112913 - Ingwaz

Yes! Today there is some proof that allt he hard work is crating something.  The seed has sprouted, and we get a little taste (or visual) of the material/ physical/ financial results.   Congratulations!

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Since there have been many things in action, many skills and habits being practiced, I actually had a lot of results.  Technically, having a today is a result of all the hard work.

But specifically, and the things that struck the biggest chord for possibilities of the earthen nature, have to do with my physical health/ well being.

One, I continued on the insurance quest.  Just the thought makes me want to scream and bury my head in the sand.  Frankly, I am ambivalent about having insurance, and, it is true, I hope the next major medical issue I have just kills me in one fell swoop rather than having to deal with the crisis of bills & health care professionals and EVERYONE having an opinion on how I should behave.  But, until then, being healthy in America takes a lot of cash!  So right now, I am viewing having insurance like having a membership in a club.  I may not use the equipment every day, but at least when I want to, I can.  And, right now, I feel better having the insurance than not.  Shrug.

So.  Yesterday I took the next step in exploring the insurance possibilities available through (or due to?) the new policies of President Obama.  Since, in my perspective, medical costs are scandelously high, it's possible this Insurance Act (I don't know the official name or designation) was created because I need it.  I think it's wrong that everyone should be required to have insurance, but, since I do actually want the insurance, I'm going to reach out with both hands and grasp whatever assistance is offered that feels right for me.  Basically, taking control of my health.  (Or taking another step toward it.)

And speaking of steps, the other thing that bloomed as a possibility yesterday was a health app on my phone.  I was exploring the app store for emoticons (I do not like the emoticons available on my phone) and between one thing and another, ended up looking at the S-Health app.  Which will, when I am diligent, track calories in and out, steps taken, and (may it please my future self), weight lost.

Sadly, because I spent all night playing with apps (most of which I uninstalled almost immediately), I am behind schedule now, so I am going to post this without editing and hope to return to it later.   (Though, let's face it.  Once it's posted, I tend to move on.)

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

112713 - JeraR

It seems the harvest is elusive.  It may not be quite time to reap.  Or, the produce may appear different than expected.  Either way, you choose what you will accept.

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Hmmph.  Well.  The harvest itself is not feeling elusive...  because of the reading, I relaxed yesterday and allowed everything to be a step toward my goals, or an unanticipated result of all my hard work.  Sometimes it's all about perspective.

What was elusive, until I thought that last line (just now), was my mouse - which has flowers and leaves on it.  I was going to type about my search for it, and how I looked -- not in all possible places, otherwise I would have found it, but in all places I thought it could possibly be.  However, I shall type about the finding of it instead.

As I type, I have a habit of glancing around the room, as if looking away from the screen triggers the thoughts; or as if watching the words appear on the screen inhibits further words.  (And it feels pretty cool to type while appearing to pay attention to something else.)  So, I was looking down at the floor when I typed the line about perspective. I saw a shelf.  I realized I hadn't actually looked under that shelf.  I'd looked behind it, but not under it.

And there was my mouse.  Under the shelf.  Yay!

So, my harvest feels bountiful, with anticipation of more to come.  I am happy.

Since today is a festival day for Americans (which means me), I am going to take a day off from rune pulling.  There will be no rune blog tomorrow.  However, there has already been much introspection and ruminating, and when I happy I love to express myself, so keep an eye on the "meanderings" blog.  There may be MORE harvest!

I hope you have great day!

-Lila

112613 - SoweloR

some goals haven't been reached yet and it may feel like you've been trudging forever.  A distraction or a different perspective may help rejuvenate your sense of purpose.

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the thing that sticks out most as feeling like the "unreachable goal" is my body shape.

disclaimer here: as long as a person is happy with their lifestyle, let them be whatever shape they desire, wear what they want, and let no insecure gossip monger dare to say otherwise.  (unless it's a child.  But that falls under the whole responsibility toward others umbrella and is a very tricky, tangled subject.)  So sayeth I.

I am happy with my lifestyle, especially as food has been a main source of comfort in my life and I have never felt inclined to many physical activities.  But, I am not happy with the shape I have because, when I look in the mirror, I do not see what I feel.  Therefore I am determined to change my shape.  

In the past two weeks I have increased my physical activity.  I even (speak softly) do crunches in the morning.  And yes, every time I squeeze my upper body up off the matt, I feel a little like I'm betraying my people - the happy, comfortable, non-exercising people.  But, I can see no other way to achieve the shape I desire.  Surgery is scary, and wishing hasn't worked - except to change some of my tastes, my attention to what I eat, and my desire to actually do something.

So I have been doing some exercises.  And actually feeling a like my goal was achievable.  Then yesterday, I put on a fun outfit, looked in the mirror, and just wanted to cry.  I knew the bulge was because of food choices in the last few days -- or I assume it was.

The worst part was, yesterday was a day of dining out.  So the taste buds warred with the memory of myself in the mirror.  I don't know if anyone won, yesterday.

At least I have a little more practice in knowing what I don't want to eat when I feel that way about my body.  And more knowledge of my patterns in certain situations.

Because yesterday's distraction was shoes.  I went shopping for a particular type of boot.  I had my usual problem meshing visually pleasing with desired purpose and good fit.  In wandering up and down the aisles between sizes, I found a pair of boots that was cute and functional and perfect! except they weren't what I was shopping for.

I did manage to talk myself out of a panic/ frustration attack and I did achieve my objective by compromising .  I have a few ideas in mind for when I next go shoe shopping - about how to make it easier on myself.

And I did reward myself by purchasing the perfect boots.  And then I came home and realized they were a size too big. So I geared myself up and went back to the store (returning things is also not easy for me) and I not only found them in a better size, I found them in two colors.

And so I rewarded myself with something fun to consume when I went out to dinner.  (A gingerbread shake. Wow!)  But I think I would have been happiest if I'd left it at that, and not consumed anything else at the restaurant.

And so, in conclusion, yesterday it did feel like I may never reach my desired shape.  But I learned a few more things about myself and my reactions; and this morning I did the crunches yet again.  So.  Yay me.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

112513 - PerthroR

Today the choices are yours.  No outside influence or sudden influx of energy will affect the situation.  What works best for you to keep the momentum?

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"What works best for you to keep the momentum?"  It's an interesting question.  My immediate response is, rewards.  Rewards work best for me!  ("Gimme what's in the bag!")  And this is true to an extent.  I often say to myself, "nope, can't have/read/eat/watch/play that until you've finished this."

But, that is both the reward system and the practice of making my consumption, in whatever form, also have value.  And, frankly, the reward system is just a form of doing something that I'll be glad I've done to get something that makes me happy.  So, there's a deeper propulsion.

Yesterday, the most difficult thing was filling out a job application online.  
  I have been working from home for a long time, and sometimes the thought of being out in public again is, um, well, frightening.  On the other hand, if I keep just staying in the house, it'll become more and more difficult to leave it.  And I want to travel!  So, yes, in the midst of winter, I am practicing getting out of the house.

Which includes having an outside job.

First, I fixed up my resume.
Then I decided which job to apply for.
Then I filled out the online application.

Good Ness!  What a chore!!  I didn't even think about copying and pasting from the resume, because the smallness of the boxes made me think my writing space was limited.  And of course, there was the availability section, which meant a thorough examination of my schedule for the next 3 months.  AAAAArrrrrrggggghhhh.

So, what propelled me through the process, and through actually hitting the send button?

Because it will get me what I want.

Examining my actions of yesterday, and this morning, and previous and future intentions, the base line is this.  I do what I do because it gets me what I want.  From washing dishes to folding laundry to laughing at my SO's jokes, I do what I want because it makes me happy.  And I want, more than anything else, to be happy.  If I want to feel productive, I get out of bed.  If I really want to stay in dream land, I snuggle down.  And both those feelings make me happy, at specific times.

Productivity, respect, self confidence and self worth all aside, the feeling that helps me keep the momentum is "What makes me happy?"

Like rushing through this post so I can do the daily reading, dress up & be on time for a lunch date.  That makes me happy.  *G*

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

112413 - Mannaz in Air

Let us balance our communication; we can speak our truths in a form acceptable to our listeners.

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Thanks to this rune yesterday, I did pay attention to how I communicated, with an ear toward trying to express myself more politely, kindly, compassionately.  That is a good word.  Compassionately -- because it indiicates an awareness of the listener's state of mind, yet doesn't really indicate giving up the truth of what I want to say.
I found out, in most cases, it was easiest to speak other peoples' thoughts.  Trying to get my truths from brain to tongue was (and has been) very difficult.  (Hence my preferance for writing.)
But when I am in conversation with someone, and we are thinking the same thing, then it is easy to express myself.  Because the listener is already thinking it.
Is this a by-product of divination?  Or is divination easier for me because I am more tapped into others' brains than my own?  At least verbally.

Concurrently, communication via my favored form has also been interesting... the internet has been playing silly buggers again.  So I am actually typing this from my phone.  Another adventure in communication.
One of the reasons I purchased this phone was because Windows Office could be downloaded to it in a mobile version.  Yay!  I could work directly on my stories or meanderings without having to save it in 40 different formats.
Yeah, well.
Turns out, the mobile versions do not play well with the keyboard accessory I have.  (I couldn't enter spaces.  Letters, but no spaces.  Do you realize how important spaces are?  They give words form, definition.  So philisophical.)  So, Ihave to find another way (which is polaris office.)  I am going to have to balance between the two programs.  I am going to have to do that for many of the forms of communication of this new phone, because some of the programs I really like don't work the way I want them to.
It's practice.  It balance.  It's being compassionate (open and understanding) toward the device I'm using to communicate.

So.  I hope this reads as well as it sounded in my head.  I'm going to have to practice squinting proofreading if the internet continues it's trickster course.  Granted, it helped me discover a few things...

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

112313 - DagazR

If you feel stuck, close your eyes and point.  A guess is as good as an analysis and takes much less time.

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So we had a Doctor Who party and thus this was a helpful reading, because when I get into the grocery store and suddenly remember all sorts of things that could be needed, I get a little frantic.  Allowing myself to just grab a few things that seemed fun, and then high-tail it out of there, was very freeing.

Later in the day, I accidently gauged some skin from my finger and the band-aid I ended up using was shaped like an hourglass (Dagaz.)  My neice, who was applying the first aid, made a comment about time.

And really, if you think about it, maybe the Dagaz symbol was also for the Doctor Who event.  But then it would just be saying, since it was reversed, "Um, no.  You're not a Time Lord."  Or, more reassuring to me, "No, you won't have to live forever."

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

112213 - Kunos

oooh. choices! open doors. You decide what you’re going to make.

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I may as well interpret this now also.  Cause all the choices I made today seemed to fill my day (and tomorrow) and leave me little time to post!

But that is okay.  But I chose to purchase tools today that will help me be more efficient (and have fun).  May the TechDieties continue to smile upon me!

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

112113 - WunjoR

Today is a day to stay home, stay isolated, keep the news to yourself a little longer.  Not the best day for a party.

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Following those rules, I should just leave this as is, and go  no further.

But - I am trying a change of timing.  The relevance of today's reading to my life won't actually be posted until tomorrow.  Mostly because, sometimes I don't get the daily reading done until 1/2 way through the day.  And, in my head, the reading would be relevant until the next reading (or for 24 hours, anyway.)  so.  We'll see what happens.

but this also means I'll try and get the actual reading posted sooner - possibly with a picture.  We'll see what works.  (Tech is my friend.  Tech is my friend.  Tech is my friend...)

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila


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turns out I could have posted this yesterday... because it was actually about the weather.  A good day to stay home and not do any unnecessary travelling *G*.

-L

112013 - Mannaz

Change is difficult.  Maybe today, instead of making a big change, we can create a synthesis between what was & what will be.

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At first, I thought this was about taking small steps today.  Wanting something to change right now, but needing to do it one step at a time.

And it is.  But, for me at least, I think I had the timing wrong.

Because I do have dreams, goals, ambitions, projects; and sometimes I feel like they're never coming to fruition.

And I was considering all those plans, and, further, all the things I have already done in my life.  Things I did make happen.  And I realized, today's reading may be more of an assurance.  

Things happen in small steps.  The bigger the change, the more people it affects, the longer it takes.  Therefore, don't give up.  Small steps.  Just taking steps.  Keep taking steps.  That is the chain, that is the synthesis, that is the balance.  Change one small thing, and bigger things will grow.  From yesterday to today to tomorrow.

Keep stepping.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

111913 - Jera & Mannaz

A good day to practice balance between spiritual & physical, as more harvest comes in.  Celebrate with moderation, and allow this harvest to propel you further along your path, instead of into old habits.

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Today, many things happened that could be considered the effects of previous causes, but I would say the main example of harvest today, for me, was a surplus of energy.

It has, for me, been a very hard working year.  A lot of energy has been used for myself personally, for situations around me, for others.  Energy being what it is, it's not always easy to pinpoint exactly where we're using it or how effective the use is.

But it is becoming obvious (to me) that I do not need to be expending as much energy these days as I used to.  So I find myself, suddenly, with an excess.

With this energy comes a buoyant feeling of good will, exuberance, joy, bubbles!  Which is very nice.  Certainly a lighter weight than I have been feeling.  Sadly, the extra energy can sometimes create a wave of erratic, possibly manic, behavior.  For example, exuberance when driving can turn to frustration, and then a desire to play monster truck with the people in the left hand lane who are going ten miles under the speed limit!

(inhale.  exhale.  move on.)

I did not like the way I was feeling when I arrived home.  And that, that is not a harvest I desire.

Happily, some of my other skills, things I have been practicing, kicked into gear.  I took a deep breath, stepped back, accepted my behavior and moved on.

For me, moving on meant first, to be productive.  And then, to do some energy work to heal any harm that might have been done.  And when my brain just couldn't operate anymore, I did turn to old habits of eating and watching movies.

Happily, my other major harvest for the year is you.  Because of you, I examined my day again, prepared to flog myself publicly for my terrible actions ( being energetic and a little too gleeful; mentally blowing up vehicles, turning to old habits)  Since fail isn't in my vocabulary, I was trying to find ways to say I'd failed without actually using the word.

But there was no failure.  There was only the same thing there is every day.  Choices were made.  Results were accepted.  And I am here, at the end of the day, feeling happy, because of you.

I now know I need to work on my awareness of how much energy is flowing versus how much I am using.  No sense lighting my votive candle with a dragon -- oh, it could be fun, (insert evil laugh here)  but it'll probably be messy; and it will effect people who had nothing to do with either candle or dragon.  Or even the desire to have light.

And I know I still turn to food and mindlessness for escape.  But since I had celery & peanut butter instead of cake & frosting, I am going to give myself a star.

And I know I still have a tendency to focus on the problem side of the issue.  But, I also have you, to whom I must admit my progress as well as my recurring weaknesses.

So thank you, You.  For being part of my harvest.  And helping me replace old unhappy habits with new, happy ones.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

111813 - Perthro, UrazR

We hope to have some outside help today, some spark to move us forward.  So let that line in the sand be movable.  Listen with more than your personal truth.

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Right.  Well.  If this is about my computer, my line in the sand ain't movin!

Actually, I still have some studying to do this evening.  I'll be reading Christopher Penzac's book on Shamanish later, so hopefully I will be reading with an open mind  and a willingness to contemplate things which make me uncomfortable.  Because really, it is nice to believe, even for a moment, that I do know it all, and thus I need study and grow and learn no more.

But, well, today is not that moment.

So, actually, you have it right there - the daily reading in action.  My hope for a peaceful, helpful, learning experience... and a situation where I am willing to TRY to read another person's advice before doing the visual equivalent of sticking my fingers in my ears and singing "lalalalalalala".  

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

111613 - Naihwaz

Another swell in the storm.  Remember your personal goals, and don't get distracted by irrelevant what ifs.  We will have everything we need.  Everything.

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This applied for me two ways, today.

I did a house cleansing for a friend today.  I do them occasionally, but not so often that I have a definite prep & pack routine.  So, naturally, I found myself wanting to run around grabbing and buying and scouring for things I MIGHT need for the cleansing.

In that situation, Naihwaz definately meant "you will have what you need; if you don't have it you won't need it."

Now, when you're working off-site, that can still be tricky.  Because you have to listen, when going through the supplies, to yourself.  You do have to have enough items, the right items: scent, stone, herb, pen, ruler, paper, clay, whatever... when you travel away from your storage space, you have to make choices about what to take with you.   So one must listen.

But, one listens with intent and consciousness, NOT with grabbing everything in sight "Just in case".  And still, there's most likely going to be a "oh, I wish I'd grabbed..." So one makes do.

Which leads us to the part two of my Naihwaz today... afterward.  "Don't get distracted by irrelevant what ifs."  It is so easy, after doing any work, to devalue all I've done by judging and critiquing and "Oh, I should have."  This is harmful, to self and to all those who've participated in, or benefited from, the work.  There is a difference between thinking, "next time, I would like to try this" and "Oh, I should have done this." The should haves are irrelevant.  The past is.

So.  Coming and going, Naihwaz helped me through something I enjoy doing, but can easily ruin for myself by panic before and judgement behind.

Thank you, Naihwaz.  *G*

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

111513 - EihwazR

Today, #EihwazR is off the cloth.  (ps, this means it physically rolled to a place off of the reading cloth - specifically, upper left).  
You may be dealing with the fear that fulfilling today's needs will deprive others, perhaps your future self.  Is it really concern, or is it guilt?  Choose based on what you can live with, not someone else's opinion.

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As is often the case, when I'm in a tearing hurry and hoping for a quick read, something really complicated arrives instead.  The universe loves me.  (Well, it does.)

Eihwaz is a complex rune in and of itself, being as it balances between two worlds, chooses between now and then.  And being off the cloth meant it wasn't a definite force or situation, so much as a fear.  Or a hope.  An intangible reality.

In the contrary way of the universe, in my perception these intangibles are much more helpful than the tangibles.

We have been doing a lot of practice with choosing -- what makes us happy for the moment?  What feels like our truth?  First we explored what we really desired; then we worked on maintaining those desires regardless of outside approval or disdain; then we worked on showing others, or helping others.  (and yes, if I go back over the daily progression, it probably wasn't as clear cut as that, but that's how it feels to me.)  We learn, we practice, we teach.

So now.  Now we are looking at the next layer.  The why.  
  Sitting in a picture window smelling incense makes you happy.  Why?
  The energy of screaming children is preferable to classical music.  Why?
The intangibles can help us see this, the hidden or underlying fears and hopes.

Today, that intangible was the wrestling between now and then, or us and them.  The haves and the have nots.

And sometimes choice is enough to freeze your decision making.  It's not just, "if I buy a coat today, will I have enough for shoes tomorrow?" 
 It's not even just, "If I buy a coat today, I'll have to buy something for my friend, and then I won't have enough for shoes tomorrow."
  It's also the "How can I buy a coat today, if my friend can't afford the same kind of coat I want to buy?"

There's also the opposite effect.  "Ooh.  I must buy this coat today.  And those shoes.  And buy something for my friend.  Coats for everyone!  Because we may not have it tomorrow!"

Both are extreme examples, but the real and only question is, what makes you happy?  Even if it is guilt that drives you?  Or fear.  Or extreme selfishness.  Or exuberance.  What makes you happy?

Today, I had the opportunity to pay off a debt or two.  And I wanted to pay off as many as I could.  That made me happy.  Exuberant.  Release from the subtle (or not so subtle, in some cases) pressure of "Owing" someone.  And yes, I was aware that part of me thought, "I need to do this today, because I might not want to do it tomorrow.  Tomorrow I might want the coat!"

Shrug.  I did what I could.  And I was happy.  I choice, fully conscious of the motives underneath the manic actions.  Tomorrow's coat, well, that's for tomorrow.

I hope you have a great day.

-Lila

111413 - UrazR

Foundations are a little shaky today; confirm your common ground (language, house, balance) before stepping into new territories.

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I expected this to be about communication today, and, picturing all the scenarios where communication would be important, I planned to be calm and ask questions, not assume things.

But then I was sidetracked by my personal reading.  It was OthiloR, which I read, originally as, the past cannot help you.  Then I was frustrated with myself, because if I were reading for anyone else, I would put a more positive view upon it.  So, I did that for myself...

BUT, it's very possible the first version was the right one, because...

Yesterday, I did my nails with an instant grip base coat, a beautiful copper color, and then an instant dry top coat.

Today, I did a quick tip coloring of teal.  And I always use the instant dry top coat because I do the nails before I do the rune readings.

Except I had switched the placement of the bottles, and instead of the instant dry, I blithely put Instant grip on my nails.  Then wondered what the heck was happening, when I plunged my hand into the bowl of new runes and came out with smears and crinkles.  Sadness!

So, one could truly say yesterday's act did not help me today!

I hope you have a great day.

-Lila

111313 - Blank (Odin's Rune)

"Just go about your business."  So much going on, there's no particular item on which to focus.  Keep practicing.  Keep breathing.  Keep choosing.

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Right.  Well, I chose to finish a project (making a rune set out of sculpy clay.  Yay!).  Then, I chose to clean the little kitchen.  Then I chose to sit down and do nothing.  I am exhausted.  I expect it's from all the projects.

So, tonite I'm choosing to go to bed early.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

111213 - Othilo, Naihwaz

It is ok to gift today, be it knowledge, energy, stuff.  A helping hand now means when you're in need, you will have more than enough.

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My difficulty with today's reading was the number of opportunities to give.  From charity calls to doing a little extra for someone close to hand, the day was full of moments of guilt.  "Was that the person I was supposed to help today?"

But.  When I step back and look at that statement, it just feels slimy.  Gifting something is not an obligation; if it feels like one, then I'm not actually freely giving.

Also, just because the stones say, doesn't mean I HAVE to do it.  Maybe the reading would have been, for me, "There will be many opportunities to give... knowledge, energy, stuff."  But, as always it is my choice what I give and what I retain.  Just because there's a little extra energy or time today in no way devalues our own choices.

Looking back at today, there were moments I  easily stepped in or stepped away, sent out my thoughts to others, gave of time or energy.  That was gifting.

I hope you had a great day!

-Lila

ps - and a side note.  Naihwaz may also have meant, for me, "Yay.  The the end of the project is in sight. Keep going!  You can relax when you're finished. You have plenty of other projects clamoring for your attention, so don't stop now!."

111113 - Hagalaz

Another step in the chain of transformation today.  Another beginning or ending.  Breathe and keep moving...  We're used to this, right?

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We must be used to it, because I stayed pretty even-keeled today.

Today's transformations seemed mostly to do with schedules, for me.  Things I planned to do today I had to reschedule for another day; schedules were also changed for tomorrow & the next day, which necessitated changes for the day after that.

And today also talked to me more about listening to myself.

I needed to go to the bank today.  I kept telling myself to skip it, but I couldn't think of a reason why.  I thought I might be procrastinating.  Nope, turns out, the bank was closed today, due to Veteran's day.  And I totally missed ALL of the clues I was given: like multiple flags on school lawns; gov't workers home from work; many many hints from my inner self to just keep driving and NOT stop at the bank.

So.  Working on that communication transformation.  More.
  Or, not so much working on it as thinking about how to work on it.

Shrug.  No harm was done & it made for a good laugh.

I hope you had a great day!

-Lila

111013 - KunosR, BerkanoR

It may feel like there are no choices, or like it's difficult to make one.  So, just do.  Step forward.  And move on.  The only approval you need is your own.

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Let's talk about levels, shall we?

This reading was about projects, for me.  On two levels.

The first, I'm doing that wonderful budgeting thing, which required me to get all my financial information in one place.  (I switched bookkeeping methods halfway through the year because I like the way Quickbooks does bank reconciliations.)  Of course, I thought this would be a relatively easy process, being as I love numbers and playing with spreadsheets.  
Half way through the day and I'm not even half way through the project... I can either quit or keep going.  But (she shrugs) there is no other way to get the information together the way I want it.  Therefore, through is the only way out.

Concurrently, a project was underway in the household to fix a leaking shower.  One of THOSE projects, where one starts with expectations of replacing a difficult to reach washer and ends up tearing a hole in the wall to replace a broken pipe.  (Happily, the person doing the actual work was able to DO the actual work.)  
But, halfway through the day, in the middle of the project, I can imagine there was a moment of "well, I can either quit, or keep going." My bladder and my greasy hair are thankful he kept going!

And as I was washing my hair (not in the just repaired, the caulk must dry shower, thank you) I wondered... are all projects like that?  You start with an expectation of fulfilling an idea and then you end up in the middle of this big mess and the only way to get anything done is to keep going?  From yard projects to planning events to city construction to country laws.  Things that sound great in the idea stage can become unwieldy half way through.

But the only way to make it through and make improvements is to start and see what works and what doesn't.

So. 

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

11913 - PerthroR

Today's answers come from inside.  Whatever the outside offers, look to your truth, your skills, your feelings to provide what you need.

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For me, this rune was about energy.

Have you heard of energy testing?  It is the method of making decisions based on your body's reactions.  For example - hold something (a cd) in your hand and have someone else push gently upon that arm.  If the arm dips, it means one thing; if the arm stays strong, it means another.  

One can also self test.  The most common method I've seen has you use both hands.  With one hand you form an "O" with your thumb and forefinger, having the tips touch.  The index finger of the other hand rests inside the circle of the first hand, in the curve between thumb and finger, so the starting position resembles a backwards 'Q'.  The testing motion is a slide of the index finger from left to right (or right to left)... from the curve to the joined tips, two or three times in rapid succession.   Picture or say the name of the cd (or object, or question) and see if the finger breaks through the circle.  Breaking through means one thing, not breaking through means another.

I have heard, for most people, if the arm or the circled fingers hold strong, the item or decision is the one that's right for you.  If the arm dips or the circle opens, the decision is negative.

However, when I followed these rules in the past, I have never been happy with the results.  How do I find out?  Go to an energy worker?  Do lots of exercises?  Or perhaps...

...figure out how it works for me!

There are some things I know that I like.  Unicorns, dark chocolate, Alice Cooper.  (Yes, I did type Alice Cooper on purpose.)  So, I tested those first.  And the index finger slipped smoothly out of the circle.  Milk chocolate & musicians I'm not so fond of hearing, the circle did not break.

I listed authors whose books I like (Nora Roberts, Lois McMaster Bujold, Robert Heinlein) and authors I find difficult to read.  Positive was out of the circle, negative stayed trapped within.

I went on to food, which all matched except one - I have no idea why my energy thinks it likes liver!

With this guide, I asked questions about what I really wanted to know - mostly, activities to focus on for the next little while (runes are very positive - yay!), and places I might like to be.

When I went to lunch with my friend, I used the test to see what my body wanted to consume.  I am happy sad to report I did not gorge on appetizers, but the drunken noodles were terrific!

Now, as I've been typing this, I get more varied answers.  Positive things are within the circle, negative without.   Five minutes later, it changes again.  Time of day?  Focus?   A side affect of Drunken Noodles?  The generality of the question?  Knowing I'm just playing?

It will take some time and practice, learning my own language.  But the important part is -- The answers ARE within myself.  I know all I need to know.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

11/8/13 - TeiwazR

Today, concentrate on today.  Enjoy your tree, instead of fretting about the forest.

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I am in a bit of an emotional storm right now, and I don't think it has anything to do with the trees.  Though it might have to do with individuality, and making my own choices.  Oh, and being in the moment.

But, I did sit under a tree today.  If you've read the "Rose is Rose" cartoon, you know about the "let it be" tree.  I do have a tree that I use for meditation, sun bathing, and letting it be.

Letting it be can be a combination of "live for today" and "just breathe".  Because when you're letting it be, those things you have no control over (be it past, present or future) are simply allowed to be.  And when something just is, you don't actually HAVE to do something about it.  It's very liberating.

But another part of enjoying "my tree", as the reading goes, is doing the things I would do, today, working on the things I can do, today.  And letting tomorrow take care of itself.  The yellow skirt may be more appropriate for tomorrow's activities, but I really really wanted to wear it today.

I hope that was coherent enough for you to come back tomorrow.  Or actually Saturday.  I plan to meander through my emotional storm and I don't expect to do a reading tomorrow.  But feel free to check the Meander blog, and see if I make it through!

I also hope you have a great day!

-Lila

11613 - Berkano

Today, others may want to nurture you: tough love, shelter, the extra piece of chocolate.  Will you accept?

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This morning, I used this rune reading to remind myself to give a little extra attention when I was actually dealing with real live persons, especially young ones.

This evening, my first thought upon examining my day was "no, sigh.  No one nurtured me today."  Then I realized that was false.  

It's true there were no overt moments of nurturing.  No serious sit down discussions; no unicorn shaped cakes with my name on.  No foot rubs.

What there were, was?, um... 
 ...what I had were small moments.  An offer to cook a little extra to share with me.  A sentence or two spoken from a person's truth.  A shared joke.  Singing together while the trombone played.  Even a picture on Facebook.

No big fireworks, but, like yesterday, little moments that lend strength to personal bonds.  Little nuggets to think on.  Little fireflies in the darkness of communication.

Maybe that is what this next cycle will be about. Witnessing, and celebrating, the little moments.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

11513 - AlgizR, UrazR

You've got this!  You have all the skills, energy & ideas needed to move forward.  With that in mind, please remember - your truth is not always THE truth.  A little flexibility will help the flow.

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It's nice to know that not everything is a BIG thing.  Granted, every choice leads to one hundred new choices, but...

Today, for me, the flexibility and truth statement involved groceries, the putting away of.

We have a refrigerator/ freezer combo, a freezer, and a small fridge.  Thus, groceries do need to be sorted and taken to the appropriate place.

I carry all the groceries into the house and sort from the counter, where I can pull things out, see what I have, and leisurely remember where each should go.

He, however, wanted to sort them at the car, thus carrying the grouped items directly to the appropriate location.

All well and good, but he wanted me to help him sort, there, at the back of the car.

It was cold outside, today!  I did not want to stand there, shivering, trying to remember if the celery was for snacking (little fridge) or dinner salad (big fridge).  And splitting the frozen sandwiches between the inside and outside freezer was something more easily done with a counter.  In my opinion.

Luckily, I did remember, as I stomped into the house muttering under my breath, that not every body does everything the same way.  He had valid reasons for his approach.

In his opinion.  (even if he was wrong, she types snottily.)

The humor of the Truth being about groceries wiped away the rest of the scowl.

Sometimes, it is the little things.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

110313 - Berkano

Berkano is the rune of nurturing.  Today is a good day to cherish the little comfort things: special drink; a sweet; a moment in the sun; a song that makes your heart glad.  Enjoy today.

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Technically, it being the new moon, I would have taken the day off of posting.  But I haven't pulled a rune in the last two days, so I was itching to do so.  Those days off also pushed me to work, today.

I did take a few moments to sit in the sun.  I also had a very enjoyable cozy meditation.  I had a meal that comforts me.  And...

There was a space of time, today, where the frustration built up.  One project took more patience than expected, and then there was an influx of noise and confusion which created a feeling of claustrophobia.  But, eventually, I did remember to step back, step out, and take a few minutes to make myself happy and calm.  That was the true moment of nurturing myself... stepping out of the chaos (I did go sit outside) and breathing deep.

I hope you had a great day!

- Lila