Look. It’s not about the outside influences. It’s not about what others want or think is right. It’s not even about fate, destiny, or what “should” be.
It’s about what we want. It’s about what makes us happy. Each, individually, uniquely happy.
So. What do you WANT?
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Yes, at first, this reading does (did?) seem like a continuation of the last posted reading, about taking time to decide what really works. Weighing influences, in a fashion. And I thought, "Okay. Today I walk into the world with my head held high and my goals in sight and I will not let anyone sway me from my path."
Except.
Except.
What about when i want to be swayed? When I want to be influenced? When I want to stop for a few minutes and hang out with friends? What if being under the influence of friends or family is what I WANT?
Ah, I realize as I sit here. But that's still my choice. My influence. My responsibility and my decision. It's like answering the body's need for calories. I get to choose what form the calories take. I even get to choose, to some extent, when I partake of those calories. I find a balance. I do not (anymore) eat the whole pint of ice cream just because the first half of the carton tasted so good.
Oh yes. I do want to sit with friends in a bar all afternoon and talk. Or sit on the couch and watch a marathon of Lost Girl or Elementary or Agents of Shield. But, I also want to do that indulging with a happy heart. With all of my brain. With the knowledge I am working with myself, not in spite of myself.
So it's really not about the outside influences. It's about the inside ones. My responsibility. My choice. My WANT. And my need. Feeding my body, resting myself when it's time. And getting up and working some more when it's time. Stepping forward and trying to fulfill what I want when it's time.
Because that time is now.
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LIR 62314 - Isa
Today is a good day to isolate yourself a little, to stand apart, to shield from other people, outside influences, habits of the past.
I hope you have a great day!
-Lila
Today is a good day to isolate yourself a little, to stand apart, to shield from other people, outside influences, habits of the past.
I hope you have a great day!
-Lila
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