIR 62414 -IngwazR & Algiz:

It may feel like nothing’s taking root today. It may even feel impossible, or worse, improbable. But only you decide your reality. So even if it feels uphill all the way, when you give energy to the goal, you are succeeding.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 62214 - PerthroR

Look. It’s not about the outside influences. It’s not about what others want or think is right. It’s not even about fate, destiny, or what “should” be.

It’s about what we want. It’s about what makes us happy. Each, individually, uniquely happy.

So. What do you WANT?

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Yes, at first, this reading does (did?) seem like a continuation of the last posted reading, about taking time to decide what really works.  Weighing influences, in a fashion.  And I thought, "Okay.  Today I walk into the world with my head held high and my goals in sight and I will not let anyone sway me from my path."

Except.

Except.

What about when i want to be swayed?  When I want to be influenced?  When I want to stop for a few minutes and hang out with friends?  What if being under the influence of friends or family is what I WANT?

Ah, I realize as I sit here.  But that's still my choice.  My influence.  My responsibility and my decision.  It's like answering the body's need for calories.  I get to choose what form the calories take.  I even get to choose, to some extent, when I partake of those calories.  I find a balance.  I do not (anymore) eat the whole pint of ice cream just because the first half of the carton tasted so good.

Oh yes.  I do want to sit with friends in a bar all afternoon and talk.  Or sit on the couch and watch a marathon of Lost Girl or Elementary or Agents of Shield.  But, I also want to do that indulging with a happy heart.  With all of my brain.  With the knowledge I am working with myself, not in spite of myself.

So it's really not about the outside influences.  It's about the inside ones.  My responsibility.  My choice.  My WANT.  And my need.  Feeding my body, resting myself when it's time.  And getting up and working some more when it's time.  Stepping forward and trying to fulfill what I want when it's time.

Because that time is now.

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LIR 62314 - Isa

Today is a good day to isolate yourself a little, to stand apart, to shield from other people, outside influences, habits of the past.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 61814 - Dagaz

Take time to think, Compare, contemplate, be sure before moving forward.

 If it feels rushed, it might not be the right time.

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Well, I must say I am impressed with myself.  Because that's what I did.  I thought.  And I thought.  And I discussed and I talked and I thought some more.

A friend of mine brought up a very good thought this weekend.  She said, and I paraphrase, "Okay.  We know what we don't like.  We may not know why, but we know what.  So, what do we want to replace it with?"

It's not enough, it seems, just to want something.  I suppose that's part of free will, and taking responsibility.  I have to know all parts of what I want.  As in, do I just want to be content?  Earning income by doing a task that has no meaning to me?  Filling my days with repetition, so I can freely hang out at night?  Or do I want more, even if it means having to work for the times of relaxation and hanging out?

what do I really want?  Over all.  And in little pieces.  If this doesn't make me happy, what do I want to replace it with?

And, how do I want to get there?

I have learned one thing, in my contemplations.  I do NOT believe in compromise.  I want it all!  Every drop of happiness.  Every moment.  So mote it be.

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LIR 62214 - PerthroR

Look. It’s not about the outside influences. It’s not about what others want or think is right. It’s not even about fate, destiny, or what “should” be.

It’s about what we want. It’s about what makes us happy. Each, individually, uniquely happy.

So. What do you WANT?

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR - June 2014: NaihwazR

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Also seen as Nauthiz, nydth, Nawt, and Naudhiz

It's a lot of work pursuing our goals, isn't it?  Manifesting our dreams.  Water it now; cover it later; feed and nurture and think this way and move that way and…  I'm tired!

Sometimes, just contemplating the energy output required to achieve happiness can feel overwhelming and exhausting!  And we wonder, is it all worth it?  Do I really want to finish this journey?  Do I really want to reach the shore?  What am I really going to have to show for all of my work?  Wouldn't it be easier to just let go, sit down right here and go no further? 

The answer is no.  It really wouldn't be easier to stop now.  Really, it wouldn't.  We have the forward momentum, we have all those skills we've been practicing.  We have the shore in sight!  So really, stopping would be soul shattering.  It might feel good for a moment, but then would start the recriminations and the regrets.

No to regrets.

No to all the fears.

No to the doubts trying to steal energy from the dream.  

Making dreams come alive is work, yes, but it's fun, fueling, passionate work.  If we're tired, we take a break, and then we're itching to get up and get going again.    We feed our dreams, which feed us, so we can feed the dreams that feed us…  It's a big happy, rejuvenating circle.

And for anything that doesn't fit in that circle, "Just say no!"  A doubt comes up, squash it.  A thought of failure?  Release it.  Fears have no place in our dreams.  We don't need to fight them, beat them, conquer them or overcome them.   They have no power at all.  They do not exist.

The rune for June is Naihwaz R off the mat.  Way off the mat.   We let the happiness of our manifestation feed us.   There is NO room for anything else.

I hope you have a great month!

-Lila

written for the Spirit Wise newsletter