LIR 22714 - No rune & Wunjo

A day to practice our truths, with no special emphasis. 








 But, if you need something to ponder, try this.  What symbols do you want to represent you?  Around which flags do you wish to gather?


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Yesterday was actually a day of review.  I had a good talk with a friend, to help reestablish some of my thought processes, good food, and some productivity in the writing department.  So.  A good day.

I don't know if I gave much thought to the symbolism thing per se.  I did have a day dream or two about travelling to writers' conferences on a leer jet with a patron/ teacher/ publisher person.  Would the leer jet be the symbol?  Actually, it might, as it signifies the wealth, the freedom and the travel.

Hmm.  I want to be a member of the jet set?

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LIR 22814 - No rune & Othilo

Another day of review, practice, perhaps a little relaxation - with contemplation brought to you by Othilo.
How have family values & traditions influenced your current truths?  Are they compatible?  Divergent?  Still part of the same "family"?

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 22614 - OthiloR

Today's answers may lie somewhere other than the traditional path.  Look not amongst the skills & gifts handed down from family.  Reach outside your ancestral box.

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The situation that comes most to mind regarding this reading is the job hunt.

The questions -  "What do you want to be when you grow up?"  "What is your major?"  "What do you do?"  As if our jobs define us.  And we do, I believe, all want a job, or something, which gives us purpose and makes all the other crap we've brought into our lives worthwhile.

So here  I am, over 40, looking at the jobs for which I may be qualified, and thinking, but do I really want to BE a... sales clerk, file clerk, call center, admin assistant, bank teller...  for the rest of my life?  Do i want that to be my career?

But the truth is, this job search isn't about the rest of my life, in that sense.  It is about the next moment.  Fulfilling my needs for the next moment.  It even says it in most of the descriptions... these are "at will" jobs.  I work there while I want to work there.  They employ me while they want to employ me.  I can work where I find work.  I can switch jobs.  As we all know, life is about change and growth, not stasis.

And I already have a job, I just need more income.  So I am actually looking for a second job.

So, the non-traditional job hunt.  What will get me what I need for this next moment?  And working with something that I can be excited about, or want to learn more about.  Remove the limits of labels and titles.  Heck, given that a lot of companies are hiring temporary or part time, I may end up finding two or three jobs!  On top of the ones I already have.  So.

Also, to stay out of the insurance genre.  For that is a family thing.

And whether I am working in a shop, or alphabetizing, or answering phones, what I DO is still the same - being the best Lila I can be.

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LIR 22714 - No rune & Wunjo

A day to practice our truths, with no special emphasis.  But, if you need something to ponder, try this.  What symbols do you want to represent you?  Around which flags do you wish to gather?

Thank you, and I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 22514 - Taiwaz & Perthro

Today's situation is based on past decisions, past actions.  Some choices were yours, but other people's choices affect us too.

So when you're celebrating your current fortune, you might take a moment to celebrate everyone who chooses.

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There was no one specific moment, but I did spend a lot of time contemplating the past, and which moments - well, which stretches of time, seemed the happiest to me.  

I know we can't go back in time; I know that change is part of my life cycle.  i seem to like the challenge of it, especially if the change creates a project, like moving into a new house or starting a new job.

And I know other people make their choices and those choices can affect us.  Like the house we had viewed and viewed again and made an offer on, and never received an answer, diverting us to a different choice.  

But every day is like that - small moments and big ones.  Every day is based off of previous decisions, ours and others.

Shrug.

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LIR 22614 - OthiloR

Today's answers may lie somewhere other than the traditional path.  Look not amongst the skills & gifts handed down from family.  Reach outside your ancestral box.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 22414 - Wunjo

The clan may be gathering around you, physically or energetically.

How would you call them together?  What symbol or flag would represent them?  And does that symbol align with your truths?

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I would not say I was aware of any gathering yesterday, physically or energetically from any of my various clans.  

The symbology thing was interesting though.  Many years ago I found a symbol, in a book about unicorns, which I adapted to be my symbol.  It is very similar to symbols and runes which are already out there.  I hadn't thought about it in a while.  A long while, actually.

I get daily recommendations from Snag a Job for jobs "in my area"; and I clicked on one suggestion yesterday because of the name of the company.  And there was a variation of my symbol, as their logo.  My stomach did a little jump.  Maybe this was my job!  (heavenly choir, spotlights dancing.)

But.

They were looking for call center persons, which is not something I am currently interested in.  And I wasn't particularly thrilled by the services the company offered.  But I wondered if it was something i should apply for anyway, because I resonated with the logo.  Maybe there was something more to the company.  Something underneath, better than it looked.

But, I tend not to be that subtle, for all I like to call a spade a long apparatus with which one turns dirt.  So my perfect job (with confetti and a kick line) will tempt me with things I am interested in and then reward me with things I like.   My truth has nothing to do with call centers and outsourcing.  Even if it's wrapped with a pretty bow.

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LIR 22514 - Taiwaz & Perthro

Today's situation is based on past decisions, past actions.  Some choices were yours, but other people's choices affect us too.

So when you're celebrating your current fortune, you might take a moment to celebrate everyone who chooses.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 22314 - BerkanoR

It may feel like there's a lack of nurturing today.  Is it a push to keep you moving & working?  Or is it a request for more self-care?  Your truth, your choice.

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Actually, for me, it turned out to be both.

Just after the rune reading, I received an invitation to lunch.  But I'd already planned to do an hour's worth of work - well, two hours' actually.  Working on that routine thing.  But of course it was tempting to chuck it all and go to lunch.  However, with a little help from my friend, I was able to get my planned arithmetic work finished.  Yay!

Then, later, I had a very hard time breathing.  It turns out my bra was restricting (constricting) my airways.  ??!!!!??  It felt like it fit just fine, but, after lugging a box or two upstairs, I started having difficulty with the breathing, felt light headed, etc.  So, I spent the rest of the day nurturing myself.  And this was nurturing my physical self - who needed to go to bed, as opposed to my mental self - who would have preferred to watch tv or read.

Why is it so difficult to find a good bra?

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LIR 22414 - Wunjo

The clan may be gathering around you, physically or energetically.

How would you call them together?  What symbol or flag would represent them?  And does that symbol align with your truths?

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 22214 Hagalaz & UrazR

Old foundations, old rules, crumple under your new truths.  As the truths fulfill your happiness, it's time to create a new foundation.

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The foundation that seems most crumpled for me is that of the routine.

A routine helps, in my mind.  It helps establish a pattern to follow.  It helps make some decisions about who what when and where.  One often unconsciously develops a routine, at work, at home, when the same things need to be done over and over again.

In the last 24 hours, the routine seemed to be what I was focusing on.

As a work at home person, the routine has been most difficult to establish.  Especially when, spiritually, one is often advised to go with the flow.  But, I want to get things done.  If I worked outside of the home, I would have a routine of before work and into work and at work and after work activities.  Some would be flexible, like eating times and whether I really want to put on make up for work.  And others would not be flexible.  Like the time I show up for work.

So, my new foundation seems to be basing itself on establishing a work schedule.  I was late today.  Which means some things will be rescheduled (going with the flow.)  But others will need to be done, which means I'll be working late.

Just like everyone else who takes their job seriously.

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LIR 22314 - BerkanoR

It may feel like there's a lack of nurturing today.  Is it a push to keep you moving & working?  Or is it a request for more self-care?  Your truth, your choice.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 22014 EhwazR

Not all relationships are symbiotic; not all situations require a balance of give & take.  There is no right/ wrong in receiving without giving - or vice versa.

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I expected this to manifest as a situation where I either felt guilty for being on the receiving end of something, or felt annoyed because I wasn't getting any return for my work.

Instead, it became an analysis of my relationships - which ones are symbiotic?  Which ones are codependent?  Is it the same thing?  Which ones are one-timers, which ones are long term?  Is there a relationship that isn't symbiotic, in my life, in the long term?  

Hopefully, this will become a posting or two (or five) for my meanderings page.  There is a lot to think about, when it comes to relationships, how we are programmed for them and to them and through them.  It's easy to talk about change for self and empowerment, but putting it into practice requires changing relationships.

Lot's to think about.

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LIR 22214 Hagalaz & UrazR

Old foundations, old rules, crumple under your new truths.  As the truths fulfill your happiness, it's time to create a new foundation.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 21914 - no rune

I'm taking it as a sign to go back to bed.

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And so I did...  go back to bed.

Truthfully, I shouldn't have tried reading yesterday.  There was pain in my head and my attitude was not receptive at all.

But I'd had a very productive morning, yesterday, doing things much less spiritually appealing to me than rune reading, so I really wanted to read.  It's like a treat.

But I was pretty happy to have the universe give me a by.  Shrug. So let us see what today will bring.

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LIR 22014 EhwazR

Not all relationships are symbiotic; not all situations require a balance of give & take.  There is no right/ wrong in receiving without giving - or vice versa.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 21814 - Sowelo & Mannaz

Recalling a past success or focusing on a goal nearing completion will help bring feelings back into balance.

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I can say the last 24 hours (ish *G*) have been more calm and focused than the previous weekend...  I felt I did good work on the work I was doing, and I've had a good and productive morning.  So, i would say it showed as hard work from previous days, months and years allowed me to slip back into the focused, productive groove.

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LIR 21914 - no rune

I'm taking it as a sign to go back to bed.

I hope you're having a great day!
-Lila

LIR 21314 EhwazR & MannazR

Things may feel out of balance, out of flow, not as symbiotic or sympathetic as usual.  If this works for you, yay!  Otherwise, slow down.  Going faster will NOT pull things together.  And, oh yeah, breathe.

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I've been out of town for a few days, so it's been awhile, (hi!), but I totally remember this one.  Because it worked backwards.

Instead of slowing down, in order to accomplish my goals, I would have done better to go faster.  But every time I felt the urge to speed up, I instead sat down (figuratively - well, and literally once, when I was waiting for something. *G*.)  So, I lost an opportunity I had been waiting for, to have a long conversation with someone.

So while it is true that going faster will not pull things together...  because I do tend to lose things, and I don't multi-task well... it is perhaps time to practice moving with more purpose.  Taking a step back or a deep breath does not mean losing momentum.

Of course, the optimist in me says it turned out the way it needed to be.  Perhaps more conversation would have been ended up putting too many ideas in my head, and I wouldn't have remembered what I wanted to.  (They made the note taking phones just for me!)  Or...

Wait, no second guessing.  No back tracking.  From this point of view at this time, I would like to have had more time for conversation.  So my lesson is, if it says things may feel out of flow, I might want to check twice about what I think the flow is.

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LIR 21814 Sowelo & Mannaz

Recalling a past success or focusing on a goal nearing completion will help bring feelings back into balance.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 21214 Isa

Feeling a little isolated?  Take those moments.  Feeling frazzled?  Step aside & claim some moments.  Use this time to be calm and happy with yourself.  Heal.

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After I did this ready, I took a few moments to decide how I wanted it to apply to me.  I wanted to work, so the isolation and calm moments didn't seem to be about taking a break.  But, a lot of my work worked best alone, so I arranged my way of doing things for optimal alone time, while still getting in some partner time.

And once I'd decided how I was going to work things, I didn't really think about the rune again.  I went to bed happy, though, so whatever I did worked best for me!

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LIR 21314 EhwazR & MannazR

Things may feel out of balance, out of flow, not as symbiotic or sympathetic as usual.  If this works for you, yay!  Otherwise, slow down.  Going faster will NOT pull things together.  And, oh yeah, breathe.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 21114 Wunjo

A day to connect with the family of your heart and share the latest news. 

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Well, okay.  I took this reading as a directive and wrote emails, checking in with people, and making sure others knew about my future plans.  

Interestingly enough, I received an email from my a young person who doesn't do a lot of emailing.  It was about homework.

And reached out and went to see a movie with another heart friend.  That could be a celebration.

shrug.

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LIR 21214 Isa

Feeling a little isolated?  Take those moments.  Feeling frazzled?  Step aside & claim some moments.  Use this time to be calm and happy with yourself.  Heal.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 21014 no rune

again, today, we have no particular issue to focus on. Keep on breathing & growing, believing & sowing the seeds of your dreams.

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The last two days have NOT been business as usual.  I'm not sure if I'm going with the flow, or if I'm trying new ways of organizing my time.  But my routine has not been routine.  And that feels... strange.

But isn't that the goal, when all is said and done?  To keep breathing and growing and moving forward no matter what comes our way?  To have goals in sight but be flexible about how they are achieved?  To float on the winds of change instead of being buffeted by them?

I gave time and energy to all of my work and projects yesterday.  And I spent the day pretty happy.  So does it matter in which order I do these projects?

No.  No it doesn't.  The happier I am, the more I will accomplish.  And the more productive I am, the happier I am.

So, here's to going with the flow.  What's on today's agenda?

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LIR 21114 Wunjo

A day to connect with the family of your heart and share the latest news.  

I hope all is well with you,

-Lila

LIR 2914 HagalazR

The storm is not coming.  But we no longer need trauma to effect a transition.  We breathe, we choose, we change, we grow.

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While it's true the storm did not come from the outside, I created my own storm.  Between the feeling of do, do, do something, and the frustrations of what I chose to work on, I allowed a storm to build.  And then I unleashed it on the innocent messenger.

There was no need for the storm, but there was one.  Had there been no storm, it would have signified change and growth.  Instead, in turns out I need to practice more.  And I need to check my meds again.  Or increase my awareness.  Probably both.  Because, from my view point of do no harm and accept responsibility, allowing the frustration from one project to affect my communication with, well, anyone, is bad behavior.

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LIR 21014 no rune

again, today, we have no particular issue to focus on. Keep on breathing & growing, believing & sowing the seeds of your dreams.

I hope you have a great day!
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LIR 2814 Taiwaz

Taiwaz is about sacrifice, balancing the needs and desires of now against those of the future.

Someone has made a choice in your favor (either your past self or someone else) & today you feel the results.

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Sacrifice is such a scary word.  And I do get all closed off, possibly even uptight when the word comes up.

But really, what is sacrifice?  Well, okay.  I just looked it up and it has a pretty heavy subtext of giving something up.

Then maybe Taiwaz isn't necessarily about sacrifice, with all that heavy weighty portent.  Because nothing I felt yesterday, or participated in, felt like the end result of "sacrifice (dun dun duuuuun)".

I can see some end results.  Behavior yesterday that was refined because of practice in the past.  Additional fun & prizes yesterday because someone decided to give their game tickets to us some months ago.  Work accomplished today because of practice through the year.  And there are/ were probably a hundred little things which contributed to yesterday as the result of work and choices made in the past.

So, Taiwaz, in any position, need to not be portentous.  As my next blog will state (coming up next on the Meanderings page)  it's all about the little things.


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LIR 2914  HagalazR

The storm is not coming.  But we no longer need trauma to effect a transition.  We breathe, we choose, we change, we grow.

I hope you have a great day!

-Lila

LIR 2714 nothing

The universe has no suggestions today.  One breath at a time.  Yay us!

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Yes.  Did you notice that just because the universe had nothing to say, it was NOT a day of rest from retrospection and decision making?  Well, acknowledging things about which decisions need to be made - not necessarily making the actual decisions.  That's for today.

So, for me, yesterday could be compared to a review day.  A day to practice my truths, explore a few old options and see the results, and (still culminating today) make necessary course adjustments.

small example - the much loved snack choice of a spoon full of peanut butter doesn't fill the void and gives me heartburn.  Cereal, however, actually makes me feel full, hits the sweet spot, and has the hand to mouth repetition I like best.  So... a mental and physical change will be taking place.  Probably is even now.

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LIR 2814 Taiwaz

Taiwaz is about sacrifice, balancing the needs and desires of now against those of the future.

Someone has made a choice in your favor (either your past self or someone else) & today you feel the results.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 2614 Mannaz & Ansaz

Be patient, be attentive; be still.  The balance, the inspiration, will come to you, but it has to be able to find you.

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I can't say that the inspiration has come, but maybe the balance has.  By taking each moment as its own, I am working slowly and steadily.

I have the goal, in my  head, what the finished product is or needs to be (like getting the taxes filed.)  And I am working bit by bit toward that goal.  But there are many goals, in this busy and exciting year.  So, the balance is feeling which goal I wish to work at the moment, and letting myself go with that flow.

Much of the medical stuff has been less frustrating that it could be because Kaiser calls us and asks questions!  (Talk about balance coming to us.)  We didn't have to gather up the time and energy to call them.  (Why oh why does talking to health care persons seem so stressful?  talk about perception of judgement!)

Which, actually, is inspiration in itself.  Inspiration for myself.  And a balance between average and personal.  I answer the health questions truthfully (owning my shit); I listen to advice, opinions and suggestions (cause after all, I have chosen to consult with these people); and then I make decisions and take responsibility for my issues.  Whether those decisions fall into the "should" line or not, is totally up to me.  Cause it is my body.  I'm the one who has to live with it.

So there.  Nyah.

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LIR 2714  nothing

The universe has no suggestions today.  One breath at a time.  Yay us!

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 2314 Perthro & MannazR

Is the energy you're putting out there what you want to put out there?  Is your influence in line with your truths?

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Well, the last two days, I have been pretty UNenergetic.  Perhaps the cold (which is extreme in my perception) has tapped the ancient urge to hibernate.  So I cannot say I brought this reading much to mind.  In fact, my influence has been missing the last two days - at least in doing the readings - because I was so focused on whether I was actually warm enough to get out of my chair.

I still desire to do the readings.  I enjoy them.  But I seem to be stumbling over (or playing with) the delivery of the readings.  Video camera on tripod, phone camera, quick snapshot; with intro or summation; wordiness of written reading... the question may come down to, how much work do I want to do related to the readings?

The answer may be, not that much.  Hmm.  So, I may be pondering this reading a little while longer.

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LIR 2614 Mannaz & Ansaz

Be patient, be attentive; be still.  The balance, the inspiration, will come to you, but it has to be able to find you.

I hope you have a great day!
-Lila

LIR 12914 RaidoR

Want to go, go, go?  Wait a moment.  Is it the desire for movement, or the readiness to take the next step which compels you?

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This was actually a very humorous reading, because I had plans, before I did the reading, to go on-site for a client.  Nothing scheduled, but I didn't have a lot of hours logged in the previous week, and I had some filing I wanted to get done.  Even as I read these runes, even as I taped and typed, I thought, yes, but, I really need to go.  This reading doesn't apply to me.  This filing needs to be done!

I got all the way to the garage.  And I took a deep breath, and listened to myself, and myself said, "Don't go."

So I didn't.  I stomped back to the house, berating all the way.  Was I afraid to go to the office?  Did I not want to drive?  Was I being lazy?  Am I a freak?  (well, yes.  But my preferred term is fey.)

First, I really had to go to the bathroom.  So, I was grateful I hadn't been driving when that urge overwhelmed me.

But second, it turns out I wasn't necessarily afraid of something, I was avoiding it.  I was trying to use the busy work of filing to avoid the harder work of year's end processing.  I suppose I hoped if I didn't look at it, it would do itself.  Seriously, where are the accounting elves?  I have plenty of milk and, well, no cookies, but, um, popcorn!  I have popcorn!

So, I did buckle down and get the "right" work done.  (And I did reward myself with popcorn.)  But it's interesting how I was trying so hard to keep the landscape about something else.  Makes me wonder how many other things I've avoided by being virtuously productive?

Meanwhile, there have been other quick readings, but the one below is the one I did this morning.   

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LIR 2314  Perthro & MannazR

Is the energy you're putting out there what you want to put out there?  Is your influence in line with your truths?


I hope you have a great day!
-Lila