92913 Perthro

Today is a good day to hear what others have to say.  (listening <> doing; choice = yours).

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Well, I certainly needed to get out of my own head, today.  But it seemed all I heard from others was not information but demands.

some issues were my own expectations meeting reality with a fatal explosion.  these I managed to accept.  but other issues... well, someone still has a lot of practice to do.  Sometimes I think it's me, sometimes I don't.

But, at the end of the day, having woken feeling spiritual and connected, and going to bed feeling cranky and hermicidal (the desire to commit hermitage), I worry... Okay.  Truth.  I am talking myself out of worrying that I missed something vital.

The beauty of the universe is every death brings a chance for a new life.  sleep is a little death.

shrug.  So.  That was my day.  Hope you had a great one.

-Lila

92613 - Isa

Today seems to be a good day for some alone time.  If you do go out, keep the shield up and use precautions against nasty energy (physical as well as mental).  You too can prevent the spread of viruses!

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Today I followed the advice of the runes, and made choices that would give me the most alone time.

One of these choices involved facing a fear.

I do bookkeeping work for a metaphysical store.  I prefer to do the work before the store opens, and I have been entrusted with a key.

Like all good stores, this one has an alarm system.

Now, when one has an alarm system, there is usually some time allowed between unlocking the door and punching in the code.  After all, one has to get the key out of the lock, close and relock the door, and then find the keypad in the dim lighting.   And until about two months ago, the procedure was painless.

But then, the allowable time between unlocking the door and punching in the code became nano-seconds.  (Or I became very very slow.)  Three weeks in a row, the loud and ear punching alarm would sound before I could finish signing in.  The fourth week, I decided I wasn't going to do it anymore.  I was traumatized and I was going to do what I needed to do to make myself feel good.

So I went grocery shopping instead.  (which tells you how bad it really was.)  And I did the bookwork during business hours.

Today... well, the runes said alone time.  So I gathered my courage, did some deep breathing, and walked to the front of the door.  I complimented the store and asked it very politely to be nice to me.  I breathed some more, shook my hair back, and unlocked the door.  I punched in the disarm code (which I had been repeating to myself over and over and over.)  And the keypad, ever so politely, told me I was safe to enter the building.  Without a single nasty buzz.  As if we'd always been chums.

And yes.  My fingers were shaking.  I thought I'd been exaggerating when I called myself traumatized.  Maybe not.

So, thank you Universe, for telling me, asking m, daring, advising me to take some alone time.

And thank you bloggee, for being the reason for me to post this.  With all the busyness of the rest of the day, I'd forgotten my triumph of the morning.

Yay me!

I hope you had a great day.

-Lila

Life in Runes 92513

Hagalaz.  Algiz.  LaguzR.

A little energetic transformation to shift things.  A little emotional energy to random strangers.  A little bit longer to wait before the take off.

You can send some of the extra enrgy out to others; it may help you feel like you're accomplishing something in this next "now what!" moment.

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Well, if you're following these posts with bated breath, waiting for the next daily adventure, you'll notice I did not comment on my life last night.  It was one of "those" days.

I'm not sure which aspect of life LaguzR was referring to, but Hagalaz sure swept through in the afternoon.  Every expectation of how the afternoon would go, went.  Right out the window.  I don't think I stopped moving.  But the hardest part was actually taking the deep breath and moving through it.  It would have been much nicer to just sit and see if it all went away.  Interestingly, the two things I had been definitely planning did happen.

And as for Algiz, well, I just sent good thoughts to every car I saw.  

So, yesterday was all right.  I hope you had a great day!

-L

92413

So it feels like there aren't a lot of choices today.  This is okay! Just keep doing.  Remember, we are rescuing ourselves.  Yay us!

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I don't know if i have anything to add.  It was kind of a mediocre reading and it was half accurate.

Regarding the "big" event of today, I had few choices.  But all solutions required an outside force for assistance.  (this morning my car was a beautiful paperweight sitting in the garage.  Had to have "roadside assistance" come out and give us a jump start.  The engine light is still on; I have a service appointment.  I did try some Reiki on it first; no foreseeable effect.)

But I did keep doing.  Until I became tired of doing and decided to watch Burlesque instead.  (Beautiful!)

And I am doing again now.  So the day began and ended with purpose.  

All right.  Yay me!

Hope you had a great day!

-Lila

92313

It's time to stop depending on outside sources for emotional validation.  *Some mysterious stranger isn't going to complete me.  I complete me.

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I may complete me, but I could sometimes wish for someone to at least drop the answer in my lap!  Or maybe a hint that involves more than 4 hours of...

Well, I was going to say time wasted, but obviously it wasn't wasted.  I learned more about myself today, and what I want.

I learned there are some things I just can't seem to do easily; formatting and uploading a document to become an ebook seems to be one of those things.  Every time I try, it takes hours to complete, or my computer dies.  Or, as was today's case, nothing happens.  (well, except I curbed an urge to reach energetically through the computer screen and "assist" the customer service rep in understanding my issue.)  

However, uploading documents, attractive web pages, and other things "e-tastic" are a necessary part of my ultimate goal (to sell books).  So, the solution that makes sense is to ask for help.  find help.  Accept help.

So, isn't that depending on an outside source?  In order to get my work validated (ie published!)  

Or did it simply mean the internet wouldn't be helpful today?  Or that the customer service couldn't help me?  Or that my emotional security is not reliant upon the end product of my work?

But in the end, after all the drama, trauma and frustration, it does come to the point.  I am the only person who can make me feel good about myself and about what I have or have not accomplished today.  I am the only person who can ride through the emotional backlash.  I am my own hero.

Yay me!

I hope you have great day.

-Lila

92013

The inheritance is not manifesting today. (othiloR)

  choices can be limited by emotional ties (kunosR)  

Remember: *What do I want?  What makes ME happy?

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It being a long couple of days, I'm tired.  Humorously, yesterday did not succeed as planned.  Sigh.

But, quick analysis of today...
           Well, I tried to take a picture with an inherited camera...  it did not come out in digital the way it looked in life.
           Emotional ties: hmm.  I probably could have encouraged an emotional connection to make a better choice.
           What do I want?  What makes me happy?  This one, I lived by today.  I weighed my choices, decided what I was willing to exchange for what I wanted, and made a decision based on what made me the happiest.  So.  Yay me!

I hope your day was as empowering.

-L

91813

Today is not Eureka day.  Sigh.  Even if the question is answered we might feel there is more to know.  So be it.  Breathe and let it go.  The mind often works best under cover.

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Hmm.  That came as a surprise.

I have been working on trying to write a formula in excel for the 2 days before today.  With "today is not a Eureka! day", I just decided not to waste my time trying again.  Let it sit and see if the answer comes the next time I play with it.  Yay!

Instead, I spent a very productive day getting all my chores out of the way so I could have some time for meditation and celebration tomorrow.

And now, the health of someone else decrees my time will most likely be spent focused outside of myself tomorrow.

Does this have anything to do with the reading?  Does the reading cover this?  The rune was Sowelo R, in air.  
      >Sowelo = success; R is lack of success.  I succeeded in doing all my chores.
      > air = communication, thinking.  I may not have all the meditating time I wanted, but that's tomorrow.  (but I found out tonite.  So that is a goal unfulfilled.)  But that is not necessarily a success or lack there of; my time was cleared.  My actions fulfilled my intentions.  Outside forces and responsibilities to others changed the plans for tomorrow.
    >and if the health requires a dr's visit, there may be plenty of time for meditation in the waiting room. *wry grin*

So.  Though this event is a surprise, I don't know if it's related to the reading.  Should the reading have "warned" me?  Well, no.  The question is general.  "What does the universe want US to know today?"

Besides, this event relied on the choices of others.  Such a decision (to deal with dis-ease) may not have been made, or perhaps confirmed, until right before I was informed.

 Ah well.  Looking back on today, I am glad for all the hard work and by tomorrow I will be grateful for the lack of conflicts.

Hope you had a great day!
-L

91713

Past choices show up again today as another project gets a kick start.  All part of the harvest package here in the universe.
    *I will keep moving forward!*

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What an excellent way to lose a day - trying to figure out how to write a formula in Excel to quickly find data.  If it'd looked up all the figures manually, I would have made more progress.  Sigh.  Preparing for the future is oftimes a little frustrating; especially when dealing with "help" sites that don't answer the question I'm trying to ask.

But.  I will keep moving forward.  I am moving forward.  And I think I'm a little stubborn.  Hmm.

don't know if a project took off, but I certainly tried to remember stuff I'd done years ago in a different version of the program.  Yay?!

-L

91313

We're at the end of the storm.  Keep hold of what you hold precious and focus on your goal.  We will make it with everything we need!

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Many days later: I didn't get back to this one on the night of the reading.  As without, so within.  The physical storm of rain and rain and more rain did finally abate.  Then I had to deal with a personal physical storm - repelling a sinus infection.  I am still at the confusing stage of wondering if it's okay to take a sick day when I am self-employed.

I did focus on the "we will make it through".  Looking back, I might have been more comforted if I'd remembered the other part.  "Keep hold of what you hold precious."

But my goad, battle cry, and all around stock phrase is currently: There are no mistakes!  So, no looking back.  Looking forward.


It's interesting how many different situations can feel like storms.  

-L

91213

It may feel ike the support/ foundation isn't there today.  Good news/ bad news, because it was only temporary.  Time to find a more permanent solution.

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It was difficult to decide how this applied to me today; the foundation, it seems, was more mental than physical.

But I did notice that I was quickly disabused of certain notions today.  My airy castles were dramatic stories constructed about daily events.  Instead of getting supportive commentary and even assistance building, I was told it's time to quit indulging in drama.  And quite correctly.  Turns out I wasn't daydreaming so much as feeding my fears.  Sigh.  Happily, I am also a story teller, so I will still utilize my passion for scenic embroidery.  However, it seems my daily life no longer requires juicy tidbits, be it gossip about self or speculative science fiction about the universe.

Hope you had a great day!

-L

91113

Yay!  Today we havest!  We receive the benefits, reap the rewards, pluck the fruits of our labors.  A taste of the bounty to come.  Celebrate yourself and all your hard word!

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And what did this mean for me today?  This morning, it was a high flying sensation.  A perfect morning of doing a little of everything in my repertoire: reading, rithmatic and ruminating.  Even a little riting advice.

But it feels like I forgot, by the end of the day, to celebrate the harvest.  I only pined for more.  Looking back on what I had.

It's an easy trap to fall into, to feel good and then retreat; to focus on the resting phase like it's a low point.  And to actively look for all the things that could prevent more good days.  Like we're only allowed one?  Never.  Never!  More and more and more.  Today was just a taste of the bounty; a taste of the harvest.  Like testing the fruit to make sure it's going to be ripe.  And I do want more.  I want many more mornings like this morning.  But I want even more than that.  I want days.  I want evenings.  I want weeks and months and years.  I want it all.  Even the resting phases.  I will practice the resting phases as I practiced the skills that give me my bounty.  And eventually, even resting will be a celebration.

I hope you have a great day!

-L

9913

Today may feel like everything is murky & clarification is hard to come by.  Whether you step back and wait for tomorrow or step forward, do what feels right for you in the moment.

9813

*What will nourish me? Which possibility will feed the spark of creativity?